hi!! i’m looking for any fics where either C or A has depression. either canon/ canon-ish. preferably no human au.
i’ve been struggling to find something that has well written and accurate descriptions of what depression feels like/ how it makes you act/ etc etc etc. THANK YOU SO MUCH
Hey. We have #mental health, #depression, and #depressed crowley tags, so check those out. Here are more to add...
The House That Breathes by angelsnuffbox (T)
In the aftermath of the failed Apocalypse, Aziraphale finds there are unseen scars that would never quite wash off. Rather, they linger like scent to skin, markings indelible.
Seeing no other solution, he moves to a cottage in the countryside in an attempt to recover. But there’s something not quite right about it, something that he can’t seem to fix. Above all, there’s also something missing, in the form of a beloved demon he’s had to leave behind.
God is Dead (and we have killed Her)* by alderharpoon (G)
God may be tetchy, but would they really have let their children tear the world apart? Probably not.
Didn't mean they had a suitable backup plan though. And what should you do when you're the Almighty ruler of the world and you have no backup plan when free will (*cough* incompetence) gets in your way? Why, shove everything into a void, "kill" yourself and hand everything off to your daughter of course!
Or, God panics and Adam and the new Christ needs help rebuilding the world, and Aziraphale is desperately confused/depressed and has read too much Nietzsche.
Bring Me Back To You by dreamingofwinter (M)
When Aziraphale returns to Earth after being recalled to Heaven for thirty years, he finds the years have taken an unexpected emotional toll on him - and his relationship with Crowley. Struggling to articulate his emotions, the angel has a long way to go before things can ever go back to normal.
Aziraphale's recovery may take some time, but Crowley will always be by his side to help him through the hard times.
Renegade Angels All Tied Up With Strings by mostlyeffable (E)
The humans were curious about him, Crowley knew that. Who wouldn’t be? Man-shaped thing shows up on your local pub's doorstep, mute, scowling, and desperate, takes up residence in its worst room for months, drinks about four bottles of whiskey a day, doesn’t eat a damned thing, and yet refuses to die - you’d be curious too, wouldn’t you?
Sometimes he’d overhear them whispering about him, staff and customers alike.
“Is that another bottle?” One lady would mutter disapprovingly.
“Heartbreaking to see someone waste away their life like that,” sighed a woman to her partner.
“Why’s he wearing sunglasses inside?” A kid asked his dad, tugging on the man’s sleeve.
“Do you mind if I take this seat?” Asked a man at Crowley’s elbow.
He turned to look at the newcomer. He was smiling widely, his eyes crinkling at the corners. The man’s nose was slightly upturned and his hair a crown of ruffled white curls.
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OR: After resorting to extreme measures to avert the apocalypse, a very miserable Crowley retreats to somewhere close to his heart and drowns his sorrows for months until his wallowing is interrupted by a mysterious stranger who knows more than he ought to and simply won't shut up.
And There Will Be Great Lamentations by TheBobblehat (M)
It has been a month since Aziraphle has become the new Archangel of Heaven, and it's worse than he can possibly imagine. Due to Gabriel's poor management while he was in charge, Azirpahle has been playing catch-up with all the paperwork that Gabriel didn't bother to do. On top of that, while Aziraphale has a shiny new title, he still can't seem to garner the respect of his fellow Angels, and now without Crowley, is feeling more lonely than ever before.
Meanwhile, on Earth, Crowley isn't doing much better. Depressed, he haunts the bookshop under the lame excuse that he's "supervising" Muriel in their new position as bookseller. That old, demonic spark has long gone, and all that's left is a very depressed, very heartbroken shell of his former self.
Especially to Me, Especially if it's You by cyankelpie (T)
Crowley has spent the last two years learning to cope with Aziraphale's absence. So when Aziraphale shows up with no memories, and Crowley is the only one who can help, it's not an easy thing to deal with.
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