Maryās explanation about how out of place she flt, and how much she missed her life in heaven gave me huge Buffy feels. Is anyone else feeling this?Ā
My heart has broken for all 3 of them tonight. You could see the devastation on the boys faces - they want the mother theyāve always dreamed about. Even Dean, who has memories of Mary, has idealised her as a parent over the last 33 years.Ā
And Mary. As a mother of two children, I canāt imagine disappearing tomorrow and coming back to them aged 44 and 39 (thatās the age my kids would be in 33 years, I know thatās not Sam and Deanās ages). Theyād be grown-ups, independent, much more competent than me in the time-period (probably will be anyway). I would see old traits that have matured with them, and I know I would love them absolutely, but Iād mourn the years that I missed. Theyād have stories, events, that changed them, and I wouldnāt know them. Would my daughter still hate hugs? Would my son still give the worlds best hugs? Would they feel the same even though heād be bigger than me? Would they still be absolutely obsessed with The Day My Butt Went Psycho? (God, I hope not!) Would I see the children in the adults before me?Ā
