rotten

I dont believe all life is precious, or that every human deserves to live, in this modern society all life is treasured, the weak dont die, the bad wont starve out, thats how ugly people are born, people who have to suffer with bad genetics their whole lives. In nature there is a law of nature, only the best survive and not only is bad genetics the only bad thing, so is overpopulation, we took over the whole world, destroyed who actually loved us, which is mother nature. No wonder people are depressed, we're not supposed to live like this, we're supposed to be free. Laws are a human creation, some are good like the ones protecting kids, because for some reason people are sick enough to harm a child, but most really aren't and go against our nature. We are meant to kill.

but there is a kind of calmness and like, zen stoicism that goes along with that, like no longer trying to escape suffering.... it's just finding other things to focus on that's difficult

i feel like such a lazy piece of shit. i don't do anything with my life, and i have almost no desire to.

I just need someone to hack into my brain and fix whatever fucky software in there is causing me to be like this. Please, for the love of God. I can't keep switching meds like this anymore

can feel myself slipping thru the cracks of my own life

just accepting that i might not ever enjoy living again, and not making that a goal im striving for is a pretty difficult thing to swallow

Treatment resistant depression is such a bullshit disorder. It’s like the mental disorder equivalent of the kid who while you’re playing pretend with them is like “Oh actually I dodged your attack and I have infinite health.” Fuck you, be a good sport and be diminished by meds and therapy like all the other disorders.

its not our fault we haven’t figured out how to help you, its just that you have Completely Helpless Disorder. no it’s not made up we had it added to the dsm5 right here👇 anyway this very real and valid disorder makes you completely helpless so. it’s not our fault