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I think that the most real (which also makes it heartbreaking) unambiguous clearest solid evidence would be from Str's DA days, even tho it's very old at this point.

In this post js-addiction goes through Str's DA account, and among all the evidence of him being gay/bi there are some things that are very clear transfem... I show them here, but you should go through the whole og post linked, just amazing stuff in there...

cute little girl edit... called pretty... teen boy or masculine female :3

GOOD GIRL BRACELET. "Are you a boy or a girl?" "The world may never know :'<" ...................................................................

there is also this, Str having 'female' on his profile... typical gender DA stuff but hmm also, cheerleader :) <3

So, in addition to Steebs very open gayness it seems there was actually a lot of interesting stuff happening regarding gender in his younger years.. Looks like he enjoyed being perceived as a girl on the internet(!)... wore a pink "good girl" bracelet... tried on dresses... all of that makes me sooo so :3333333 🥰🥰💞 I think this is getting REALLY close to being transfem without fully/openly commiting... so all of that is absolutely insane

Besides that, the current day it gets much more vague of course. there are only echoes I would say, things that don't necessarily have to mean anything and be giveaways, but they do have that something in them that can make you think... like what you mentioned, him choosing to play female characters a lot :) or making himself in tony hawk game and giving himself a fucking girl symbol sdfgh

Sometimes he says something that will perk our ears up, I do remember us here having quite a few collective "estrogen would have saved her" moments w/ Str... I wanted to provide some, but I cannot find one when I need it of course. if i happen upon some I might add them here

long answer is that even w how comfortable in his sexuality lud claims to be (side eye) u can see that the more obtainable and more Real any of his random crushes on dudes get the more aggressive w them he becomes

like his crush on t^m brady: it's just him being a faggot having weird daddy issues but there's no aggression there, he worships the dude

then u have the middle ground w jrma: he's semi-obtainable. lud has him wrapped around his finger, he's never letting him go, and they are undoubtedly tied together forever and ever til they both die horrible deaths. but. they cannot realistically fuck. they can have their weird mutual obsession and metaphorical dick sucking and all that shit they do that is honestly gayer than just having sex. but they cannot fuck. BUT! it's become much more real to lud; they're coworkers, he's probably started to work on convincing him to move to la with him, they're Closer. and he hates it. he's gotten more and more openly mean w him. he called him a manchild just recently. he's no longer a farfetched wet dream of a man for him he's Real and His and it's too uncomfortably close to crossing a line he's set for himself and he's fucking terrified of it

then u have the top right of the graph: aiden. he's actually into men, they've kissed multiple times before, he's genuinely attracted to aiden, aiden and his partner have a close and probably open relationship with each other, all their gay chicken shit that they do. it's so fucking Real. it's real and obtainable and if he really, really wanted to he could fuck him. he could cross that line he's set for himself if he got a little too drunk or whatever excuse he needs to give himself. and i think a part of him is subconsciously terrified of it. he's convinced himself so fully that he doesn't actually like men, all the drunk desperate making out w anyone that would give him the time post-breakup and the random fixations on men old enough to be his father (or in this case pretty enough to be a woman) mean nothing. he's completely 100% without a doubt a straight man. so to balance out all the feelings he does have for him he gets aggressive and he lashes out and it's fine, there's nothing more to it, it's just a bit everyone does. everyone hates aiden. fuck aiden. but not like that. because i'm not gay