tw emotional abuse from my mother
me saying that I need to get away from an hours-long argument of being screamed at because I am literally inches away from harming myself: stonewalling, an abusive tactic
her saying that she does not want to discuss things at all or ever because she is too tired and exhausted: fine, actually
her saying things that are not true: objective truth
me calling her out on things that are untrue: gaslighting
me saying that i have been irreparably harmed because of the way that she raised me: DARVO
her saying that i have been acting abusive my literal entire life, citing my behavior at age 11: the commonly accepted truth
me bringing up to her alone during a fight that she once beat me black and blue and gave me a nosebleed: slander. she'll sue me
her telling all her friends and all our family that i'm irreparably brain-damaged and it makes me act crazy and naiive/that i'm an alcoholic and must have been drinking/that i smoke too much pot and go into psychosis from it: definitely not anything
me being completely fucked at age 27 and unable to move out because i am expected to help provide for the household and am never allowed to accumulate more than a couple hundred dollars at a time: my fault
me being so desperate to leave that i dated two abusers who eventually left me to go back to her: my bad
DCF visiting as a child: what did i say that brought them here
i'm literally just tired of the constant nonconsensual mindfuck. it's been my whole life, my whole fucking life, and i want it to be over. but i can't make it end yet because i literally don't know if things will work out with me staying at my dad's.
