the gold beneath the virtual rainbow

BETTER FUCKING BLOCK ME THEN JESUS FUCKING CHRIST

I feel like I’m definitely missing some context here because this is not the reaction I would expect.

I’m pretty sure I read the previous persons comment wrong because I thought they were doing a funny haha and not a funny weird. I interpreted those comments to be talking about the way gender essentialism is usually neatly wrapped up in purity culture. Which is why I added the gif I did

You are not the judge and jury of whether a complete stranger is being sexually harassed, actually.

Even when I was “cis” I had an incident where my gf at the time, a drunk cis white woman, literally spent an hour trying to pin me down and rip off my clothes to fuck me as I was trying to care for her, despite repeated refusals. It reached the point I had to leave the room after escaping her and hold the door shut until she gave up, and any time I mentioned it to others back then the concern was not her trying to sexually assault me, but that if she had succeeded I’d have been at fault for being a Black “man” having sex with a drunk white woman.

She spent hours while drunk begging me to have sex and pushing me up against the wall trying to kiss me and stuff and despite me repeatedly saying no she just would not stop

After a while I couldn't take it anymore and gave in and "had sex"

Whenever I'd bring it up after the fact, she'd say it had to be my fault because she was the bottom and drunk

She'd even go so far as to say i raped her, completely flipping the situation, and her sister even said that me having a penis means I'm more likely to be the perp

Had a nightmare where Caine talked like ChatGPT. It was so terrifying that I woke up crying and panicking and started stabbing random people on the street.

that's really exactly it.

as someone who could very easily qualify for a diagnosis of bpd or cptsd, and even very often resonates with both, everything described in bpd is just a demonization of the same patterns of behaviour described by cptsd. it is just describing you as evil for struggling with being hurt so much, and in doing so, takes the focus away from the person hurting and puts it onto how it inconveniences everyone else.

we really need to be critical of how these labels come to be, because they are deliberately created, and they are created by people with biases. they are so often just a tool of oppression, another extension of a discriminatory machine.

I hope it isn't derailing, but I think this is also really illustrated with Narcissistic Personality Disorder. "narcissist" was a word for an asshole before it was a word for a disorder. rather than describing how someone might struggle to relate to others or be open to true connection, and centering the person who needs to heal, they instead called everyone who struggles with that an irredeemable dick and dressed it up in medical expertise so you wouldn't think to question it. frankly I think it's silly to call for treating "narcissist" like some sacred medical term instead of looking at how fucked up it is that they called a disorder that???

If you read the link the company does of course say they’re replacing the existing forums with new ones, and I’m sure no one would say the old ones didn’t perhaps need a lil bit of a glow up, some tech debt fixing… but there’s a few key notes in there:

They are NOT carrying over any history, data messages etc. from the old forums

They are NOT archiving, retaining or in any way saving the existing forums in any way

They have NOT provided any reasoning past ‘as part of continued efforts to support developers’

As an offhand, moderate read, this sounds to me like a desire for some change in the forums but deciding nuking everything is less expensive than rebuilding and carrying over info.

If I’m cynical, and likely realistic? Probably to increase sales of their latest GameMaker software by making it inherently more difficult for someone getting the older software for cheap pushing it to its limits. The amount of institutional knowledge on those forums is absurd.

And even if it is a benign reason, it’s still terrible because what do you mean you’re doing this with no recourse or potential for change? You sell software that runs on community goodwill? In an era where people are pulling away to open source software?? Crazy.

There are yeeeaaars of answers, plugins, suggestion, community built up on those forums - I’ve used the em to learn and grow my own skillet!!! And soon it won’t exist.

At the very least, they gave a ‘heads up’ - the deletion occurs mid December, so archiving by the community is possible from now. It’s just absurd that it needs to happen in the first place.

https://web.archive.org/web/20260000000000*/https://forums.rpgmakerweb.com/

https://rpgmakerchat.com/

https://github.com/imraf/rpgmakerweb-archive/

and once you see it, so much starts to make sense. the attempt to erode language like tme/tma, which allows transfems to discuss their oppressors, or language like trans women, which allows transfems to unify and understand themselves as victims of misogyny. the proliferation of the femboy- an alternative identity for the young transfeminized person, one that is centered around looking skinny and pretty and being sexually available. and attempts to target and remove trans women from their community- to destroy the transfem community on tumblr, to isolate and punish trans women from their irl support groups. even the public mockery of transfemininity, the jokes on television, the insults boys fling at each other to assert that to be transfeminized is to be less than worthless.

hello again friends, loved ones, and beloved mutuals. i hate to be making a post like this again so soon, but bottom surgery was extraordinarily expensive, and the time i had to take off work for surgery was not paid which has made bouncing back financially quite difficult while i wait for insurance to reimburse travel and lodging.

as such, myself and my live-in partner @delicate-viscera are coming up considerably short on the bills this month. we could really use some help making ends meet with rent, utilities, and groceries, as well as catching up on the money owed for the cat sitters who helped take care of our beautiful furballs while we were away from home.

i've never raised near this much money through tumblr before, and honestly i don't expect to, we're scrambling to find help through every avenue available. but anything you can do truly means the world!! even if it's only a couple bucks, even if it's just sending it to someone who you know is in a better position to help, or just sharing it on your blog for reach. we are two dykes in desperate need, recovering from surgery and sickness respectively, please help us make ends meet!!

i love you all very much <3

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