I shit post here. Bark.

some of the rooms have fully stocked pantries with cooking equipment, some have movies like the one described above, some have books you're allowed to just take but people always put back- every day people bring things from the outside. artists often set up galleries there. there are rooms with mattresses and hammocks set up for people to sleep. one of the room is just a place where people leave shoes for the fun of it.

I think the part that knight missed (which is completely understandable, it was just a vent post to start with) is that this pattern of behavior can't happen in isolation. It's a result of being around people who care deeply for you and feeling so safe in that space that you forget how to be an independent person. It feels good to be taken care of, and it is distressing to think that that feeling might go away.

The thing is though, if you love the puppygirl, you cant let her live like that. It's no different than living off of taco bell and monsters just because they taste good and cooking for yourself is hard. It's nice as a treat, but you can't let it become your routine. Everyone needs a little extra help sometimes, but when extra becomes expected, then it becomes unhealthy.

The problem is never the disability, or the puppygirl aesthetic, or the fact that she takes up space to live. Those things, by themselves or in combination, are all great. When you have that combination and then add in someone who's always willing to pick up the slack, who's always there to shield the puppygirl from the consequences of her own actions no matter what, then you get a problem. That's when a person falls into the habit of giving up and not taking care of themselves, and trusting that it'll still get done.

At which point they will find an ovarian cyst, but they now get whatever fucked up satisfaction they derive out of proving you wrong, because you didn't believe it could a cyst at all, but guess what? They did find a cyst! It's such a good thing you didn't listen to your intuition and came to them to verify your lay diagnosis from that third party! Bonus? Doctor doesn't have to feel like they look stupid in front of a patient, which is really what all this is about. Not your health, why would you think your medical diagnosis is about your health? It's obviously about a doctor's potential ego.

And apparently this works. Apparently you just need to be able to always play 4D chess with your medical professionals in order to find an avenue of advocating for yourself and getting you medical needs met. Isn't that great?