Then their hearts stop and Rocky can only vividly remember the bodies of his crew and he freaks out and yells for a doctor to save them but everything is fine and Adrien is just asleep and the doctor can't fathom why he would assume they died because no one was there with him when he watched his crew sleep and never wake up.

but im trying to be forgiving to myself..

You don't need to match everyone around you in order to be a good person with a meaningful impact on the world. This is who you are and that is okay. It is okay. You are not, and never will be, a problem or burden just for existing as you are 💚

"Even when movement causes you great pain that forces you to prolonged idleness, there is always work to be done. The stack of unopened letters sitting on your bedside table mocks you for your weakness. With more force than necessary, you open up a few reports from your contacts who have just returned from the Zee. Their inked words swim through your fog-addled mind before drowning into murky noise. Your head pounds. "With grim humour, you wonder if it's possible to be sick and tired of being sick and tired."