♡Sky♡

Fake names cause just in case

How hard is it to find someone to lovingly fuck me senseless at all hours of the day that I request it and also cuddle and kiss me to my hearts content? And only when I’m not playing with crafts or outside or cooking or some other domestic joy of mine?

I’ve got THREE partners and atp I think I just have a problem. I am only getting more “please sir where is my round 2,3,4? What about elevensies?” With these poor creatures And I am like.. still not satisfied, really?

Doesn’t help that I only see blue every other week for one, maybe 2 nights, and our sexual chemistry still needs refining, despite really amazing conversation and company chemistry: . , pretty much the same for the other one(leek) , except at least blue lets me stay the night and cook food for him, whereas leek whisks me off to his bedroom, drops one solid round (no complaints, the sex makes me mad with how good it is but unfortunately only makes me want more) , snuggles, and then tactfully gets me the fuck out of his home and back to mine. Within like four hours 😞 and the one I live with is at work more than he’s home, and when he’s home it’s about recovery from work, and adding us to the equation can add a strain. His day can start at 3:30am and not be home till 5pm.

I haven’t been able to get or hold a job, I don’t deserve any of this goodness I get and I still have the audacity to say it’s not enough for me.

I’m beginning to believe there might be something wrong with me cause it feels like the closer I get to 30 the more insatiable I get and I do not want to life of fucking tantalus, thank you

I don’t want to be trying to fill a void with meaningless shit, but I fear I am.

I also don’t want people I care about thinking they aren’t enough as a person because I always want more. I love the people I am with long before they love me, sometimes unrequited. I don’t want to make anyone feel less than. I don’t know how to justify wanting more than this.

Fucking shit.