infinite squirrels (at the gay bar)

Carsie Blanton doing a rework of "Come Out Ye Black and Tans".

I have a friend I know from when we were both 6. She is the only person living nearby and so she saw me go from walking through limping to wheelchair on a daily basis. I keep her updated on my health even tho we rarely hang out anymore. She was gonna come over yesterday and I had to cancel. She asked if I can’t hang out later that day. When I said i won’t feel better later, that if I feel that bad in the morning later will only get worse she got annoyed and “joked” that I’m just finding excuses. And I was surprised, she knows all about me being disabled after all? So, a bit taken aback, I told her it’s a normal thing for me.

“But you got the diagnosis now, aren’t you better?? I thought you’ll get better now”

Anyway my friend had some not so nice teeth and during dinner the father of his fwb was like “you work where you work, you sleep with him and his teeth look like that? Get him an appointment.”and then bounced. So his fwb made him an appointment at the practice she managed and my friend ended up needing like 3k worth of dental work and his friend with benefits just gave it to him for free.

"Oh I don't normally use AI, I just wanted it to plan my trip"

You lived on this planet for decades, you know what you like, there are hundreds of websites where you can type into any search engine " things to do in [area]" and have at least a hundred different options.

"Oh I only use it so I can figure out what to make during the week with what I have"

The most popular website as you type in "recipes" into google have sections where you click dinner- quick and easy and those usually rely on staples + 1 or 2 items. I found 30 recipes on chicken alone.

"I had a writing idea, so I typed a few sentences into Chat GPT and I was able to write 20 pages with it."

Chandler, A. (2016). Self-injury, medicine and society: Authentic bodies. Springer.

Chaney, S. (2011). Self-control, selfishness and mutilation: How ‘medical’ is self-injury anyway?. Medical History, 55(3), 375-382.

Chaney, S. (2017). Psyche on the skin: A history of self-harm. Reaktion Books.

Gilman, S. L. (2013). From psychiatric symptom to diagnostic category: Self-harm from the Victorians to DSM-5. History of Psychiatry, 24(2), 148-165.

Millard, C. (2013). Making the cut: The production of ‘self-harm’ in post-1945 Anglo-Saxon psychiatry. History of the Human Sciences, 26(2), 126-150.

Millard, C. (2015). A history of self-harm in Britain: A genealogy of cutting and overdosing. Palgrave Macmillan.

Also see this essay [link] [1] for a more antipsych perspective of self-harm.

Couple of tumblr posts to start things off. Caden's blog is a great place to find resources about a variety of antipsych topics

This is a great starting point for learning about antipsych perspectives/frameworks/etc

"Cutting The Risk." Practical guide for self harm risk reduction. Some of the language and approach is more prescriptivist than I prefer ("don't do it this way because it increases your risk of [whatever]" instead of "if you do it this way your risk of [whatever] increases" which i really do feel is important) but theres a lot of good technical information, and it is generally nonjudgmental:

Nonjudgmental zine by and for people who have self harmed or currently self harm:

Some useful technical first aid advice, but some of it feels iffy- "one pill over the prescribed amount" does not generally, maybe almost ever, constitute an overdose & I don't think that's a useful thing to tell people. For non-substance-related first aid advice though, this seems a generally good overview:

And having said that, for some actual good substance related harm reduction advice and technical information, National Harm Reduction Coalition's "Getting Off Right" guide is an amazing resource, written by and for people who inject drugs:

And NEXT distro's resource library is invaluable:

Harm reduction advice for eating disorders:

This article looks potentially relevant/interesting but it's paywalled & all I could read was the abstract. If you have access through a school or something, though, it might be worth a read

people should not be shaming you

it's okay that you don't have a better answer right now

Amity told girls that they're not broken and paid the price

I have only gone down 40mg on my antipsychotic but it has made a difference in my cognitive ability. I can see the light through the cracks now.