i just need a moment pre-dating sterek where Derek holds or reaches out for Stilesā hand for comfort
where theyāre at the movies and thereās a particular scene thatās a little too close to home. where Derekās maybe struggling to watch but cannot pull his eyes away from it either. his hand searching out for Stilesā, finding it on Stilesā knee and just interlocking their fingers without warning. it catches Stiles off guard but he sees the discomfort in Derekās face even as the lights from the movie dance around. Stiles doesnāt say anything, just squeezes Derekās hand in his.
where theyāre sitting in the camaro, keeping a lookout for whatever it is thatās terrorizing the town for the week. Stiles, of course, is stuffing his face with curly fries and an XL slushie, rambling in between breaths about his studies, pack drama, his dadās health, whatever comes to mind. Derekās happy to just sit and listen as he stares out the windshield. heās not exactly uncomfortable, nothing is wrong, and yet, he canāt help but grab Stilesā hand as they continue to wait. it probably takes him more than a few minutes to realize heād been rubbing his thumb over Stilesā knuckles ( which may have inadvertently caused Stiles to slow down when talking.. and eating )
maybe even at pack meeting/night. thereās too many voices overlapping, too many different opinions, everyone thinking theyāre right and somehow no one is wrong. Derek tries closing his eyes, rubbing at his temples, trying his damndest to tune everyone out until he can find a way to get a word in. he finds himself grabbing Stilesā free hand, already running his thumb over Stilesā knuckles, counting quietly to himself in his head just for a moment. that seems to shut the pack up, all of their eyes locking in on Derekās hand in Stilesā. when Derek lets go, staring back at the curious expressions, Stiles just grabs Derekās hand again, breaking the silence by saying, ānow that everyoneās quiet, can we finally let Derek speak?ā Derek looks to Stiles slightly stunned, to which Stiles only nods with a smile, giving Derekās hand a light, reassuring squeeze.
Derek ( and Stiles ) would become so used to it. Derek would be so spoiled by it. Stiles offering up his hand whenever he was in the presence of Derek. didnāt matter if Derek was in distress or not, Stiles would splay out his hand waiting for Derek to take it. and Derek would find so much comfort in how warm, firm but soft Stilesā hands were. how Stilesā grip was never too tight or loose. that occasionally Stiles would rub circles into Derekās knuckles, or fidget with Derekās fingers, or clasp both hands over Derekās one, creating a cocoon of warmth.
one day, Stiles would walk into the loft finding Derek at his worst, emotionally. immediately, Stiles grabbed Derek by the hand, pulling him towards the couch and making him sit awfully close. heād press his forehead against Derekās temple, his hand still intertwined with Derekās as he whispered reassurance and comforting words that soothed Derek. theyād share a few deep breaths, that heavy feeling on Derekās shoulders lifting.
Derek freezes when he feels lips pressed against the back of his hand. words catch in his throat, unable to form a single thought as he stares back into Stilesā eyes, completely lost in them ( which tends to happen more times than Derek thinks ). the only coherent thought Derek has is to kiss him back, so he does, finally getting to feel and taste Stilesā lips against his own. Derek basks in how sweet and soft Stiles feels; how it brings him just as much comfort as their hands clasped together, as if this is how theyāve meant to be this entire time.
when their lips finally part, Derek reciprocates leaving kisses against Stilesā knuckles. eventually he finds words to muster up, expressing to Stiles how surprised he is by how much comfort Stiles brings him, the security he feels just from being around him.
āi donāt feel this calm with anyone else,ā Derek admits.
Stiles smiled softly, kissing the corner of Derekās mouth. his fingers wrapped around Derekās hands again, eyelashes fluttering as he looked up at Derek, āi donāt mind being your security human if you need me to.ā