#high functioning autism

But many people never do.

They keep working. They answer messages. They smile. They meet deadlines. They appear capable.

What often goes unseen is the recovery afterward, the masking, the sensory overload, the chronic exhaustion, and the emotional effort required simply to keep going. Functioning measures what others can observe. It doesn’t measure the cost of getting there. (PsycApps Website)

That’s the question I explore in this article…

Guess Im not weird, im probably autistic.

Luckily it doesn’t bother me, my life or my surroundings too much but it does explain a lot of my 'quirks'.

My co-worker jokingly has been telling me this for 1.5 years now. (Im 40+ y/o)

Tomorrow at work ill just throw a hissy fit again if someone is in my spot (we have flex workspots, I don’t have my own desk)

I avoid conflict at all costs. Please don’t get mad at me, ill cry.

I want everyone to like me (impossible)

I HATE phonecalls with a passion

I narrate future conversations in my head, they never turn out the way I practiced. Panic follows.

Pears are yuck.....feels like sandgrains on my tongue.

Growing up in the savage 80's and 90's ment to just suck it up, stop being shy and go out to make friends. I'd rather be in the attic playing murderer with my barbies.

There's more, but for now ill stop talking. I don’t want to annoy anyone.

Sometimes I think of myself as a character I like/watch.