“I figured it out”

my roman empire is scrolling through my posts over the years and realizing that i lived life alongside one direction. i may have been in the sidelines but i was there. i saw and felt it all. God, i was there.

i can't move past Louis' "A message to you Liam if you’re listening" and Zayn's "Liam, I have found myself talking out loud to you, hoping you can hear me" because there was STILL SO MUCH left unsaid.

10.08.2013

some of you do NOT remember summer ‘09 and it shows

IDK what this is about, but I have a reasonable explanation for not remembering the summer of '09; I had bad insomnia that started when my parents got divorced at the beginning of the year, and it wasn't resolved until June of 2010 when I started getting my period.

it’s about a one direction song. sorry to hear that tho

been seeing a lot of “my inner child is grieving this Liam,” implying a version of Liam from 10 years ago, and I just want to be 100% clear that my whole 32 year old adult self is mourning the loss of a 31 year old man. A father, a son, a brother whose light was snuffed out too soon. A man who was meant to have more time, despite his mistakes, because he deserved to. I am grieving him. My whole self is grieving his loss.

i know the world doesn’t revolve around one direction but it kind of does

Is anyone else constantly going back and forth between disbelief and crippling grief all the while going through life with a constant but sort of quiet sadness in you?