AUGUST BLUES

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i have paid half my rent this month (6800/14000INR) because i had to incur personal expenses such as travelling, paying my brother's sem fees, and some other things. i was able to rent a fridge because it is impossible otherwise in this stuffy room (only a ceiling fan) and food was becoming a bigger expense if i was buying stuff to cook only immediately /eat immediately. so this is where i am at

i did try to give tuitions but the location is far from my office so i can't balance both everyday + the travelling back and forth would be an extra charge (i already cant afford transportation to my work, i only have enough for two days)

andi got some work on here, and then i sold one of my vintage record covers (i dont have a record player i just had a really good old hindi film poster that somebody offered to buy)

so this is where i am at, and it is a matter of urgency. i was able to stock up on food because somebody gave me a giftcard i added that to the goal money too) so i am not worried about my cats, at least for a week or so.

i dont really like explaining my situation in complete detail because i am... well... embarrassed/ashamed and also aaaah it feels bad but yeah!!!!

any and every help literally matters a lot right now. i am willing to do ur homework, write ur assignments, or any other service i can offer (if ur in india and need help with things i can help with that too!!!!) so that is all !!!

paypal.me/aandhi1975

ko-fi.com/aandhi

also i write a substack. if u like it u can send me some. or at least read it and share it if u like it. that's all.

https://aandhi.substack.com/

in aotearoa, june isn’t our pride, it’s theirs. marsha p johnson and sylvia rivera are their historical figures, not ours. the phrase that “you owe your rights to Black trans women” is true there, but here we owe our rights to (mostly) Māori historical figures. i have the freedoms i do because of the legacy of an entirely different set of people operating in an entirely different context at entirely different times.

But because of american cultural imperialism, most queer people in Aotearoa don’t even know our own queer history. Carmen Rupe, Ngahuia Te Awekotuku, the Dorian Society, Gillian Laundon, Georgina Beyer, and the Wolfenden Association are some of our queer history. We should know their names! we should know what they did for us! but because of the power of the american imperial machine, we don’t.

our national pride month should be july, the month that the Homosexual Law Reform Act passed in 1986. our two largest cities hold their pride festivals in february and march, respectively. american queer history has very little (or nothing, depending on who you ask) to do with our queer history. anecdotally, from my own queries, queer youth in aotearoa know more about american queer history than our own.