#me af

where my solitude starts bringing me closer to my warring mind

and lonely heart

but you never even gave me a chance

so why do i hold on like this still?

11 years

and your face is still engrained in my heart as if it was just yesterday

this heart of mine is growing tired

hold me baby its cold even in the summer

i shiver and ache

longing to be understood

i let the music play on and it keeps me company

but im wrapped in the cigarettes and shadows of myself

im waiting for a love to win me over

whether its yours or whether another woman comes into the picture and rescues me

from my own torment of sadness

all the trauma from my life tearing me down

im so needy

so broken

i need someone

let go of what was

and fly into a new fantasy

one where i am understood

loved and accepted

where i can give all of me to you

it is kept alive by your essence

darling you are evergreen

i make a bed in this love and rest in it each night

wherever i go there you are

pointing me back home to myself which is also to you

because without you there is no me

your absence only grows my longing

i love you endlessly

raw and with all of me

your face burned into my heart

bury your hands in mine

let me hold them and kiss them over and over

passionately and intensely

as if my whole being depends on it

i can not help but be overwhelmed by my feelings

especially when i think of what it would feel like