#asd problems

For example, a Pathfinder character led to me creating myself a lore pipeline that roughly translates into a Batman Urban Fantasy Elseworld that is more blatantly woke. A singular kobold vigilante/rogue having evolved into a mix of Dick and Jason's Robins, rest of the batfam included.

It got so far that I have recently started making up how Tumblr would behave with that non-existent comic book, including an actual crossover short comic with the Batfam.

I hate how autism somehow makes me tired all day everyday 24/7. It's often after finishing small tasks my tiredness hits me like a brick.

1. Going for a walk?= tired 2. wanna go the mall?= tired upon arrival 3. wanna go grocery shopping?= tired 4. Oh you wanna go for a car ride=tired 5. Oh you wanna bake a cake?= tired I also somehow manage to only feel like a fully functioning human being for like 2-4 hours a day or less. These days i'm also so burnt out i don't have the energy to do stuff i actually love and are passionate about.. and not having something to hyperfixiate on makes my feel empty inside.

I was taught how to do basic hygiene, but as a kid, and even now, I simply refuse to. Unless im going somewhere important or doing something where im going to be out all day, I genuinely dont see a point in showering or really taking care of myself (aside from brushing my teeth, I dont want those to fall out of my head, im very vain about my appearance when I feel like it makes sense to actually try) like, im just sitting around my house doing absolutely nothing with no one to see or hang out with, so why would I expend the energy showering when I could use that energy to make myself food or play a video game?

Another thing that I've never talked about with anyone, purely because people would call me gross it, is that im not potty trained.

It wasn't for lack of trying on my parents part, god knows they tried. I just couldnt get the hang of it. I can get myself to the bathroom when possible, but sometimes I just cant. I cant control it, and weather thats because of autism, trauma, or a bit of both I dont know and honestly I dont care anymore. I've given up trying to potty train myself at 19 years old, and im just done. (The trauma of my parents refusing to let me be in diapers again until I was 14 also did a fuck ton of trauma, but I wont go there rn)

And what's even fucking worse, is that while I am an adult, and I technically "only have level 1 autism" (pretty sure its actually level 2) means im not taken seriously when I need more support and act more like a baby then an adult. Yes, I use pacifiers and need diapers and I cant tie my fucking shoes and dressing myself is hard and god damn it im not actually an adult and I need help but I cant get it because no one wants to make the effort to get it for me!

(Rant over, I just had to get that off my chest cuz its been bothering me for a long while)

*has a meltdown*

Me: *flashbacks to when I walked through a blizzard to the bus stop to get to my college class* yes :)

do yall not understand that a vast majority of your user base is either autistic af or otherwise hella neurotic for any number of reasons, and we have a profoundly hard time (neurologically emotionally or otherwise) processing change that is frivolous, unsolicited, and ineffectual.

I don't mean "we don't like it" or "we reserve the right to whine about it" I legitimately mean that significant changes in interface make it extremely difficult to take in and process any or all of the visual information and this renders the website effectively unusable.

Annoyed and overstimulated in unfamiliar surroundings is the exact opposite of the experience I'm looking for on this website.