Update
Well... we got our first foster placement of three boys! 5,4,20 months! They were dolls! They made me a mama! It was absolutely filled with all the love and emotions that run high when raising three children.
They are now with the paternal grandmother and I get to see them tomorrow with my mama!
We had a little boy, TJ for all of 4 days! He was 20 months! Absolutely adorable and a nearly terrible 2 all in one!
With all these emotions on high, I truly worry about the emotional differences in my partner and I! I have such strong ties and bonds with these children in such short time and she just doesn’t. She has no qualms about saying it either. She flat out said in a discussion if we never got pregnant or another kid, it wouldn’t phase her. I on the other hand couldn’t stay in a life without children or the possibility of experiencing more of motherhood with foster children and with the possibility of our own! My heart is completely breaking... I just feel like we’ve come so far to be smacked in the face. Did I push this to make it happen for myself... to make what I wanted to fit, fit?












