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If you are a socially anxious person, you have to socialize. Your panic/anxiety attacks will only get worse and trigger more frequently if you constantly avoid contact with The Public. Not saying that you need to be a social butterfly- but there is a genuine problem with not being able to order your own meal at a restaurant. And it cannot be solved by always having someone else do it for you.

Absolutely! She doesn't always look terrible I just happen to adore when she does :3

hiiiiiii it's j 💕

yesterday i quit my job due to mistreatment from management. i was hoping to have a lot more time to figure things out before it got to this point, but things hit a fever pitch and i had to get out of there. i'm finding myself back at square one very suddenly, a lot more disabled than i was last time i had to job hunt, and frankly i'm. scared :')

i'm very thankful that my partner, their parents, and our roommates are willing to be flexible in helping cover some of my expenses while i rest and recover and find a new job, but i still need some extra support to make ends meet.

trying to build up savings so i can pay rent and our utility bills over the coming months is my main concern right now. any help at all is deeply deeply appreciated ... even just reblogging helps a ton. thank you all 💖

i currently have enough money in my bank account to pay for rent this month, but we need to get groceries this week and the utility bills are coming up as well.

setting my goal for making rent since i'll most likely have to pull from what i currently have saved to pay for everything else:

$0/$370

tell yourself things you do not believe. it feels stupid at first but I've done this for years and now I believe it when I say "I'm good at this" or "I love myself" or "I deserve good shit!"

make a note of every mundane good thing that happens to you. mental or literal notes! could be as little as "the sky is a nice shade of grey, it's calming" or "I ate a piece of fruit today, I'm looking after myself" or "I talked to a friend". again, feels stupid at first, but I genuinely believe this is part of why I have so many "good days". trick your brain into storing things in your long-term memory that you wouldn't otherwise remember.

they're coming from someone who had multiple daily panic attacks for half a decade. someone who genuinely felt like he did not deserve to live. someone who hated himself so much he convinced himself he was irredeemably evil. someone who loves being alive these days, even though it's difficult sometimes.