Silco turns, pressing his face into Vanderâs chest as a storm howls inside him. Vander strokes his back.
âYou can ask me to hold you, birdie,â he murmurs. âI wonât turn you away.â
âItâs too hard.â Silcoâs voice is choked.Â
Vander hums and dips his fingers beneath Silcoâs collar, massaging the back of his neck. Silco shudders, squeezing at his thick sides.
âI always want to hold you,â Vander says, like a confession. âIs it alright when I reach out and touch you?âÂ
Silco nods against his chest.
âAnd youâll tell me if you want me to leave you alone,â Vander prompts.
âIâm quite capable of being mean to you.â Silco tries to lilt his voice with irony, but he sounds weak and quavery.
âItâs not being mean,â Vander insists. âPlease be honest with me if you donât want something. You can always turn me down. I want to be close to you, in whatever way you want.â
Silco shudders against him, tension rippling through his torso and limbs. Vander holds him tighter, wrapping their legs together and squeezing his sides. Eventually, Silcoâs trembling slows and his tension releases, his muscles going loose and pliant. Vander nuzzles at his temple.
After a long moment Silco speaks.
âMy safeword shall be âZaun,ââ he says languidly.Â
âThatâs a terrible safeword,â Vander protests. Silco can hear the smile in his voice. âYou say it all the time! You should pick something you wouldnât normally say, like âeucalyptus,â or something.â
âEucalyptus?â
âOr something!â
âMy safeword shall be, âLeave me alone, you distracting oaf, Iâm trying to work and youâre talking to me about eucalyptus.ââ
Vander laughs. Silco feels it vibrate through his chest and belly. His breath releases in a gasp.
âI love you,â Vander says against his temple.
â...âlove you,â Silco murmurs.
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Charlotte Griffiths, first and foremost don't think we've forgotten about you and how you disrespected HRH Prince George and his parents.
To every talking head busy body member of the media who shared or re-shared a patient's medical treatment schedule: you need to Grow Up, and fast because one day the emperor of all maladies will attack someone you love, and you'll want to look back knowing you did all you could to offer sympathetic respect to the suffering.
For you to propose something as stressful and traumatic as a "family reunion" on a scheduled treatment day suggests that you are intentionally hoping to traumatize the patient. Is your intent to see the king hospitalized or are you simply ignorant?
What exactly do you think the king is doing in London on his treatment day----seeing some shows? Oncologist on Ice? Legally Poisoned in the West End?
You never would have disrespected Queen Elizabeth or Prince Philip in this manner, but gosh if you have such a talent for brokering "peace agreements" then by all means resign from your media posts and join the teams of people around the world working to stop Abraham's sons and daughters from killing one another. Until you have the magic wand to schedule an end to the world's most life threatening family conflicts, perhaps you can practice on your own family trees and then you'll shut the hell up about scheduling peace talks for other people's families.
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Matt Damon and Casey Affleck's interview with Parade (2 August 2024)
Matt Damon and Casey Affleck Reflect on Life Before Fame: 'We Had Mattresses On the Floor'
The Academy Award-winning duo talks first roles, finding success and 'The Instigators,' their hilarious new heist movie.
By Mara Reinstein | Photography by Alexia Barroso [Matt's eldest daughter]
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Any story about Matt Damon and Casey Affleck must start with Boston. Itâs their home, where they met, became friends and started their acting careers. The city also serves as the backdrop for soooo many of their charming anecdotes.
Hereâs one: Growing up in the 1980s, the two of themâalong with Affleckâs older brother, Benâfound work as extras by hitting up a family friend who happened to be a local casting agent. They had slightly different approaches to the work, Damon recalls.
âBen and I were in high school and took it very seriously,â Damon says. âBut Casey had it figured out. Heâd show up with a basketball because if you came with a prop, youâd get an extra $5.â
Casey chimes in, âThey did crowd work. I liked to stand out, so Iâd do individual street crossing!â
Fast forward almost 40 years, and Damon, 53, and Affleck, 48, both are instantly recognizable movie stars with seven Oscar nominations and two trophies between them. (Damon won in 1998 for writing Good Will Hunting with Ben; Casey nabbed Best Actor for 2016âs Manchester by the Sea.) Theyâve acted together in projects like the Oceanâs trilogy and in last yearâs smash Oppenheimer (albeit without any shared scenes.) Now theyâre the leads in a scrappy and smart comedy-thriller heist movie. Guess where it takes place?
In The Instigators (in select theaters on Aug. 2; streaming on Apple TV+ on Aug. 9), they play Boston-area dads from different backgrounds brought together to rob the cityâs corrupt mayor. After the heist goes awry, the pair go on the run even as theyâre pursued by criminals and various law enforcements. (Hong Chau, Jack Harlow, Ron Perlman, Ving Rhames and Michael Stuhlbarg round out the ensemble.)
âOur primary goal was that it would be fun and the audience was going to have fun and we wouldnât overstay our welcome,â Damon explains.
No doubt âfunâ is the operative word for these two judging by their dynamic during a joint interview recently with Parade. At the outset, DamonâZooming from his home in Brooklyn Heightsâcheerfully offers this about the slightly tardy Affleck: âIâll give him sât when he comes on ⊠Iâve been doing it for 40-something years!â
After the L.A.-based Affleck pops onscreen, Damon fulfills his promise.
Affleck replies, âHey, itâs a little earlier out here!â
Their relationship is akin to a brotherhood. They like to talk shop and cheer on their Boston sports teams. Their kids are all friends. Damon and his wife, Luciana Barroso, have daughters, Isabella, 18, Gia, 15, and Stella, 13, and stepdaughter, Alexia, 26. Affleck and his ex Summer Phoenix share two sons, Indiana, 20, and Atticus, 16.
âCaseyâs kids are older and cooler,â Damon says. âAnd Indie is a handsome young gentleman. When he comes to dinner at our house, it causes quite a stir!â
Three days after their Parade interview, Damon and Affleck were set to throw out the first pitch in Fenway Park as their beloved Boston Red Sox played the New York Yankees. (FYI, one key scene in The Instigators is set inside the historic baseball stadium.) While they were excited about it, Damon joked, âIf we embarrass ourselves, donât put it in the story!â
OK, deal. But everything else is fair game for this weekâs Parade cover story.
Mara Reinstein: So, no nerves about the first pitch?
Matt Damon: Weâve played a lot of games of catch in our lives, so itâs not going to be an issue. I mean, if we have to throw a strike from the mound, thatâs a little harder.
Casey Affleck: I had surgery on my elbow and havenât thrown a baseball in a couple of years, so this will be my first time!
Damon: He has a really good arm. Iâm only worried if Caseyâs elbow falls off.Â
[UPDATE: They handled it beautifully.]
Matt, didnât you and Ben sit in Fenway Park as extras during that famous Moonlight Graham scene in Field of Dreams?
Damon: Yeah, we were two of 3,000 extras for a few days. And Casey used to sell sausages outside the park on Yawkey Way.
Affleck: It was illegal! But I did it in eighth grade, ninth grade and tenth grade.
Was The Instigators always going to be set in Boston?
Affleck: Itâs possible we would have re-set it there if it wasnât. Itâs just easier to make a movie where you know the place inside and out.
Casey also co-wrote the screenplay. Did you always have Matt in mind to play your partner in crime?
Damon: Absolutely not!
Affleck: I send Matt everything, and itâs usually âNo.â So now itâs just an exercise in rejection.
Damon: I think it's because he hadnât written this for me that I really wanted to do it. But Casey showed it to me, and I started talking to him about it. Midnight Run [from 1988] is one of our favorite movies, and it's kind of the North Star if you're going to try to do a movie like this. Hopefully our movie is like that. You care about the characters and it leaves you with something.
Do you think about your friendship when you film a movie together?
Damon: You canât not think about it. I don't think we think about it in the terms that people on the outside do. I mean, Casey drives me absolutely crazy, and I say this in a loving way, like the way your brother [Ben] can drive me crazy. But I love working with him because he pushes me and I push him. And there's something very, very nice about it. We tend to spend a lot of time in this business on diplomacy. People's egos are involved, and you don't want to hurt anybody's feelings. But with Casey or with Ben, the dance is just entirely dispensed with, and we just are very blunt with each other. It really helps to have people that you've known for a long time because it's never in doubt that there's an underlying love and respect and loyalty to each other.
Casey, whatâs your take on it?
Affleck: He said it perfectly. But coincidentally I just had this experience last night: So I smashed my toe really bad, and I had to go out with my girlfriend [actress Caylee Cowan] to Rite Aid late at night. We hobbled up to the door just as the store was locking up. So we turned around in this empty parking lot and Iâm hopping on one foot. I looked up, and there was this Instigators poster all lit up with our dumb faces on it. I just laughed aloud. It was funny after all these years that the two of us are up there on this huge billboard. Times like that I think itâs really funny, and I think about our friendship. But not when weâre filming the movie.
You two lived together in L.A. with Ben in the mid-â90s before hitting it big with Good Will Hunting. Do you miss that time in your life or are you relieved that youâre no longer struggling?
Damon: When I say Casey drives me crazy, it's rooted in experience like that. Like Casey graduated high school, and he and his close friend who had also graduated high school moved in with Ben and me. So weâre in our early 20s, and these two 18-year-olds wreaked havoc on our living situation for a year. But we had a great time and those were actually really wonderful years. I do look back now on those years really fondly. But it wasn't easyâwe were all worried and it was a very insecure time. We all had mattresses on the floor. The house was a mess. We were young and full of ideas and nervous about what our lives would bring, and I don't miss that feeling.
Affleck: Iâm nostalgic for any period other than the last 10 years. Like anything before I turned 30 was really the best. I was, like, sleeping on the floor and had really difficult and challenging things going on in my life but I still love that period because it was so fun. In some ways, it was really fun to not think about a career at all and not have any personal expenses and responsibilities, and to just take jobs that you liked that were exciting and just a little bit beyond your grasp. Matt and I did a play together in London [This Is Our Youth in 2002], and I thought it was so new and exciting.
Did you honestly foresee each otherâs wild success?
Affleck: Well, Matt was older than meâI was in high school when he started to work. Also, I always assume that it's easy to see the talent and intelligence in others, and feel like, Jeez, I hope nobody notices that I don't have any of that. Everyone feels like a fraud a little bit. So I was never surprised that Ben and Matt succeeded because I was around for them for years and watched them write their own success.
And Matt gave Casey his Oscar-winning role as a grieving father in Manchester by the Sea. Could you ever imagine the day?
Damon: That was the best role that I'd seen in maybe 20 years. But I couldnât do it because I had The Martian and a big spate of work lined up. I told Kenny [writer-director Kenneth Lonergan], âThe only person in the world that I will give this role to is Caseyâ because he was the only person who could do it the way it deserved to be done. I'm not surprised at all by any of Caseyâs success. He's one of the best actors in the world, and he has been for a very long time.
Matt, your daughter took the Parade cover photo. That must have been quite the proud dad moment!
Damon: Thatâs Alexia. Sheâs 26 now and has always had an incredible eye. She's always wanted to be a photographer and cinematographer. That's the part of the business that always appealed to her. Now she took these shots of us that are on a cover! There was a moment when she was like, âOK, sit back-to-back on the floor.â And Casey turns to me and goes, âThere is no one else in the world I would do this for.â Sheâs like a secret weapon.
Do you think your other daughters will be artists, too?
Damon: You know they're not quite all adults yet. Our second-oldest is on her way to college, and then we've got a 15-year-old and a 13-year-old. But I want them to do whatever they want. We donât put any pressure on them. I think oftentimes, it seems to be generationalâyou grow up in the circus, and so the circus seems like kind of a normal way of life. But I don't know that any of my other kids will go into it. I can see the younger three all doing various different jobs and doing them really well.
Casey, are your sons interested in the Hollywood thing?
Affleck: I hope they donât do the Hollywood thing. Also, it's just hard to know what you want to do with your time. Theyâve both done plays and theater programs and have made little films at home. That's what we were doing at that age, so if that's any indication, then maybe they will. But I don't think the movie business has quite the same allure that it did when I was their age, because so many other things scratch that itch. So they don't go to movies as much, they don't watch movies quite as much as we did. I think they love expressing themselves dramatically for sure. But I'm not sure if they're dying to go be in a movie.
When was the last time you went to the movies?
Affleck: I just took my son to see Lawrence of Arabia, the new 70-millimeter print, at The Egyptian. And it was unbelievably beautiful and this overwhelming cinematic experience that I hadnât had in years. It was in this beautifully renovated movie theater, and the movie really casts a spell. Movies now just donât do that. Itâs a bummer that people don't often go out of their house and show up to see something like that.
Is that why both of you also write and produce? You have to stay fulfilled, no?
Affleck: I think so. You have to do that to stay creatively satisfied between new things and take on new challenges. At a certain point, you feel like you have your own stories you want to tell, now that you start to feel like you understand how movies are made and that you can be the person who's in charge for once.
A very important last question: Whatâs your Dunkinâ order?
Damon: Large regular coffee. I try to cut down on the sugar now, but that's my coffee order. And then, and then, it just depends on ⊠you know, I love a chocolate doughnut.
Affleck: Chocolate glazed and a large black coffee for me.
Damon: Yeah, but his coffee has cream and sugar in it!
This interview has been condensed and edited for length and clarity.
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They only use you
Youâre not a person
only a convenience
âNot a friend
but an opportunity
Youâre not important
Youâre available
They donât love you
They love your benefits
They never show up
Even though you have
They never have your back
Even though youâve had theirs
They give nothing in return
Only leave you to burn
They arenât worth a dime
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