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I'm just gonna slide this on in here for anyone that is interested in preserving old games. They take it very seriously too, they want an archive of every single game. Like, they have lists of every game ever released for a system, and once that system gets old enough, they add it to their archive and start collecting. Their latest addition was the Xbox 360, they opened that vault up in September 2022, and proudly announced they'd finished their collection of games for it back in April.

Also, while their game archives are almost entirely complete, they've got another project of archiving the manuals that came with those games, and that is... considerably less well filled out. Their collection of Xbox 360 manuals is especially rough, they've only gotten manuals for three games. So if you've got some Xbox 360 games kicking around, and the manual's still with them, please consider scanning them and submitting them to the site!

Sara Ahmed, Making Feminist Points.

Bailey & Trudy. “On misogynoir: citation, erasure, and plagiarism.”

danah boyd, “Social Network Sites as Networked Publics” in A Networked Self.

Alexander Monea, “Unlikely Bedfellows” in The Digital Closet: How the Internet Became Straight.

Lisa Nakamura, “Race In/For Cyberspace: Identity Tourism and Racial Passing on the Internet.”

Rachel Loney-Howes, et al. “Digital Footprints of #MeToo”

Erhardt and Nakamura, “Infrastructural fugitivity: contraband cellphones, TikTok, and vital media behind bars.”

Jackson, We Need to Talk About Digital Blackface in Reaction GIFs

Greenwalt & McVey, “Get Gritty with it: memetic icons and the visual ethos of antifascism.”

DeCook et al, Misogynistic Incels and Male Supremacism (h/t @inzaltsiknyam)

Legacy Russell, “Paris is Burning: Viral Ballrooms and Memetic Royalties” in Black Meme.

Haimson, et al. "Tumblr was a trans technology: the meaning, importance, history, and future of trans technologies." 

Cavar. “Loving Trans into Possible: t4t As Transpollinatory Praxis.”

Mel Baggs, In My Language

Cavar. "Burrito Texts: Mel Baggs and the Language of Crip Life.”

Marcus Olang. I'm Kenyan. I Don't Write Like ChatGPT. ChatGPT Writes Like Me.

Zeba Blay, Digital Blackface Is Back in the Form of Black AI Influencers.

chorui halim, The Geography of Youth + possible new essay from @anti-parent.

first post + the archive collection with all of them

la haine (1995) dir. mathieu kassovitz

carnival of souls (1962) dir. herk harvey

andrei tarkovsky's filmography

a nightmare on elm st. (1984) dir wes craven

possession (1981) dir. andrzej źuławski

the silence of the lambs (1991) dir. jonathan demme

safe (1995) dir. todd haynes

psycho (1960) dir. alfred hitchcock

cops (1922) dir. buster keaton

sherlock jr (1924) dir. buster keaton

when harry met sally... (1989) dir. rob rainer

the bride of frankenstein (1935) dir. james whale

man with a movie camera (1927) dir. dziga vertov

coffee and cigarettes (2003) dir. jim jarmusch

m (1931) dir. fritz lang

it happened one night (1934) dir. frank capra

casablanca (1942) dir. michael curtiz

purple noon (1960) dir. rene clement

carrie (1976) dir. brian de palma

eraserhead (1977) dir. david lynch

they live (1988) dir. john carpenter

female trouble (1974) dir. john waters

do the right thing (1989) dir. spike lee

wings (1927) dir. william a wellman

fallen angels (1995) dir. wong kar wai

velvet goldmine (1998) dir. todd haynes

black panthers (1968) dir. agnes varda

american psycho (2000) dir. mary harron

the manchurian candidate (1962) dir. john frankenheimer

girlfriends (1978) dir. claudia weill

The Hyperactivity in Attention-Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder is NOT about being physically hyperactive, it's about having a "hyperactive central nervous system" because it's a form of inheritable dysautonomia. The problem with disautonomia, especially the ADHD kind, is that it makes boredom flag to your nervous system as a THREAT, triggering hyperactive and maladaptive central nervous system processes like fight or flight.

But dysautonomia kills you that way. Literally, part of the reason our average life spand increase on stimulents is that it helps manage risk-taking impulsivity that can get us killed by accident, but the other part is that stimulents can regulate a hyperactive CNS such that it is functionally (while impacted by the stimulent) NOT dysregulated anymore. And PHYSIOLOGICALLY that is essential because the physical outcomes of dysautonomia can reduce your life span by YEARS if not decades through self-perpetuating hypervigelence, endocrine disruption, and adrenal fatigue.

So when the ADHD brain goes stimulation-seeking and a doctor tells you to practice mindfulness, it feels like being told "hey go stand in a functioning boiler until you can stop thinking" rather than WHAT IT IS which is the process of re-teaching your body what is and isn't safe.

Standing outside making mindful, non-interpretive/moralized observation of the world helps your brain and body re-acclimate to the idea that absence of that frantic "busy" feeling isn't a threat or a risk to your safety, and gradually reduces the level of distress that just hanging out somewhere triggers for you.

Learning WHY this stuff was being suggested and understanding what it was actually supposed to do went a long way towards changing my relationship with my ADHD. I am FAR more functional now, far less prone to shame spirals and rejection sensitivity, hell, I can **sit physically still for near on an hour at a time** now without feeling like I'm going to crawl out of my skin.

So yeah. Go outside. Let the world narrow around you and take deep breaths until it stops feeling claustrophobic or like you need to climb walls. Learn how to let little sensations become big ones like the way the heat of the sun on your skin starts as a gentle warming and be omes a unique collection of sensory moments depending on how it lands on you. Listen for sounds under sounds and let them fade in and out as you move your focus from one sound to the next. Enjoy. Move on. Rinse and repeat.

- Anthony Bourdain, Les Halles Cookbook

[middle photo reads]

You need love.

cannibal lover by alisa nutting

Best read when you desperately want to be in love with someone who keeps saying you’re too good for them

the man on the stairs by miranda july

Best read when you’re lying awake at night unable to sleep and you think you hear something on the stairs

pinky finger by ha seong-nan

Best read when your uber is taking a little too long to arrive

you’re ugly, too by lorrie moore

Best read when you’re realizing youmight be the black sheep of the family/friend group/social circle

Prison Abolition

Police Abolition

Abolitionist Toolkits

Abolition and Coronavirus

Origin Stories

Criminalizing Blackness

Sexual Violence and Anti-Carceral Feminism

Restorative and Transformative Justice

Disability Justice

The Perils of Reform

Prison Organizing, Past and Present

Private Prisons and Prison Labor

Mutual Aid and/as Abolition

Child Welfare and Family Regulation

The Nonprofit Industrial Complex

Climate (In)Justice and Prisons

Crimmigration

LGBTQ Criminalization

Christianity and Prison Abolition

Abolition for Parents and Young People

Abolition, Surveillance, and “(Counter)Terrorism”

Should Killer Cops Go To Prison?

Abolition and Gun Violence/Control

“Sex Offenses” and Civil Commitment

Sex Work Decriminalization

Hate Crimes and White Supremacist Violence

Abolition and Universities

🏴ACAB WORLDWIDE BABEY🏴

ON PURPOSE, I'M GOING TO LOVE YOU ON PURPOSE