(disgusted noise.)

DEREK HALE

I've been in a weird place writing wise, soo I decided to take something off the backburner to fiddle with. I feel like I already shared some of this before buuut if I did it was like 2 years ago, so fuck it!

Here's a snip of Entry Wound, my fic where Stiles becomes a werewolf.

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There's no sign of Stiles outside the depot. Derek steps out of the car cautiously. He can't smell anything truly dangerous - there's no gun oil or wolfsbane. But there - hanging in the air, sweet miasma, is blood. Stiles' blood. He follows it into the depot, wrinkling his nose when the dual scents of motor oil and grease threaten to overwhelm him, past the abandoned train cars and into the office area.

One of the doors reads Manager in a fading script. Derek pauses by it, listening. He turns the knob and finds it unlocked. Of course Stiles would hide in the office Derek used to sleep in. "Stiles?"

The mattress is piled high with blankets that move when Derek steps inside. Stiles pokes his head out from beneath them, his little face is splotchy, tear-stained. "Hi," he croaks out.

Derek wants to rip the blankets off and carry Stiles home. He wants to grab Stiles and demand to know what happened. He does neither. "Are you hurt?"

Stiles sits up. The blankets slip down, revealing his bare shoulders and collarbone. Derek clenches his jaw. Patches of red and purple blood across Stiles' fair skin. Love-bites.

He can't help it; he rushes across the room, falling to his knees besides the bed. He only means to look, needing to confirm his worst fears, but Stiles reacts like it's a precursor to an attack. The boy jerks back, pressing himself against the concrete wall, clutching a threadbare quilt to his chest.

Derek freezes with one hand outstretched. "Stiles?"

"I don't..." Stiles swallows. His gaze is vacant, focused on something over Derek's shoulder. "Sorry, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to do that. It's fine, I'm fine." Slowly, his fingers unclench and the quilt falls away.

Stiles' chest is dotted with more hickeys. They're lurid, obscene against his pale skin. "You don't look fine, Stiles," Derek says, as gently as he can. "Did someone..." He can't bring himself to ask. Stiles smells of another man, semen, saliva. Derek can put the pieces together.

But Stiles shakes his head vehemently. "That's - it didn't happen like that. I said yes, and he just -"

"You don't have to tell me," Derek says firmly. He makes eye contact with Stiles. "Okay? You don't have to say anything, not until you're ready."

That earns him a watery smile. "I wish that was true, big guy. Just - just let me show you, okay?"

Horror spreads through him, but he nods. Stiles takes a deep breath, gearing himself up for it, and then he scoots down the bed, closer to Derek. Shaking like a fly-bitten creature, Stiles rolls onto his stomach.

For a moment, Derek isn't sure what he's supposed to see. Stiles is only wearing a pair of briefs, and he wants to avert his eyes, wants to wrap Stiles back up in the blankets. But then he sees it: the bite mark. It's high on Stiles' back, close to his spine. It's livid, filthy red and sluggishly bleeding. There's overlaying gashes, like the man kept biting while Stiles struggled beneath him.

"He didn't tell me he was a werewolf," Stiles says in a small voice. "He - I met him at Jungle and he was nice, so I went back to his car. After... Um. Afterwards, I was just lying in the backseat, talking, you know? It was about a movie; I was telling him about a movie we could see, and then he -"

Derek leans over Stiles, needing to get a better look. Stiles' breath hitches and his shoulders tense. He makes a move like he's going to squirm away, but Derek presses him down against the mattress with one hand. Stiles whimpers, turns his face away, as Derek sniffs at the wound.

Alpha. An Alpha werewolf attacked Stiles.

"Am I going to die?"

"No," Derek growls. The wound is bleeding, but he can already see it starting to close up. Instinct demands that he help, and so he does. He laps at the bites, chasing away the scent and taste of the Alpha who mauled Stiles. He laves at the wound, running his tongue against the grooves, until saliva runs down Stiles' side.

"This is weird," Stiles says, voice thick. "And gross."

It's not weird. The only thing unnatural about this at all is that the Alpha didn't do this. It's supposed to foster a pack bond between Alpha and the new beta, as well as reducing the likelihood of bite rejection. It's tradition. But this one attacked Stiles, ruining what should have been a tender moment between them, and then abandoned him. An unwanted omega wolf.

Stiles is in good company.

"Stop, Derek, please."

Derek lifts his head, licking his lips. The bite is healing nicely now, with no trace of the black pus that indicates a rejection. Stiles will be okay. "You didn't want this." Derek is still holding Stiles in place. "So why...?"

Stiles' throat clicks as he swallows. "He said... he said that I was asking for it by running around with so many wolves." The next words come out in as a whisper. "He said I was a tease."

"Stiles..."

"It's fine," Stiles insists. His eyes are still closed. "Just - just get off me, okay?"

Derek obeys but doesn't go far. The last thing Stiles needs is someone hovering over him, but he's hurt and reeks of sex and shame. Derek never wanted that for him, never. He knew it would happen eventually: teenagers want sex, it's natural. But it should have been good for Stiles. It never should have been tainted by violence and fear.

It should have been with Derek.

He pushes that ugly, possessive thought away. Bitter jealously isn't attractive coming from an adult man. "Do you want to go home?"

Stiles doesn't move. He's still spread out, face pressed against the mattress. There's more dark marks staining the milk-white skin of his thighs. This Alpha hadn't been gentle, even before the biting. "When will I know?"

"You're not going to die."

"That's not what I mean," Stiles snaps. He sits up with a grimace, pulling the quilt up to his chest. "When will I know what I'm going to be?"

As always, Stiles' mind is going down paths Derek didn't anticipate. "You're not going to turn into a kanima," he says firmly, willing it to be true. "They're incredibly rare and, Stiles, you know yourself."

The words are not as reassuring as he'd have hoped. Stiles draws his knees up to his chest, curling in on himself. "If..." He closes his eyes, takes a deep breath. "If I'm not a werewolf, and I'm... something, I need you to -"

Derek clenches his jaw. No matter what, he's not killing Stiles. He doesn't have that in him. But a comforting lie works better than the truth sometimes. "I'll take care of you," he says, resisting the urge to curl his hand around Stiles' ankle. "Now come on, you'll feel better after you get some sleep."

Stiles' laugh is bitter, but he slides off the bed all the same. He keeps a hold of the quilt, wrapping it around him like a shawl. Can Stiles smell him on it? The residual alpha musk could be a comfort if Stiles' senses are already enhancing.

"Here," Derek says, snagging a forgotten cellphone from the mess of blankets. When Stiles takes it from him, their fingers brush. Normally, this would make Stiles' heart race with excitement, but now he jerks away, keeping his eyes averted.

"Sorry, I don't know why..." Stiles trails off, but Derek knows what he was going to say. The stench of fear is thick in the air.

"It's okay," Derek says, because it is. He stays on his knees, trying to appeal to any new instincts Stiles might be feeling. He ignores his own desire to nuzzle Stiles' soft belly. Touch can be a comfort, but not here, not so soon. "Let me take you home."

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low pressure tags!! @nixeleth @renmackree @meggie-stardust @like-lazarus @punchedbymarkesmith

he figures he's like two minutes from home, he'll answer when he pulls into the driveway. he can feel his stomach start to twist because if that's stiles or eli... he shakes his head, he won't be any help to them if he crashes while texting and driving.

as he pulls into the neighbourhood, he can see it. his heart stops.

a black plume of smoke rising into the air.

he almost swerves into a light post, steps on the gas and rights the steering wheel.

please not his house. please not his family. not again. he won't survive.

the car has barely stopped and derek is leaping out, running full speed towards his home. whats left of it.

STILES! ELI! STILES!

he isn't moving, why isn't he moving?

arms around him. claws come out.

Derek!

Dad!

derek whips his head around, sees stiles and eli sitting in the open door of an ambulance, blankets around their shoulders, plastic masks on their faces. sees stiles stand up.

the arms holding him back release (was it john? he hopes it was john)

he sprints to them, slipping a bit on the wet grass, and crashes into stiles, almost knocking him over.

he pulls eli into their embrace, almost as tall as both of them now and growing every day.

we're okay baby, we got out in time

dad...

its okay der, breathe, breathe us in, its okay, we're okay

derek focuses on their heartbeats, his husband and son, his whole world.

the roar of the flames, the crash of the water, the sirens, shouts... he lets it all wash over him. too familiar.

but this time he has his family. this time they got out. this time it wasn't his fault.

he doesn't even realise he's crying, not until eli uses the edge of his blanket to wipe at his fathers face.

breathe derek

was he not? of course not. he breathes in and out, following stiles' instructions

he pulls both of them back into his arms. he can't let go.

a paramedic asks them to put the mask back on, they inhaled too much smoke. suggests them to go to the hospital.

stiles open his mouth to argue (for himself. eli is definitely going.) but shuts it right away at the look on dereks face.

there is no argument. derek is making sure they are both checked out and okay.

they are deemed well enough by the paramedic to be driven by derek to the hospital instead of riding in the ambulance.

john appears (it was him) and insists on driving. you're a mess kid, you aren't driving like this

the aftermath will be hell. tomorrow will be bad. but they will deal with it together.

Finally, an explanation for where they go. 

really quick one>_<

One of my friends in high school changed his named as soon as he turned 18, so that the ethnic name his family gave him was finally the name reflected on all of his paperwork. He told me that he understood why his parents had given him an “English” name, but that he felt that if he needed to assimilate in order to succeed, then that was a type of success that he didn’t want.

When I was on my way home from the courthouse after changing my own name, I got into a conversation with my rideshare driver, who was extremely interested once I told him what I was in court for, and wanted to know how I’d done it, how much it cost, was it difficult, etc. It turned out that his girlfriend had chosen the name “Yo-yo” when she came to the United States, unaware of how rare that was as a name, and that she was frequently made fun of because of it. Neither one of them had realized that a name change was so easy, and he told me he was excited to let her know that she had options.

There was an intern at a summer job I had once, who changed her name to be the same name, but a different spelling. She said that she had no idea why her parents had spelled her name so oddly to begin with, and suspected that it was just an honest mistake either by them or by some nurse, but it had been a headache for her entire life, and it was a huge relief to not need to be correcting people’s spelling on important documents anymore.

One of my exes legally changed his name to have an exclamation point, because he liked to sign his name with an exclamation point.