In a season where Buffy openly admits that if it would save the world she would sacrifice Dawn—Dawn, her sister, the one person she had sworn to protect at all costs—I find it hard to believe that she would lie to Spike for the sake of letting him go believing he was loved

my personal friend buffy summers told me that she found her ridiculous boyfriend reading on the sofa with glasses just like clark kent's and his hair, still wet from a shower, with his curls not yet covered with gel and she couldn't help but sit on his face, she couldn't control the neediness

the spike/buffy shared death wish can be something so personal

Thinking about in that first chipped-spike episode where he's talking to Willow and she's like "am I not pretty enough, you'd never bite me 😖" and spikes all "no no I've thought about it. I totally would" and it's like a whole metaphor for sex. And then a few episodes later spike and Xander are arguing about how spike would never bite him and xander like "oh yeah you would I'm very tasty". Like ok

i love fiction so much can we never be real again

fool me once shame on you. fool me twice shame on me. fool me three times this has gotta be a sex thing for at least one of us