Jul 15
Anxiety is so bad I'm checking my heart rate every five mins just to be sure I'm not actually dieing
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Anxiety is so bad I'm checking my heart rate every five mins just to be sure I'm not actually dieing
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Anxious girls love 'in my room'
I keep having waking nightmares of Artfightâs grading system⌠really petty things like âwhat if they deduct points because I drew my characters with closed eyes when the ref sheet has them opening their eyesâŚâ ⌠âwhat if they deduct points because I drew the character turning their back against the viewers when the ref sheet shows them facing forwardâŚâ
Just anxious thoughts đ this is whatâs on my head all the time when I was in school or workingâŚ
The s in sativa stands for scarythoughts
things our anxiety (and possible ocd) is causing us to ruminate about:
- the fact that we still havenât been looking for a job (job hunting is fucking terrifying but having no money is even scarier)
- the number 7 (itâs just so wrong, itâs viscerally uncomfortable. I donât like it at all (multiples of 7 are ok though))
- the year is already halfway over (we havenât done anything and weâre going to die soon and itâs all going to be over and I donât want to die)
- college processes are kicking my ass (I really donât want to go all the way to another city and I wonât know anyone and I could get kidnapped and nobody would know)
- my knee has still been in a lot of pain despite it being over 2 weeks since Iâve been injured and I still have no idea why (what if itâs a blood clot? what if I dislodge it and I die? what if itâs some infection and itâs just sitting there getting worse)
- Iâm so lonely but making new friends is terrifying, and I donât know how I could make new irl friends. I miss hanging out with friends irl but talking to people is so scary
- mirrors are scary. these âreflectionsâ are watching me and judging me and even when Iâm turned away from a mirror I know there are things watching me. I canât avoid them forever, so I just have to grit my teeth and hope this truce sticks
- Iâm convinced that my dreams are telling me something important, but I donât know what theyâre telling me. I wish I could stay in my dreams longer so Iâd know what they mean. thereâs certain people in my dreams that I think represent people that I might meet, and I want to know them more in my dream so Iâll know who they are irl
- the whole world is so fragile and we barely know anything. everything we know and love could be gone in an instant. I donât want to lose the people and things I love, but I know itâll happen someday, so I get worried that Iâm not loving them enough now by worrying so much. I feel so much guilt over losing friends or giving away things.
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hearing a door open and close and resisting the urge to yell "shut up!*
waiting for an appointment to start like I'm doing a dog show
dunking myself in the piss tank at the fair