Ahh Mr.sneky

I didnt really change who i follow. I rarely follow someone new. I will here and there, a handful over the last few years, but a lot of who I follow are also other marginalized people who talk about this stuff. I go out of my way for this. This is how I have curated my dashboard since I was in high school. This blog is old enough to go to college btw. I have had this same blog since 2009.

But ONLY NOW am I seeing less and less and less of current events. Less protests. Less anti-capitalism, less ACAB sentiment.

I get more of that stuff from THREADS now. Do you hear me, Tumblr? Facebook is outpacing you when it comes to POLITICS, now. The website that admitted outright that it was manipulating you, lying to you, and experimenting on you just to see how much they could get you to click, just to see how much they could get into your head. The website that is fully transparent about how much it suppresses Mutual Aid requests and discussions of real world issues and current injustices. Fucking ZUCK'S website is doing better than tumblr right now? at the ONE THING we were known for, other than BEING GAY? Where the fuck am I???

And like yeah I just cant see it as "correlated but coincidence" that around the time I stopped seeing this stuff on tumblr, my following also got eerily quiet. No more anons, not even mean ones (even though I leave it on constantly). People respond to my OPs on occasion, but its much more rare than it used to be. NOBODY has given a bite on any ask games I have reblogged for SIX YEARS. Not a single response.

No I dont miss The Discourse(tm) but part of what made Tumblr a place that was WORTH coming back to for 17 fucking years is that it WAS a community. I survived off mutual aid and app referralls from my blog for years when I stopped being able to work, while I struggled to figure out why i was so sick. I used to have easily a dozen mutuals who logged on regularly and sent me asks, replies, etc. I used to log on every single day and see world and US news and current events, updates about Stop Cop City and other anti-imperialist efforts.

And yes, like, shit changed afte the porn ban. It did. This place was a ghost town for like, a year after that. But those of us who stayed kept it going and built it back up. I felt like there was a bit of a resurgence back in 2020/2021...

And ykw, specifically around the time that Renee Good and Alex Pretti were killed, that was when I started seeing a REMARKABLE amount of Fucking Nothing on this website. I BARELY even saw those two mentioned. Meanwhie, shit was POPPING OFF on Threads. People were fucking organizing over there, ON FACEBOOK, while the people on Tumblr posted about fandom shit.

It wasnt immediately after the porn ban that i saw this shift. It was recent. Until the last 6-9 months, I COULD still come to my dashboard and see all the stuff I worked so hard to curate here. I COULD count on coming to tumblr and seeing news about things like Minneapolis or events in Gaza here, first, before anywhere else. I could see videos of Bisan without having to go to Instagram.

Suddenly, I cant anymore.

So yeah I dont think its the porn ban demographic shift actually, I think tumblr is making a much more concentrated effort to either ban or suppress posts like this, and people who are likely to post them (yes! trans women and TPOC!!)... and to boost posts/blogs that post sheer vapid entertainment only.

Its like theyre trying REALLY hard to lean back into Tumblr being "the fandom website" and trying specifically to erase the kind of discourse and "SJW vibes" it used to be known for.

They are rebranding and trying to make Tumblr more palatable to normies, while normies on the fucking Zuck website are doing a better job of posting about politics.

And tbf usually, like, the queer ppl I know who have dogs actually do train them, but the cishet normie dog owners will literally let them run loose in town "because she's her own person, she likes to!" And I can't help but also see a parallel there between how socially privileged people never have to THINK about what they do or say, and marginalized people have to think twice as hard about everything we do bc of how we are perceived.

Being COMFORTABLE with dogs, or having had dogs as pets in childhood, does NOT mean you "know dogs." By the FUCKING way.

Just like you need to be prepared for your kids to be anyone before you have them, you need to be prepared for a difficult and unpredictable dog. You need to be prepared to spend extra time, energy and money on them. You need to be prepared to do research into new training methods in case yours dont work.

was this about me?

could it have been about me in another universe?

why isnt it about me?

and all the while your HVAC and every other system and appliance in your house is constantly wheezing and heaving to try and keep the temp regulated (bc you cut down all the trees for this stupid fucking house) and to pump in water and to keep gas in your car to drive to Costco for your supplies once a week and trying to keep the moisture regulated and the electric and internet turned on and trying to keep mold down and trying to keep mice and ants out (since again, your developer killed all their natural predators and now your house is just full of food for them!) and caring for all of the appliances that you now need to keep your food and air and shower water temperature-regulated and to keep bugs out and your kids and dogs in, and and and--

and all of this REQUIRES that you have no community. it requires that you be cut off from any meaningful systems of support, so that in your race to prove what an individualist you are and how self-sufficient you can be (with all of these systems and products and spaces and expectations that were fucking invented and imposed on your life by other people), you will be forced to buy things incessantly. endless bills, endless subscriptions, endless maintenance for endless appliances that your house and your children and your dogs endlessly gobble up. buy buy buy buy buy and just keep buying, because as long as you can pay your bills, you have met the minimum requirements for beign Seen As a Human Being! And when you stop being able to pay them -- not if! -- your lovely Christian Super Safe Suburb neighbors will turn on you like sharks on chum.

HOW you can all stand to be surrounded by the noise of dogs barking endlessly bc they are being ignored and not trained, kids screaming endlessly bc they are not being parented, construction machinery screaming endlessly as it destroys what little green space we have left for yet more suburbs that NOBODY CAN FUCKING AFFORD TO LIVE IN!!!!!!! except for the handful of privileged few who have so thoroughly sold their humanity that whatever sacrifices they have to make to maintain the bare minimum seem justified.

And so many of these stupid chucklefucks still arent happy. You ask them WHY they did any of this and they dont know. Because youre supposed to? because that's what everyone they know did? because they dont knwo another way of life and cant see a way out? what a bunch of good little doggies.

IF YOU DO NOT HAVE TIME TO SPEND WITH YOUR DOG YOU CANNOT AFFORD A FUCKING DOG. Spending MONEY ON your dog is not enough, you need to SPEND TIME and TRAIN the stupid fucking thing or else it becomes EVERYONE ELSES PROBLEM.

If you do not have TIME to SPEND with your KIDS, DONT FUCKING HAVE THEM. Being able to afford the mortgage is not fucking enough!!!!!

The Suburbs on the whole are just like... the epitome of self-centered, lazy, unthinking, unfeeling, utter inhumanity. They are antisocial, anti-life, sterile, created by and enforced with violence, AND FOR WHAT? Its a milestone or a marker of "safety" that "everyone" is supposed to want and strive for. AND? FOR? WHAT????

and all the while your HVAC and every other system and appliance in your house is constantly wheezing and heaving to try and keep the temp regulated (bc you cut down all the trees for this stupid fucking house) and to pump in water and to keep gas in your car to drive to Costco for your supplies once a week and trying to keep the moisture regulated and the electric and internet turned on and trying to keep mold down and trying to keep mice and ants out (since again, your developer killed all their natural predators and now your house is just full of food for them!) and caring for all of the appliances that you now need to keep your food and air and shower water temperature-regulated and to keep bugs out and your kids and dogs in, and and and--

and all of this REQUIRES that you have no community. it requires that you be cut off from any meaningful systems of support, so that in your race to prove what an individualist you are and how self-sufficient you can be (with all of these systems and products and spaces and expectations that were fucking invented and imposed on your life by other people), you will be forced to buy things incessantly. endless bills, endless subscriptions, endless maintenance for endless appliances that your house and your children and your dogs endlessly gobble up. buy buy buy buy buy and just keep buying, because as long as you can pay your bills, you have met the minimum requirements for beign Seen As a Human Being! And when you stop being able to pay them -- not if! -- your lovely Christian Super Safe Suburb neighbors will turn on you like sharks on chum.

HOW you can all stand to be surrounded by the noise of dogs barking endlessly bc they are being ignored and not trained, kids screaming endlessly bc they are not being parented, construction machinery screaming endlessly as it destroys what little green space we have left for yet more suburbs that NOBODY CAN FUCKING AFFORD TO LIVE IN!!!!!!! except for the handful of privileged few who have so thoroughly sold their humanity that whatever sacrifices they have to make to maintain the bare minimum seem justified.

And so many of these stupid chucklefucks still arent happy. You ask them WHY they did any of this and they dont know. Because youre supposed to? because that's what everyone they know did? because they dont knwo another way of life and cant see a way out? what a bunch of good little doggies.