lisa rowe you were sick, I could never hate you
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lisa rowe you were sick, I could never hate you

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sometimes i feel like theres seams in my skin
and i worry that someday i'll try and open them
Me: *makes a post about DPDR*
Person Using The Internet: Uhhhh no…. That’s DID/OSDD. You have DID/OSDD. Sorry :/
Me: Oh, nono, full respect to those who do, but I don’t have DID or OSDD. :)
Person Using The Internet: Yeah but I have DID/OSDD and experience the symptoms DPDR and I related to this post.
Me: but. but that’s because you have experience symptoms of DPDR. that doesn’t mean that I have DID/OSDD.
these always trigger the worst episodes
I think the dangerous thing about c-ptsd is that it's very easy to taint the present because of either 1) emotional flashbacks, or 2) dissociations.
Sometimes it takes one little reminder of the past to return to the headspace of that time. So if you used to feel hopeless, that feeling gets transported to your perception of the present, and suddenly you're spiraling because everything in your present and future feels hopeless.
And you gotta shake yourself out of it and remember, wtf! This is not my reality, i have things in the present that i care about and i have things i look forward to in the future.
Dissociations really fucking suck tho because if you get too comfortable in them and let em go on long enough, you start neglecting everything around you because you don't want to exit the safety of your head and return to reality.......

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going outside with derealization doing the derealization stuff is so miserable. like looking at the blank sky and the surrounding area illuminated in sunlight is just so inexplicably unsettling when you just can't feel like you're There and everything you see just feels infinitely distant, with the only thing you can do about it just being complaining to the void online when you get home