#histrionic pd

how it feels to isolate yourself while also constantly checking your notifs to see if anyone gaf

This doesn’t mean the disorders an excuse, but it also means not to hate someone just for having one.

I can take things way more personally than other people realize, even small changes in tone or attention.

If someone seems distant, I might immediately assume they’re upset with me or losing interest, and it can spiral fast.

I sometimes need constant reassurance, and when I don’t get it, I can become clingy, upset, or reactive. 

I can accidentally make everything about how I feel, even when someone else is the one going through something.

When I feel ignored, I may say or do things that are bigger, louder, or more emotional than I truly intended just so someone notices.

I sometimes confuse intensity with closeness, assuming a strong moment means the relationship is deeper than it actually is. 

I can struggle with feeling “boring,” so I may perform a version of myself that feels more interesting, dramatic, or desirable.

My mood can shift depending on how people are responding to me, which makes my sense of self feel unstable. 

I may chase validation even when I know it’s unhealthy, because being noticed can temporarily make the emptiness or insecurity quieter.

Sometimes I regret how intense I came across and worry that people see me as “too much.”

I can unintentionally test people’s loyalty or affection because I need proof that they care.

Complex Dissociative Disorders describe disorders which have a severe, complex dissociative response to trauma. This describes a specific pattern of trauma responses, which is often related to needing an escape from a situation that is experienced as inescapable.

This is no different to other disorders which originate in trauma, such as Personality Disorders.

Personality Disorders are usually* developed due to childhood trauma. Similarly to a CDD, they are specific patterns of recognized trauma responses. Most, for example, have a recognized pattern of relationships with themselves, others and the world, as informed by trauma. Narcissistic Personality Disorder, for example, is often rooted in the belief someone is worthless or will not have their needs met by caretakers, and causes narcissistic patterns to be ingrained into coping mechanisms, as a trauma response.

None of these exist on a spectrum from least to most severe trauma, they are all just recognizable patterns of trauma responses.