The Sharpening

pornhub.com/men tied up and whimpering and suffering

thank you for the tag @eternal-sunflowers mwahmwah

last song: honeybee by olivia rodrigo (tbh the whole new album has me in a chokehold 😭)

last series: B99 (I'm currently watching friends for the first time as well :D)

last movie: the notebook!

current obsession: matt murdock ofc <3 and OLIVIA'S NEW ALBUM OH MY GOD I LOVE IT TO BITS.

currently reading: white nights by fyodor dostoyevsky

currently working on: A LOT OF FICS, but specifically the chapter three of my mermaid au with matt, and the surprise project based on the new olivia album :D, but other than that i'm also working on my design portfolio!

last search: prosaic

tea or coffee: coffee (specifically cold coffee) but also i love tea too (mostly iced tea)

favorite fruit: PINEAPPLE also mangos

favorite flower: forget me nots and sunflowers

favorite color: red, blue, and yellow :>

thank you sm for the tag nini U3U 🫶🏼

Last Song: Champagne Coast by Blood Orange (who's surprised)

Last Series: OUTER RANGE!!!!

Last Movie: Remarkably Bright Creatures

Current Obsession: true crime videos on yt lmfao😭😭😭

Currently Reading: fanfics :P

Currently Working On: reader x harcourt yuri ehehehe

Last Search: FIFA World Cup 2026 schedule

Tea or Coffee: TEA!!!! CHAI!!!!!

Fav Fruit: 🥭 XD

Favourite Flower: Chrysanthemums

Fav Colour: Green, Pink and Teal

thank you for the tag <3

Last Song: ACAI by CORTIS!! It's stuck in my head!!!!! I woke up to my mind singing "WHO IS CHOCKING? I DONT CARE! WHO IS CHOCKING? I DONT CARE! WHO IS CHOCKING? I DONT CARE!"

Last Series: Resident Alien but I just started Peacemaker last night

Last Movie: Hoppers or Captain America?

Current Obsession: Joel Miller & daydreaming (its bad again ngl)

Currently Reading: lots of Joel Miller fics

Currently Working On: a dex fic but its slow progress

Last Search: bdsm test

Tea or Coffee: Coffee

Fav Fruit: 🍒 & 🍓

Favourite Flower: Water Lillies

Fav Colour: Green, Blue, Red, Grey, White (I dont do favorites lol)

Last Song: Slush Puppie by Cute Whore

Last Series: Daredevil: Born Again

Last Movie: Obsession

Current Obsession: Bullseye has taken up all space for over a month.

Currently Reading: The Lucifer Effect: Understanding How Good People Turn Evil by Philip Zimbardo

Currently Working On: My Dex fic.... and university stuff ugh.

Last Search: Aquatic Center schedule

Tea or Coffee: Coffee ☕️

Fav Fruit: Lemons and Oranges. Pineapples if the day is hot.

Fav Flower: Purple wildflowers and hydrangeas in general.

Fav Colour: Blood red has always had my heart, but more recently, gold and royal blue

Therapist suggested I should continue using proper spaces to let out intense emotions (like martial arts & the occasional rage room) but that I should try something that isn't physical activity.

Because I've gone through a lot of conditioning and habituation, the amount of intensity I need to externalize things got too high...... which is why weightlifting does nothing for me anymore as opposed to sparring to half an hour, and even sparring has to be super intense.

SO, I'm going to try to dump my thoughts and feelings into paper. Not really in a journaling way but in rage dump way, drawing and just jotting down random stuff without thinking about it....... sigh.