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guardian angel neil
vampire andrew
arsonist neil
mafia restaurant
mer roadtrip
demon neil
maid neil
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chasing cars by snow patrol really hits harder everytime i listen to it like,, what if i DID just lay here???? would u lie with me and just forget the world??????? please???????????
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I've been seeing a lot of posts lately that tell dropouts "you can always go back!"
And that's not bad! It's true for a lot of people! You CAN go back later! You can apply to university, you can get your GED, you can pursue whatever level of education you want. It's not bad to share that message. If you dropped out and want to go back eventually, there is zero timeline. You can go back at any age, with any life experience. You do not have to graduate by a specific age.
But as someone who dropped out of college over a decade ago, sometimes "you can always go back!" starts to feel a little like an empty platitude. Sometimes it starts to feel grating instead of hopeful. Even when it might technically be true, sometimes it still feels like a hollow sentiment.
I just want to say, to anyone else out there who feels that way, who dropped out and CAN'T go back, potentially EVER, whether it's due to poverty or disability or any other reason:
It's okay to drop out and never go back. It might feel shitty, and you may even feel grief over it. That's real, and painful, and allowed. But you are not lesser. Even if you never go back, you are not a failure or a loser. Academics do not define your worth. You are not stupid. And it is almost certain that the system actually failed YOU.
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did you know that apparently if you try to act normal the normalness doesn't come through but the acting does. and did you know apparently everyone can smell this on you like a bloodhound
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and annotate them with who is in the photos and when and where the photos were taken!!! your extended family 50 years from now will be grateful, and so will you if you end up forgetting any details
We know from Jean's narration* that when it came to Kevin's abuse in the Nest it was often more psychological than physical. He was made to watch Jean's torture at Riko's hand, tend to his wounds, and keep it a secret from the other Ravens. Living his life like this while in constant space / presence of his abuser meant Kevin's ability to shut off his own emotions was one of the few ways he could protect himself.
This also let Kevin in some small way protect Jean as any closeness between them would be seen as a slight against Riko. Why I think Riko breaking Kevin's hand had less to do with Kevin outplaying him but about the two of them learning French behind his back.
Even the "bitchy" side of Kevin is part performance as Jean explains he used it to distract the other Ravens from Jean's trauma & Riko's abuse. It also allowed him to have distance from the other Ravens and their own ways to taunt / tease / harm each other. Their words cannot hurt him because they are so far beneath him they're not worth listening to.
But this technique also isolated Kevin from the other Ravens (And later the Foxes) putting him even more firmly at Riko's side. Even when he left the Nest he still keeps to himself and does his best to keep the other's at arms length. By being a Fox he has doomed them, getting close would just hurt them more, why try?
The people who Kevin ultimately allows in his circle is very small. Court size small. And he seems to only do so because he does not have a choice in the matter. After losing his hand & escaping he has to face ten years of devastating abuse while still in active danger of being sent back to it.
Still, his focus is primarily on securing their futures & avoiding / turning down offers for genuine recovery for his laser point focus on his own career. Him going cold, spiraling, drinking, and yes, being obsessed with the game are ways he is trying to maintain control all without actually healing. He knows his worth in Exy and he knows how to play Exy and he knows what Exy can provide for himself...what else does he need?
*While Jean is our most direct POV of Kevin in the Nest, it should be noted that Jean is not free of Kevin's projections either. TGR showed us how much he also placed Kevin on a pedestal. Seeing him drink to cope with their shared trauma & realizing how far off recovery he is despite being the "first to leave" is genuinely heartbreaking for Jean. Kevin also puts up a front for him (Comparing his obvious panic attacks & spirals in Neil's books vs his more together presentation in Jean's) in an effort to get Jean the peace he feels he deserves. Why I think we only know a fraction of the abuse Kevin experienced at Riko (+Tetsuji's) hands.
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