Broken ∞ Infinity

Happy New Year you all people with (or without) Bipolar!!

Happy New Year 2019 to all my friends….!

I’m very sorry to myself since it’s already in the middle of February 2019, and this is only my first post on my blog. LOL

My mood has been up and down since November 2018. Mostly because of work and personal life issues, so i don’t think i can explain everything to you.

But to be honest, i’m being monitored by a team of doctors because of my mood swing…

みなさん、こんにちは。お 久しぶり。

I’ve been leaving this blog for so (fvckin) long, but i’m back now.

So, one of my (many) reasons is that I’m super busy with my job. I’ve been working almost like McD (24/7) to prepare any documents you can think about. Even the docs that I never think I have. LOL.

It’s funny, because they’ve been looking at me, seems judging, maybe thinking, “did I really know my own company”,…

For years I’ve spend in Indonesia, there’s only one “cultural-shock” that still bothers me until now.

It’s nothing important and in fact is a trivial thing.

But it turns out, it is a source of problems with people in traditional families.

Day has relatives living in the area of Central Java and last weekend we visited there. We had lunch a couple times when we stay. We are not eating on the table…

Hi.

After Blue Whale Challenge, now there is another one like it called Momo Challenge.

Instead of using email, now this challenge is much more easier because it is using whatsapp messenger to connect the challenger. But this challenge is as stupid as the previous ‘suicide’ challenge, so.. before I write about this, please, DON’T BE STUPID! IT’S FAKE… AND NOT WORTH TO DO. You’d better do something…

I always am scared to my own mind… how it twisted me around.

Even the happiest person you know maybe has a ghost deep inside his/her head waiting to be strong enough to eat the body inside out. Idk about you, but that kind of feeling always haunt me.

The feeling that somehow I knew I’ll kill myself one day. I am scare of it. I am scare to my own mind thinking that it might be true. It’s better if…

Movie Review : Ant Man and The Wasp (2018)

Spoiler Alert!!

The last time I watch movie is when the Red Sparrow is out on cinema. And now, I just had a time to watch a movie again.

So, once again, Marvel gave us something fun to watch! Bravo to Stan Lee and whole Marvel team. I can’t stop laughing when I watch this movie.

Spoiler Alert (again)….!

We learn that this movie is happening at the same time with Infinity War when Woo (the FBI…

About a month ago, I write about my friend’s depression. She is okay now and only need to see psychiatrist once or twice a month. Basically she is good. She is fine to continue her job as long as she stop letting her self dealing with any kind of bullsh*t out there.

This time, I’m gonna support her as a reciprocal of her kindness over the years.

Dealing with depression means you need to overcome…

I just found out something that I never ever expected before.

The fact that depression can affect someone in a various and un-imaginable ways is truly horrifying.

Day, the most perfect woman (till now) that i know besides my mom, turned out to have acute depression. AND I NEVER FOUND OUT….! She is very good at hiding it. She is very good at supporting me. And I never expect to found out in such a…

You must be very boring if I open this post with, “I haven’t write for so long…” or “It’s been forever since my last post,” even if that’s true. LOL I won’t blame things like writer’s block or haven’t watch any movie, because of course it’s a lie. For me, having trouble like ‘lack of sleep’ and ‘too much work to do’ is not even an appropriate things to mention anymore. I don’t even have life. I…

IT’S OKAY….!!!!

Idk if this is worth to mention as a funny moment, but.. just keep reading okay? So, first… I need to admit that I was a little drunk last night. My friend and I was a little bit drunk. Okay? We’re about to leave this one place at 11 pm. It still early, but I really need to go home. My friend said he is going home too. Then we leave that place together. I don’t even remember why is he got into my…

My Review : Red Sparrow (2018)

Dear Jennifer Lawrence, You’re amazing just the way you’re. For once, I really hope you’re dancing by yourself. But knowing the fact that you’re using double, it doesn’t change anything. You’re still great! And because you’ve learned Russian accent and ballet only for this movie. I salute you. (FYI, I love Russian accent.) Regards, K   Yesterday, I watched this movie with Day (yes. it’s another…

It’s been forever since the last time I post something in here. Maybe some of you (my fellow readers) thought that I’m already dead. LOL But no. I’m perfectly fine, and now in a very good mood. It’s just that I’m busy with my work and had no time at all for doing anything else. Recently, i read some articles that mentioned Bipolar disorder as a reason why people making a fuss in a public place.…

I watch this movie on the premiere night but I can’t write it at the time (and later forget about it). So, this time, as I still had a little time to write this, i’ll do it. 😛 Newt Scamander, an English wizard come to USA with his case full of magical creature. But did you know that his name, “Newt Scamander”, appears on the Marauder’s Map in Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban (2004)? I…

My Review: Happy Death Day! (2017)

It’s been a while since the last time i actually had a time to watch a movie. And I am glad that Megan Fox is dropped as Tree’s cast. LOL (I kinda more like to see Jessica Rothe for some “reason”). The real reason why I am watching this movie, is because today is Day’s birthday. She was really pushy sometimes. And she really want to watch this movie, no matter what. Before we start to talk about…

So… Fvck my life?

For some maybe realize that the first time I’m using this blog, i was write my post in Indonesian language. At first there is a language barrier between me and people around me. I thought if I use it on daily basis i will be better. Sure i made improvement. I’m getting better and better, till on a point that i don’t care anymore. I’m back to my usual self (because Indonesian language is not my…

I’m ALIVE

Hi.. It’s been a while.. I’m updating this blog just to make sure you know that i’m alive. — And for that reason only.  

“Would you forgive me if I disappear one day without saying good bye?”