irene

samira: i'm mad because i've made plans to move my life back to jersey and work in a new hospital when my mom isn't going to be there. she made plans for her life and i wasn't factored into them. i am righteous and rage-filled. it was 'our' house even though i haven't lived there in years. i want to be close and support her but i'm short with her on the phone. i don't get a lot of phonecalls and i apologise when i do. i haven't met the man she's marrying. love and lust are terrible decision making factors. i feel existentially threatened by the possibility that my mother might have needs and desires outside the small, tightly bound box i've created for her in my life and i don't know why.