Veritable Malestrom of Avarice

I can mask 150% to make myself seem 'normal' but the crash afterwords always lasts longer than the masking and it's an infinite cycle of pretending and collapsing.

Friends are gone. Family is either dead or wants nothing to do with me.

Can't hurt myself because anyone who gives the slightest bit of a fuck will be affected.

So we just sit here;

Hitting my skull and Hitting my skull and Hitting my skull and Hitting my skull and Hitting my skull and Hitting my skull and Hitting my skull and Hitting my skull and

Inputting until there's no more output.

>look inside

How will I know if I can't see the bottom?

Come up for air and choke on it all

No one else knows that I've got a problem

What if I can't get up and stand tall?

What if the diamond days are all gone

And who will I be when the empire falls?