#mtbilife

I crave a love so deep, that I'd do anything for that person, anything to protect and keep them safe. It's scary because I don't know if I'll ever find someone to love like that.

One day you'll be standing at crossroads making decisions you'd never thought you'd have to be making.

Your dreams, passion, hopes , love and maybe even life. etc etc all at once * (duh you didn't think I'd be writing about easy choices, did ya?)

And all the roads not taken will haunt for sure. But shush that noise! You're wise enough to have made a choice. That's that. That's done.

"Somewhere the timing will all come together.The mishaps will turn into sunny Decembers" 🎶

Don't beat up yourself on choices so tough, they were given not to see if you could make the right one but to see if you're courageous enough to make one.

-SAY (@intpfemale )

It was at 21 that I decided that I wanted to/was ready to be in a relationship.

(yup around 2018)

Prior to that I did have a few people I had a crush on but that's it. It was never more than that.

Until then I was pretty unbothered about love or the idea of love. I knew it existed but frankly speaking there was always so much to look around that I easily got distracted and never even thought of getting into a relationship or getting to know someone because I was so much busy trying to understand myself and the environment around. It was like I had just stepped into an unknown territory and I had a lot other things to learn and explore before the idea of love/lover even crossed my mind.

- SAY (@intpfemale)

My parents/friends or just any person who knows me or think like they know me - always make me feel like my opinion/wants/ideas/principles are trival/insignificant.

They always want me to value their useless and unnecessary emotions and when I show or cry about things that I value, they say I'm making a "fuss" or being a "drama queen" , which is not the case since I only act like this when things really matter to me. But they just don't understand.

They all come at me, it's like a one against all battle. And it's so tough, having to fight for what you feel important when everyone out there is waiting to prove you wrong. Most of them just want me to admit that I'm wrong . But I know I'm not.

Most of the time I let things slip by bc I know it's useless fighting with such low beings but I won't back up when those things really mean something to me. But I just feel this is unfair towards me since I have to fight to prove my point while they just want me to willingly accept theirs.