#cognitive issues

its so incredibly scary, it feels like your mind is constantly playing tricks on you and you start to doubt whats real and what isnt.

I'm not "just indecisive". I can decide what I want from a menu. I just struggle to decide what to do, when to do it, how to do it, and whether or not I should do it. I struggle to organize my schedule, do mental math, navigate directions, and I rely heavily on other people and depend on a steady routine. I spend so much of my day fighting through it.

it absolutely affects daily activities, hygiene, changing clothes, making food, leaving the house, getting through the store, getting to the store, or whether to even get out of bed in the first place... I can't even list everything that gets screwed up.

Cognitive symptoms, executive dysfunction, disorganized thinking, they're all very real but if you experience problems with these things you probably walk around feeling like everyone thinks you're an idiot which doesn't feel great on top of the isolation and stigma you already feel

"Stop blaming everything on schizophrenia"

Round 2, Match 113 — Cognitive Issues vs. Nebularomantic

I am not a child. No matter how much I may act like one, think like one, or have needs like one, I am not and never again will be a child. I have more life experiences than a child does and that is important.

Sometimes I may need to be treated similarly (pt: similarly) to a child but I never want to be treated like I AM a child.

I do not want you to talk to me in such a babying voice but I appreciate that you are trying to be considerate of me even if you're going about it wrong.

I do not want to be treated like I'm some "innocent little baby" because I am not. I can make and understand sexual jokes (sometimes because i have trouble processing jokes and sarcasm). I can engage in and enjoy sexual content. I can also take part in sexual activities/interactions (though I won't because I'm ace).

The only people I'm OK with treating me similarly to a child are my parents because they're not actually treating me like a child, they're treating me like the autistic teen that I am who happens to have needs similar to a child's.

The difference between being infantilised and how my parents treat me is that; my parents acknowledge my autism, they acknowledge (most of) my needs, they acknowledge my age, they acknowledge my life experiences, and they acknowledge that how I need to be treated changes; people who infantilise me don't acknowledge any of that and treat and think of me as though I am a child as if I'm "less-than".

Also, the fact that being treated like a child is like being treated as "less than" is horrible. Children are people too and deserve to be treated as such.

But what I’m not so good with is how little I can do on a cognitive, and even emotional level. I’ve gotten so fucking fragile—or maybe I’ve always been that way, idk, but I feel like it’s gotten worse, like I’m able to do less and less without falling apart.

And I know it’s probably because I’m so exhausted all the time, and who isn’t fragile when tired? And also because I’m dealing with a handful of issues at any given moment—different kinds of pains, at different parts of my body, at different levels of pain/discomfort, holding my body the right way so I don’t make it worse, monitoring the different medicines and treatments I’ve taken that day and when I can take more…..I could go on and on. And so I just don’t have the fucking…the bandwidth to process much else, whether that be a problem to solve that takes a lot of focus, or an emotional issue that taxes me in another way.