WhispersOfTheSoul

Listening to me believing in me. New ways new depths a new reality. What is this you see? Sink or swim? Live or die. Carry the burden. Love your life. Love love and more love. I give you strength. Fly high like a dove. I want more. Is that a crime? Misplaced by my mistakes, is this what happens when you cross into enemies line. Love is the answer. A new fuse. Listen to yourself. Even the wise once played a fool. What more do i say? What more do i do? They even through Daniel into the lions den……..Will they not do the same to you? No longer can i hide no longer can i wait. Can you go the distance? Do you have what it takes? Take pride in who you are. Take pride in yourself. Understanding comes from the soul. The secrets you kept. Yet still i say and still I listen. The burden I carry. The puzzle piece I’m missing. Disregard the noise. Disregard the talk. You can’t make everyone happy. With God I walk. Climb every mountain, leave no stone unturned. I will see the truth, the light, I will rise above. Now shall I rejoice in the love that is forbidden? Shall i reap what I have sewn, even if i wasn’t living? Take your time and time shall tell. A master of disguise no winner shall prevail. Uncloak the enemy, do away with the disguise. Give grace to your enemies give grace to that which loves inside. Understanding the knowledge that you so dearly seek because even the wise once played a fool. You are the answer you seek

Finding new ways of expression. Am i in heaven? Is it worth it? How do i speak, what do i say? Do i hold my tongue? Should i wait for a new day? Is it me? Is it you? Open up I’m confused. Hello everyone. I don’t really have anything to say. I’m just a kid who loves to play. Can i be me? Is it safe to rave? I like to fly maybe I’m a bird. What’s this doing? What’s the word? Treatment need help. Barely anything left. If me??? Of me? Be free. Love please. Let go. Half a tank. Fill it up. Don’t sink. need it. want it. here we go again. Caught up in words that have no meaning. How about you show me. Show me the truth. Show me actions. Don’t leave me hanging cause I’m stuck on you, what a fucking fool

Am I in another cycle ? most likely doing things that only catch the eye see I get so caught up on a fantasy gambling with my life it’s getting hard to breath gotta clear the smoke illusions all I see Playing with myself man its 3rd degree murder its intense. Tired of hiding why won’t I come back to my senses? I can no longer pretend in my heart I know I’m missing? Why won’t you show you face the time is now I will listen.

Codependency my enemy. Facing all the demons got me loosing all my energy. It’s draining me, gotta face reality but I ain’t trynna see the BS the world has for me. Especially now…..trynna make it, beat the odds somehow. Wishing that I could make momma proud cause life’s a bitch but I’m Trynna hold my crown. What if she could see me now…..A clown. Or is that just my mind telling me some bullshit? WOW 😮 Infinity that’s the loop. Forever abundant but is that the truth? torn between living in my misery or jumping the broom. To say yes to myself and fuck whoever else because saying yes to you is bad for my health. I find myself always wanting to be perfect. Always wanting to be the ultimate fit when honestly I’m hallow inside, I can no longer pretend. I’m comfortable but I don’t want to be. Trynna face these demons is hell you see. Taking all over me, thinking all explosively, darkness is all I see, really searching for the key, got to change my reality. I don’t need anyone else to feel love. I’m destined for greatness as I hold my self up. Everything is within even though I can’t see. A reminder to myself, I don’t need anyone else to validate me. Fuck the dark. I am the light. Shadows are an illusion a wolf in disguise. I shall not succumb to your disease. I shall not allow the shadows to alter my being. My space, my place, my happiness, my peace of mind. I cast the away I choose me this time. Get out get out get out!!!!!! Get away from me. Today is a good day just let me be. Release your hold. Loosen your grip. I just want to breathe. I have to strip…..Away……all the pain, all the anger, all the guilt, all the shame, all the things that brought upon this darkness. That little girl inside that just wanted to shine her light. The little girl inside that didn’t stand a chance because nothing ever went right…..To the little girl who doesn’t know what it’s like to feel love. To the part of my subconscious mind that doesn’t feel good enough. This too shall pass it’s me and you. I will never leave or forsake you. I will always be by your side. I will hold your hand and walk with you through the darkness as we are the light. There is nothing to fear……You are never alone. There is always a place inside to call home. Just go inside and think of your happy place. Have fun, enjoy, experience, EMBRACE Every moment as we don’t know our time. So why not have fun until we have reached that line. There’s nothing to fear but fear itself. It can hold you back or you can use it to better self. Use it to understand yourself to grow. Of course there is always gonna be fear when you step outside of your comfort zone. Acknowledge that is it there. Thank it for letting you know you are on the right path, get to working, put your foot on the gas. Never give up. In the darkness lies the truth. You are the light you need. Just be kind to you.

I have to make time. It’s essential. I need me. I have to give me what I need. I have to be patient but fuck I’m tired of waiting. How much longer? How much longer do I have to suffer. I’m doing my best. Help is on the way. Really?? Is it really because turmoil is all I see. Changes every where all around. I don’t know wtf I’m doing. I thought this was the easy part but now you’re telling me there’s only more fucking work to do. Like WTf???????? I’m exhausted. No sleeep. No breaks just wondering endlessly. How are things gonna go? What am i gonna do? How can I do this without doing that? BROOOOOOO WHERE TF IS THE ANSWER. Keep going to find out. Experience experience experience. Don’t give up. Success is inevitable.

Fortune favors the bold well I’m steady taking risks but why do i feel as though this isn’t it. Is it because things are happening the way that I want them to. Is it because there is a possibility of me having my dreams come true. Why is it that the things we won’t most we always seem to push it away? Why is it that when God answers our prayers, we question the very same thing we ask for. Knock knock…..”God is that you?” Hell YEAH!! I know it. You know it too. Fortune favors the bold so tell me what are you going to do? Are you going to wine, scream, cry, and pout? Or are you going to rise up like a Phoenix out of the ashes 🔥your wings sprout. A test of time I tell you the truth. Fortune favors the bold so tell me………What will you do?

Readjusting to my new life. Trying to take it all in stride. Reminding myself to stay true to who I am on the inside. Never to compromise my self for the sake of another unless it’s in my best good and not dragging me down under. I continue to choose me. I continue to be brave. I continue to take a step forward because the universe favors the brave. Not afraid to step out on faith and let my colors show. This is me, this is who I am and I want the world to know. No longer shall I hide my face and stand in the back of the line. The last shall be first this time around. I’m moving forward and stepping with purpose. Being intentional with myself to fulfill my urges. My desires for love, community, and belonging. I have it all right here. My time is upon me. So I continue to choose me and spread my light. I continue to show who I am inside. Fuck the naysayers. They just hating anyways. It’s my turn now. No longer shall I be a slave. To the world the world around me or even my mind. I choose love and truth as this is where the the liberation lies. And yes sometimes it gets tough but I hold on. I have the strength of a lion. I am strong.

When you are tired and feeling all alone. When you search afar but no place feels like home. When you want to try and scream it all out. When you feel like enough is enough and you want to pout. When things don’t go the way you planned. When you thought you had it all figured out but then shit hits the fan. When you are feeling low and not like yourself. When you have to pretend to be someone else. Know that there is a space for you. Know that you have a vision and dreams do come true. Know that you are infinite and you are love. Know that you are beautiful like the stars above. Feel everything as it arises and stay true to thee. Don’t run away. The truth is what you need. To feel safe within and not have to look out……To know who you are and not let anyone push you about……To own your power and be the magic that you are. To be an empress/emperor a warrior to the gods. Let it all out just to breathe it back in. Know that you are protected if you go within.