#preseverance

Codependency my enemy. Facing all the demons got me loosing all my energy. It’s draining me, gotta face reality but I ain’t trynna see the BS the world has for me. Especially now…..trynna make it, beat the odds somehow. Wishing that I could make momma proud cause life’s a bitch but I’m Trynna hold my crown. What if she could see me now…..A clown. Or is that just my mind telling me some bullshit? WOW 😮 Infinity that’s the loop. Forever abundant but is that the truth? torn between living in my misery or jumping the broom. To say yes to myself and fuck whoever else because saying yes to you is bad for my health. I find myself always wanting to be perfect. Always wanting to be the ultimate fit when honestly I’m hallow inside, I can no longer pretend. I’m comfortable but I don’t want to be. Trynna face these demons is hell you see. Taking all over me, thinking all explosively, darkness is all I see, really searching for the key, got to change my reality. I don’t need anyone else to feel love. I’m destined for greatness as I hold my self up. Everything is within even though I can’t see. A reminder to myself, I don’t need anyone else to validate me. Fuck the dark. I am the light. Shadows are an illusion a wolf in disguise. I shall not succumb to your disease. I shall not allow the shadows to alter my being. My space, my place, my happiness, my peace of mind. I cast the away I choose me this time. Get out get out get out!!!!!! Get away from me. Today is a good day just let me be. Release your hold. Loosen your grip. I just want to breathe. I have to strip…..Away……all the pain, all the anger, all the guilt, all the shame, all the things that brought upon this darkness. That little girl inside that just wanted to shine her light. The little girl inside that didn’t stand a chance because nothing ever went right…..To the little girl who doesn’t know what it’s like to feel love. To the part of my subconscious mind that doesn’t feel good enough. This too shall pass it’s me and you. I will never leave or forsake you. I will always be by your side. I will hold your hand and walk with you through the darkness as we are the light. There is nothing to fear……You are never alone. There is always a place inside to call home. Just go inside and think of your happy place. Have fun, enjoy, experience, EMBRACE Every moment as we don’t know our time. So why not have fun until we have reached that line. There’s nothing to fear but fear itself. It can hold you back or you can use it to better self. Use it to understand yourself to grow. Of course there is always gonna be fear when you step outside of your comfort zone. Acknowledge that is it there. Thank it for letting you know you are on the right path, get to working, put your foot on the gas. Never give up. In the darkness lies the truth. You are the light you need. Just be kind to you.

Perseverance landing today!!!!!!! Following in Spirit's & Oppy's track-"steps"