i don't know how to live without suffering

okay i would argue that carmy from the bear has bpd even though it isn’t stated anywhere that he does have it. the fact the producers OPENLY labelled his mum who’s an abusive alcoholic with bpd is so fucking shitty.

bpd is expecting disappointment in every aspect of life because it’s all you’ve ever known.

it’s weird to think how calm i’ve been when i’ve experienced psychosis. in movies it was always revealed to be so terrifying and haunting, but when i experienced it for myself, i was calm, as though i automatically knew it was my mind going beyond the boarder.

i can’t separate my realty from my delusion.

“you’re so polite” thanks, i grew up with an abusive father and never learned to fight back.

why do i crave love so deeply and yet all it seems to do is run away from me.

bpd + period + hunger = death