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Not my citrus, not my whores

I worked in a supermarket for 7 years and I don't think I can understate just how much cleaning you had to do for it to look clean (it very often where not in the places you aren't supposed to see)

True for food service, retail establishments, gyms, outdoor areas, schools, religious buildings, office buildings, etc. People usually only notice when a space is NOT clean, meanwhile every time a space is clean it’s only because of the diligent work of janitors, maintenance staff, custodians, parks workers, or volunteers.

thinking about that illustration of solitude vs loneliness in which solitude is a dog peacefully holding its own leash & loneliness is a feral dog fighting against the restraint of the leash & feeling slightly insane

STOP no more live-action remakes. We're going the other way now. Animated Casablanca. Animated The Godfather. Animated Oppenheimer. Animated Fight Club.

Animated Goncharov.

Definitely that one.

Look at these idiots who haven't seen Gonzorov (1993).

Reblogging entirely for Gonzorov.

Wait, listening to the same song on repeat is stimming?

I do not mean a normal amount of listening to the same song on repeat I mean that in October and November 2022 the only thing I listened to was Type O Negative's "Black No. 1" and I listened to it for 18 hours a day. This is, apparently, a kind of stimming.

*quietly hides the four playlists that I have that are just copies of one song from different recordings or releases*

To be clear I do not know what the normal amount is. When Large Bastard and I started dating I had a tape in my car with Tom Petty's "Dancing at the Zombie Zoo" on it that I knew exactly when to flip the other side (halfway through "Yer so Bad") so that I could flip it again and listen to Zombie Zoo again and I did that enough that Large Bastard still can't listen to Tom Petty and also it wore through the tape. So whatever normal is it is probably less than that.

WHAT DO YOU MEAN MOST KIDS DON'T HAVE TO BE TRAINED OUT OF WALKING ON TIP TOES

When not wearing shoes, will you be wearing socks? "Always" and "never" are both very diagnostic here.

Well, you see, the answer to this is nuanced because I Have A System (said while groaning and putting my face in my hands).

When you're wearing headphones, nobody knows that you're listening to Knowledge Fight #685: Formulaic Objections Part 7 for the 40th time.

I mean to be fair this does coincide with working from home and it wouldn't be out of bounds to listen to the radio for 8 hours a day in an office environment. Technology just lets me reallllly fine tune what I'm listening to so that i don't have to listen to broadcast news (derogatory).

My favorite thing about tumblr is how we parade our mental illnesses around like prized showdogs, and everyone looks on, making excited noises.

My therapist has told me that I'm not good at recognizing "normal" and that I have a lot of incorrect assumptions about what is required to perform "normal" so I like using posts like this to collect data and also take notes about other people's show dogs so I can better train mine.

Long story short: she wants me to become less productive immediately.

Getting this info from tumblr may skew the data but the only other people I hang out with regularly are a bunch of hackers who are *also* getting their midlife autism diagnosis and Explosions Georg, who is an outlier adn should be controlled for.

Hi! To add another data point, afaik I'm not neurospicy and I do listen to songs on repeat because I love music sometimes. My usual max is between 1-3 h when reading, when actively listening its much lower. the want to listen this intensely on repeat also usually abates after a few days. Usually between sessions of listening on repeat I'll also listen to other songs too.

Wait, listening to the same song on repeat is stimming?

I do not mean a normal amount of listening to the same song on repeat I mean that in October and November 2022 the only thing I listened to was Type O Negative's "Black No. 1" and I listened to it for 18 hours a day. This is, apparently, a kind of stimming.

*quietly hides the four playlists that I have that are just copies of one song from different recordings or releases*

To be clear I do not know what the normal amount is. When Large Bastard and I started dating I had a tape in my car with Tom Petty's "Dancing at the Zombie Zoo" on it that I knew exactly when to flip the other side (halfway through "Yer so Bad") so that I could flip it again and listen to Zombie Zoo again and I did that enough that Large Bastard still can't listen to Tom Petty and also it wore through the tape. So whatever normal is it is probably less than that.

WHAT DO YOU MEAN MOST KIDS DON'T HAVE TO BE TRAINED OUT OF WALKING ON TIP TOES

When not wearing shoes, will you be wearing socks? "Always" and "never" are both very diagnostic here.

Well, you see, the answer to this is nuanced because I Have A System (said while groaning and putting my face in my hands).

When you're wearing headphones, nobody knows that you're listening to Knowledge Fight #685: Formulaic Objections Part 7 for the 40th time.

I mean to be fair this does coincide with working from home and it wouldn't be out of bounds to listen to the radio for 8 hours a day in an office environment. Technology just lets me reallllly fine tune what I'm listening to so that i don't have to listen to broadcast news (derogatory).

My favorite thing about tumblr is how we parade our mental illnesses around like prized showdogs, and everyone looks on, making excited noises.

My therapist has told me that I'm not good at recognizing "normal" and that I have a lot of incorrect assumptions about what is required to perform "normal" so I like using posts like this to collect data and also take notes about other people's show dogs so I can better train mine.

Long story short: she wants me to become less productive immediately.

Getting this info from tumblr may skew the data but the only other people I hang out with regularly are a bunch of hackers who are *also* getting their midlife autism diagnosis and Explosions Georg, who is an outlier adn should be controlled for.

"You know what's harder than Getting Better? Living Like That" is just the thesis for my whole shit going on right now honestly. You know what's harder than doing my physical therapy? Hurting All The Time. You know what's harder than addressing my gender dysphoria? Hurting All The Time

I'm Doing The Hard Thing and it's *easier* than how I was living before. If you make yourself feel better you will have more energy to spend on Getting Better. Nice inch nails - the upward spiral. Crawl out of your grave Thursday

there are definitely many friendship/social interaction things that are cross-species and instinctual in any organism that has enough intelligence to be a little twat. so grace gets annoyed during an argument and does a mocking impression of rocky's voice, gets more irritated realising that he has to now explain it for it to work, only for rocky to slam a fist on the ground and do a deeply disharmonic, two-octaves-down imitation of grace's speaking voice. and it takes grace so far out of the argument that he has to concentrate on not laughing and getting himself killed. anyways they do this back and forth for 30 minutes until its just two dogs barking at each other either side of a fence.

“Why would you stop in hell?” has changed my brain chemistry