the morningstar system ˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗

we do not have much, if any, control over our switches. at least not at this stage.

once again, when we did this question last time, we said no and that we couldn’t figure out how. now that we’re with a wonderful therapist, we actually have started one! and so many new system apps are helping with that (pluralspace and berrytree!!)

since we struggle with visual maps and such, our therapist suggested a written map. we now have a document with 16 main sections, not including all the subsections and have been updating it frequently with whatever we learn (let us know if you want our template)!

when we first did this question, we said not very co-con. we recently learned in therapy and from friends that we are actually a lot more co-conscious and soupy than we think we are.

part of that not realizing is because our communication is so poor. we may be co-con but we can’t actually hear each other. we kinda blend together into one mix of alters that are all over the place.

it was before diagnosis. we had said in a discord server with close friends (some who we didn’t even know were systems) that we were tired of our name randomly fitting and not fitting. followed by how we were tired of constantly being confused about our gender identity because it changes too but like really fast and doesn’t really feel like gender fluidity.

a person who is now our best friend and platonic soulmate reached out and privately suggested we do research into DID/OSDD. cue a spiral about it for months as we figured things out. not their fault, of course. they tried to approach it gently and did suggest we look into it carefully. they didn’t say we were a system, just that it sounded awfully system-like and that with what they knew about me, it wouldn’t surprise them.

we know of about 68 alters. most if not all of who is currently here knows about each other but they may or may not interact with one another.