Danni Notes

Ig: @simpl.ydanielle

I have 2 friends, me and my guilt. Guilt is something people just throw away. "Its a monster". The thing is, I define a friend as a person who makes you realize your best self. I believe that it is not person or a family member, an enemy, that can make you realize your best potential rather than guilt. Guilt comes from traumatic situations. These are things that break you down but build you up. Guilt makes us realize. Guilt makes us feel. Guilt reminds us that we are human. It is not there to remind us that we are horrible people.

Horrible people don't worry that they are horrible. So that guilt you have, is there to make you realize your mistakes so that next time, it can never happen again. The thing is things happen always for a reason, and the result is the one that decides your future---of whether you want to do something about it, or let guilt tell you that you should. I believe Guilt is a friend because atleast it is honest of what happened. Not some fake plastic that will tell you bad advice. If you do not do anything about a problem, it will be guilt that will constantly be there to remind you.

The thing is, when you love someone, you never stop loving them. There will always be that piece of you that longs for them. Even if you've moved on. All it takes is one look, one smile, and one sliver of attention that will get that heart back to where it started. Yearning is when you long for another person, may it be their affection or their presence. It will be hard to separate yourself from something you've attached your soul unto.

Currently, I am in love with a close friend of mine, and I accept the fact that I can never be with him. Even if its hard, I need to let go. All of us need to understand that at some point, yearning is just delusion at its peak. That it shouldn't be romanticized if it makes us a blind fool continuously hoping that maybe one day... One day that it'll come. The day that-that person will show us, that their the one. However, no matter how much it's so refreshing and comforting to love. Eventually, this will destroy you. Where it will get to a point where, you have fallen to deep, that your heart will physically hurt. The only solution to ending your yearning, is wether you do something like action to your loved one. Sometimes, just end all those doubts you have of yourself and just DO IT! However, the important thing is timing and preparation. Make sure its not too wrong of a timing. Make sure to do it fast, so that you don't want that person to fall into other people's arms. Its okay to get rejected, atleast that means it took them time to hear you out and think about everything. If its not meant to be, then its not meant to be. This is better than just sitting and not doing anything. Secodn solution is to just Move on silently. Stay away from them, act like you don't like them. Have a different focus. Talk to another friend. and especially, don't talk about them. This will take a long time, but you just have to wait, in some time you have to realize that you have to stop being a fool and get tired of loving a wall. A wall that will never let you in. A wall that you're close with but too far away to touch.

Don't you ever feel like you just want to get away from the world and just live your life?

Don't you ever feel like just being alone without the thought of missing your life?

Don't you ever feel like time should just stop and just let you breathe for a second, because deep down the pressure is crushing every bone in your body?

Don't you ever feel like stopping and just rest without losing something?

Would it just be better to go back in time and enjoy?