~ACE ACE BABY~

everything is that deep to me because i have this big empty hole in my heart

there’s nothing casual about the way i feel anything

I will probably get through this just like I have gotten through everything before but I need to be really stressed and scared first

Its okay (I cried all night and all day bc of it)

the emptiness eats at me and i want to disappear

i’m so glad i’ve never gotten over anything in my life it makes listening to music so fun

i’m doing really well for someone who goes through the five stages of grief every day

felt ok but then remembered

Remembering things fondly is all fun and games until. The missing

what doesn’t kill you makes you cry on a bright sunny day

ok guys but imagine how hard it's gonna hit if something good ever happens again

yes im addicted to attention and orgasms and food and shiny jewlery and 7$ Iced Lattes. does that really not sound like an awesome lifestyle to you

[looking at people younger than me] you have your whole life ahead of you [looking at people older than me] you have your whole life ahead of you [looking at myself] its over

having a hard time focusing today. i've also had a hard time focusing for the previous 15 or so years leading up to now but this post is about today.