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THE PITT (2025â) S02 | E10
Iâm fine! Itâs everything around me thatâsâŠ.
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THE PITT (2025â) S02 | E07
way past appropriate - dr robby
pairing : dr robby x f!reader
summary : everyone knows you and robby are like two magnets, pulled together and destined to be together. everyone except the two of you, apparently.
word count : 10.1 k
warnings : mentions of blood, passing out, smut, p in v, semi-public sex, unprotected sex (wrap it up), 18 +, MDNI , implied aged gap , fingering
a/n: as usual, not proofread !
The waiting room looks like hell.
Not metaphorically. Literally.
Too bright. Too loud. Too many people packed shoulder-to-shoulder beneath fluorescent lights that wash everyone the same sick shade of exhausted gray. A toddler screams somewhere near triage. Somebody vomits into a plastic bag near the reception desk. EMTs burst through the ambulance bay doors every six minutes carrying fresh disasters like offerings.
And over all of it: the constant overhead paging.
The ER never really sleeps. It just bleeds into the next catastrophe.
âYou got a room for a possible bowel perf?â a paramedic barks, already wheeling the patient forward.
âTrauma Two,â You answer automatically without looking up from your chart.
âTrauma Twoâs occupied.â
âThen hallway bed six.â
âThat guyâs psych hold.â
âThen put him literally anywhere with oxygen and a pulse ox.â The paramedic grins tiredly.
âThatâs why I like you.â
âYeah, well, poor judgmentâs a recurring theme around here.âBehind you, a familiar voice cuts through the noise immediately.
âShe flirts with everybody before midnight. Donât take it personal.â
You don't have to turn around to know itâs Dr. Robby. Still, your stomach betrays you anyway.
Stupid thing.
The paramedic laughs.
âDamn, Robby. Possessive tonight.â
âThatâs not what this is,â Robby mutters immediately.
You finally glance up. Big mistake. He looks exhausted. Not regular exhausted. Hospital exhausted. The kind that settles into the bones after too many double shifts and too many people dying under your hands no matter how fast you work. His dark curls are damp at the temples from hours under harsh ER heat, scrub top wrinkled, stethoscope hanging crooked around his neck. And stillâ still unfairly handsome. You hate that about him.
Hatesthat after fourteen hours on shift he can still look across a trauma bay and make your brain briefly stop functioning like a licensed medical professional. The paramedic wheels off laughing. Robby steps into the space beside you immediately, eyes dropping to the chart in your hands.
âYou re-order the labs on Bed Nine?â
âMmhm.â
âHe needs another lactate.â
âAlready done." Robbyâs mouth twitches faintly.
Of course it is.
Working with him became dangerous months ago.
Not because heâs difficult. The opposite.
Because somewhere along the line the two of you became⊠this.
Too synced up. Too aware of each other. Too comfortable.
You know how he takes his coffee. He knows when your migraines start before you say anything. You hand him instruments before he asks during procedures. He automatically moves people out of your path during traumas without even looking.
Nobody misses it. Especially not Dana.
âYou two are way past appropriate,â she muttered three shifts ago while watching you two argue over a chest tube placement like a divorced couple.
You laughed.
Robby didn't.
Now he leans slightly over your shoulder, scanning the chart.
âYou eat yet?â There it is. Every damn shift. You keep your eyes on the paperwork.
âI had coffee.â
âThat ainât food.â
âIt has nutritional value emotionally.â
âCute.â His tone flattens immediately. âEat somethinâ.â You scribble another note onto the chart.
âYes, dad.â Robby sighs through his nose. Not annoyed. Worse. Concerned.
âSeriously.â
âIâm fine.â
âYou said that six hours ago.â
âAnd look.â You gesture vaguely at yourself. âStill vertical.â His eyes flick over your face briefly. Too briefly for anybody else to notice. Long enough for you to feel it anyway.
âYou got that headache again?â he asks quietly. You blink.
âHow the hell do you always know that?â
âBecause you rub your temple every thirty seconds when it starts.â your hand drops immediately away from your face. Robbyâs expression shifts just slightly.
Victory.
Tiny.
Private.
Dangerous.
Before either of you can say another word, the overhead speakers crackle violently:
âCODE TRAUMA. MULTIPLE GSWs EN ROUTE. ETA THREE MINUTES.â
The entire ER changes shape instantly. Everybody moves. Nurses sprint toward trauma bays. Stretchers reposition. Gloves snap on. The easy rhythm of conversation disappears beneath adrenaline and practiced chaos. Robby is already moving.
âSo much for food,â you mutter.
âYouâre still eatinâ after this,â he throws over his shoulder.
âYou canât legally force me.â
âI know where your locker is.â
You snort despite yourself and follow him into Trauma One. Three minutes later the ambulance bay doors explode open. And suddenly nobody has time to breathe anymore. The first patient crashes before the second stretcher even clears the ambulance bay.
âTwenty-three-year-old male,â the paramedic shouts while helping transfer the body over. âMultiple GSWs to the chest and abdomen, lost pulse twice in transportââ
âWe got him,â Robby cuts in immediately. And just like that, he changes. Not physically. Something else. The warmth disappears first. The dry humor. The tired little almost-smiles he only really gives staff he trusts. Everything narrows into sharp-edged focus so complete it almost feels frightening to witness up close.
âTube him,â he orders. Youâre already moving before he finishes speaking.
âOn it." The room erupts into controlled chaos around you. Monitors screaming. Gloves snapping. Blood everywhere. The patient looks young. Too young. Baby-faced beneath the oxygen mask, skin already going gray around the lips. Robby climbs onto the side rail slightly to get better leverage while assessing the chest wounds.
âNo breath sounds left side.â
âTension pneumo?â you ask.
âLooks like it.â He points instantly. âNeedle.â You slap the decompression needle into his waiting hand before the nurse beside you can even react. Robby doesnât look at you when he takes it. Doesnât need to. Thatâs the problem. You work together too well now. A hiss of trapped air escapes the patientâs chest.
âPressureâs tanking,â Langdon says.
âHow bad?â
âSeventy systolic.â
âBlood now.â You move automatically, cutting through clothing while Robby barks orders over the noise. Another stretcher bursts through the doors behind you.
Second GSW. Teenager this time. Jesus Christ.
âTrauma Two ready?â Dana yells.
âNo,â you answer immediately. âUse Three.â
âWe need you in there too.â You glance toward Robby instinctively. Big mistake. Because heâs already looking at you. Just for a second. Long enough for that familiar awareness to pass silently between you both beneath the chaos.
Go.
You peel away instantly toward the second trauma bay. The teenager is conscious at least. Barely. Crying. Blood soaking through both hands where heâs trying to hold pressure against his own stomach.
âHey, heyâlook at me,â you say firmly while climbing beside the stretcher. âStay with me.â
âI donât wanna die,â he chokes out immediately. God. You hate when they say that.
âYouâre not gonna die.â
âYou promise?â You donât answer fast enough. Because nobody smart makes promises in an ER. Behind you, through the open trauma bay doors, you can still hear Robby running his room like a battlefield commander.
âPush epi.â
âAgain.â
âClear.â The defibrillator cracks loud enough to echo. Your own patient starts crashing ten minutes later. Then everything becomes movement again. Blood transfusions. Suction. Pressure. Yelling.
At some point somebody presses a protein bar into your scrub pocket without explanation. You already know it was Robby. You donât even have to look. Two hours pass like that. Then three. The teenager survives surgery. The first patient doesnât. You know the exact second Robby loses him because the entire energy of Trauma One changes. The noise drops. Voices lower. A silence settles that only really exists in hospitals after death. You finish dictating notes at the nursesâ station forty minutes later with aching shoulders and blood dried stiff across your scrub sleeves. The ER has calmed slightly. Not quiet. Never quiet. But survivable. You rub at your eyes tiredly while signing discharge paperwork.
âYou didnât eat that.â Your head lifts immediately. Robby stands beside the desk holding the untouched protein bar from your pocket. Shit.
âI forgot.â
âYou forgot for three hours?â
âIt was busy.â
âItâs always busy.â You sigh dramatically and reach for the bar. He doesnât hand it over yet.
âRobby.â
âYou get dizzy again?â
âNo.â
âYou lyinâ?â
ââŠmaybe a little.â His jaw tightens. Not angry. Worried. Again. You hate how much that affects you.
âIâm fine,â you insist more quietly this time.
âYeah,â he mutters. âThat phrase means absolutely nothinâ when it comes outta your mouth anymore.â Before you can answer, Dana walks past carrying charts and immediately stops dead seeing the two of you standing too close again.
âOh my God,â she says flatly.
You blink. âWhat?â
âThis.â She gestures vaguely between you both. âWhatever weird emotionally repressed slow-burn nonsense this is.â Robby pinches the bridge of his nose immediately.
âDanaââ
âNo, seriously. Itâs painful.â She points at you. âYou look at him like he personally hung the moon.â Your entire soul leaves your body.
âExcuse me?â
âAnd Robby looks at her like somebody put a live grenade in his chest.â
âIâm literally standing right here,â Robby mutters.
âYou two have been divorced-married for like six months.â
âWe are notââ
âYou shared fries yesterday.â
âThat doesnât mean anything.â
âYou remembered her migraine medication before she did.â Robby opens his mouth. Stops. Closes it again. Dana looks vindicated immediately.
âOh, my God.â
âDana,â you warn weakly.
âNo wonder the whole department thinks youâre sleeping together.â Silence. Complete silence. A nearby nurse actually turns around trying not to look interested. Robby stares at Dana like heâs reconsidering several HR policies simultaneously. You can physically feel heat crawling up your neck.
âWe are not sleeping together,â you say tightly. Dana snorts.
âHonestly thatâs worse. The tension in this department could power the city grid.â Then she walks away before either of you can recover. You stare at the floor. Robby stares somewhere over your shoulder. The protein bar gets silently placed into your hand at last. A wave of nausea fills you head to toe as your migrain pounds against your skull, and you wince and push away from the desk.
"Eat it." Robby pushes. You nod, turning away from him.
"Yeah, i will. Later-" You barely finish your sentence when your vision tunnels and you stumble. You sway a little in place before gravity does it's job and you go crashing for the floor.
"Shit !" Robby catches you before you have the chance to crack your skull open on the linoleum, fingers pressed to your neck to check your vitals. A stupid reflex. He looks up at Dana, who is walking away. "Dana ! A little help here !" He calls. Dana stops and spins around on high alert, and her eyes blow wide.
"Oh for pete's sake." She breathes, slinging her stethoscope off her neck as she runs forward. "What the hell happened ?" Robby shifts you in his arms, one hand supporting your limp neck.
"She's dehydrated. Only had coffee." He explains, his voice rough. Dana swears under breath and looks up.
"Perlah, get me some saline !" She shouts, "Santos, Whittaker, get me a bed !" Everything moves at once after that. The ER shifts shape around emergencies automatically, instinctively, like a living organism responding to injury. Nurses break into motion. A gurney appears from somewhere down the hall. Somebody lowers the volume on the television overhead. And through all of it, Robby doesnât let go of you for even a second.
âShe hit her head?â Dana asks quickly, already checking your pupils while Robby keeps you upright against his chest.
âNo,â he answers immediately. âI caught her.â The speed of that answer makes Danaâs eyebrows climb. Interesting.
âBP?â she asks.
âCouldnât get one yet.â
âShe breathing okay?â
âYes.â
âPulse?â
âFast.â His jaw tightens. âToo fast.â You lie limp against him completely unconscious, cheek pressed against the navy-blue fabric of his scrub top. One of your hands is curled loosely against his chest like your body just gave up trying to hold itself upright. And Jesus Christâ Robby looks terrified. Not visibly to most people. But everybody here knows him. They know the difference between Dr. Robby handling a crisis and Robby barely holding himself together through one. Langdon skids to a stop beside Mel and Samira, who have stopped in their tracks to stare at their friend passed out on the ground.
"Jesus, what happened ?" He asks, his tone wuipped.
Robby looks up, incredulous.
"The fuck does it look like Frank ? She's unconcsious !" He swears under his breath. "Whittaker ! Where the fuck is that bed ?"
âComing through!â A stretcher rattles around the corner at full speed. Whittaker wheels a bed over fast while Santos helps clear space beside the nursesâ station.
âWe got her,â Santos says carefully. Robby doesnât move.
âRobby,â Dana says slower this time. Like sheâs talking him down off something. His eyes flick up finally. For half a second he genuinely looks like he forgot anyone else was there. Then his face shutters immediately back into professional composure.
Right.
Doctor mode.
He carefully transfers you onto the bed, one hand still bracing the back of your head even after youâre safely down against the mattress.
âSheâs burning up,â he mutters. Dana presses a thermometer against your forehead.
âLow-grade fever.â She frowns. âProbably running herself into the ground.â
âShocking,â Santos mutters under his breath. Robby shoots him a look sharp enough to cut steel. Santos immediately raises both hands. âIâm just saying.â
âGet fluids running,â Robby says flatly. Dana watches him for a second too long. Then:
âHow longâs this been going on?â Robby doesnât look away from you.
âWhat?â
âThis martyr complex of hers.â Dana gestures vaguely toward your unconscious body. âSheâs looked like hell all week.â
âShe said she was fine.â
âOh my God.â Dana actually laughs once. âAnd you believed that?â His expression darkens immediately becauseâ No. He didnât. Thatâs the problem. He knew. He knew you were overworking. Knew you were skipping meals. Knew the migraines were getting worse because he memorized your tells months ago without meaning to. And somehow he still let this happen. The guilt crawls visibly across his face. Dana sees it instantly.
âHey,â she says, voice softening slightly. âThis isnât on you.â Robby exhales sharply through his nose.
âShe passed out standing next to me.â
âBecause sheâs an idiot.â A beat. Then quieter: âAnd because this place eats people alive.â Nobody argues with that. Perlah arrives with saline while Princess hooks you up to monitors. Your pulse flashes too fast across the screen immediately. Robby stares at it like he personally offended the laws of medicine.
âSheâs gonna wake up pissed we made a scene,â Dana says knowingly. That almost gets a smile out of him. Almost. Instead he reaches down absentmindedly and brushes a strand of hair back away from your face. The entire room goes still for exactly one second. Because thatâ That was not a coworker gesture. Robby realizes it immediately after doing it. His hand stills. Danaâs eyes widen slowly like she just found proof of life on another planet.
âOh,â she says very quietly. Robby straightens instantly. Professional again. Too late. Way too late. âYou are so screwed,â Dana informs him with the calm certainty of someone announcing a weather forecast.
âIâm not discussing this with you.â
âYouâre in love with her.â Whittaker nearly chokes in the background. Robbyâs face hardens immediately.
âDana.â
âNo, no, this is actually insane now.â She points between him and your unconscious form. âYou looked two seconds away from coding yourself when she hit the floor.â
âShe fainted.â
âAnd you caught her like a grieving Victorian widower.â Silence. Santos turns around entirely to hide his laughter. Mel and Samira pretend to be busy with a chart as Mckay walks by, her brows furrowed at the scene. Langdon whistles and turns around, walking off his his hands in his pockets. Robby rubs both hands down his face hard enough to leave red marks behind.
âThis conversation is over.â
âMhmm.â Dana crosses her arms. âYou gonna tell her before or after the next time she collapses from neglecting basic human survival needs?â His eyes drift back toward you automatically. Unconscious. Pale. IV running steadily now. Something in his expression shifts again. Softer this time. More dangerous.
âSoon,â he says quietly before he can stop himself. Dana goes completely still. She sighs, and her face breaks into a grin.
"Great. Abbot owes me a hundred bucks." Robby goes still.
"What ?"
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The world is bright.
God, it's so bright.
You crack your eyes open and immediately regret it, groaning as the bustling sounds of the ER flood back in.
"Ah. Rise and shine, sleepy-head." You tilt your head to the side. Langdon and Mckay are in your room, Mckay down by the computer, checking your chart while Langdon is sat by your bed, adjusting the drip flow in the IV.
Wait.
Why are you in a room ?
Your voice is rough with sleep when you speak.
ââŠwhat?â Langdon grins immediately.
âOh, sheâs alive. Shame. I was just about to steal your locker.â You blink at him slowly, brain still buffering.
ââŠwhy am i in a room?â You croak. "Why are you guys in a room.. with me ?"
âVisiting hours,â McKay says dryly without looking up from the chart. âWe brought flowers.â You glance around blearily. No flowers.
ââŠyouâre both assholes.â
âCorrect,â Langdon says pleasantly. Then your brain catches up.
Room.
IV.
Monitor.
The realization hits all at once and you groan, dragging a hand over your face.
âOh my God.â
âThere it is,â McKay mutters. âThe embarrassment. Nature is healing.â
âHow long was I out?â Langdon checks the watch on his wrist dramatically.
âLong enough for Robby to threaten three residents, snap at a nurse, and hover outside this curtain like a divorced father at a middle school dance recital.â Your stomach drops instantly.
ââŠwhat?â McKay finally looks over at you then, expression dangerously entertained.
âOh, yeah. It was bad.â
âHe scared Santos so badly she almost started crying,â Langdon adds.
âThatâs not true.â
âShe absolutely thought she was getting fired.â
âI did not snap at Santos,â Robbyâs voice cuts in sharply from outside the curtain. Both of them immediately grin like sharks scenting blood. And then Robby steps into the room carrying a cup of coffee in one hand and an electrolyte drink in the other. He stops the second he sees your eyes open. Every inch of tension in him visibly shifts. Not gone. Just redirected.
âOh, there he is,â Langdon says smugly. âThe grieving widow.â
âFrank,â Robby says flatly.
âYou were pacing.â
âI was working.â
âYou checked on her seventeen times.â McKay snorts into her coffee. Robby ignores both of them completely, eyes already on you instead.
âYou with us?â You nod weakly.
âUnfortunately.â
âAny dizziness?â
âYes.â
âNausea?â
âA little.â
âHeadache?â You just stare at him. He sighs. âRight. Stupid question.â Robby looks like he wants the earth to physically open beneath him.
âOkay,â he says tightly. âEverybody out.â
âOh, absolutely not,â Langdon says immediately.
âFrank.â
âNope. This is the best day of my life.â Robby points toward the door with terrifying calm.
âGet out.â McKay is already cackling as Langdon lets himself be physically shoved toward the curtain. The curtain swings shut behind them amid open laughter from the hallway. Then itâs quiet again. Well. Quiet except for the distant ER chaos and your own heartbeat trying to escape your body. You stare determinedly at the blanket over your lap. Robby stares somewhere over your left shoulder. Neither of you speak for a full five seconds. He sighs, pinching his nose.
"We put you on IV Saline. You were dehydrated." He explains, walking over to the seat Langdon had previously occupied. You gulp, nodding.
"My bad." He chokes on a laugh, shaking his head.
"Yeah, it is your bad. I can't have you collapsing like that in the middle of a shift." You groan, shaking your head.
"What, would you rather I do it before ? Or after ? I'm sorry, oh ER overlord, i'll try to control my unconscious state from now on." Robby lets out a short, incredulous breath through his nose.
âDonât get smart with me.â
âIâm not getting smart,â you say, already pushing the blanket off your legs. âIâm getting out of here.â His head snaps toward you instantly.
ââŠno, youâre not.â You pause mid-movement.
âYes,â you say slowly, like heâs missed something obvious, âI am.â Robby stands up so fast the chair behind him scrapes the floor.
âYou just passed out.â
âAnd I woke up.â
âThatâs not how this works.â
âItâs exactly how it works.â You swing your legs over the side of the bed anyway, ignoring the slight sway in your balance as you reach for your shoes on instinct. Robbyâs voice drops.
âStop.â You freeze for half a second. Not because he told you to. Because of how he said it. But then you shake it off and pull your shoe on anyway.
âIâm going back to work,â you repeat. Robby moves closer immediately.
âYouâre not cleared.â
âIâm fine.â
âYou are not fine.â You glance up at him sharply.
âI didnât ask for a second opinion.â
âAnd Iâm not giving you one,â he snaps back. âIâm telling you, as the attending who just watched you hit the floorââ
âBecause I forgot to eat,â you cut in. âNot because Iâm dying.â
âThat doesnât make it better!â The words echo harder than either of you probably intend. Silence hits for a beat. Your fingers still on your shoe. Robby drags a hand down his face, breathing out through his nose like heâs trying not to explode.
âYou donât get to justââ He stops himself, jaw flexing. âYou donât get to walk back out there like nothing happened.â You stand up fully now. A little too fast. The room tilts slightly.
âIâve got patients,â you say more quietly. Robbyâs voice goes lower.
âSo do I.â A beat. Then: âAnd as of right now, you are on of them. Now, Iâm telling you to sit back down.â You stare at him. He stares right back. Thereâs no humor in it anymore. No teasing. No banter. Just that same pressure from earlierâtoo much concern packed into too little space. You exhale through your nose.
ââŠyou donât get to order me around.â Robby laughs once, sharp and disbelieving.
âApparently I do, considering I just watched you hit the floor and scare half the department into thinking we were gonna lose you.â That lands. Harder than it should. You look away for a second. Then back at him.
âIâm not fragile,â you say again, quieter. Robbyâs expression shifts instantly.
âI didnât say you were.â
âYouâre acting like I am.â
âIâm acting like youâre someone who almost cracked their skull open because they refused to take a break.â That makes you go still. A beat passes. Then you grab your badge from the bedside table. Robbyâs eyes widen slightly.
ââŠdonât.â You clip it onto your scrub top.
âIâm going back to work.â
âNo,â he says again, sharper now. You step around him. He moves with you immediately, blocking the exit. You stop. Look up at him.
ââŠmove.â Robby doesnât. For the first time since you woke up, he looks genuinely frustrated in a way that isnât controlled anymore.
âYouâre making a stupid call.â
âAnd youâre not my keeper.â That hits something in him. You see it. The flicker. The crack.
A pause. Then softerâbut no less firm:
âIâm still not letting you walk out there like that.â You stare at him for a long second. Then, very deliberately, you step sideways. Not pushing past him. Not fighting. Just⊠going around. Robby turns instantly.
âHeyââ
âI said Iâm fine,â you cut in, already heading for the curtain.
âYouâre notââ
âI am,â you repeat, not stopping. Robby follows you out into the corridor. Langdon and McKay are still visible down the hall, both of them immediately clocking whatâs happening and exchanging a look.
âOh no,â Langdon murmurs. âSheâs upright.â McKay winces.
âThatâs worse.â Robby catches up to you.
âSeriouslyâstop.â You donât.
âIâm not doing this with you right now.â
âYou donât get to just leave.â You finally stop in the middle of the hallway. Turn back to him. People move around you. A stretcher rolls past. A monitor alarm bleats somewhere in the distance. Life keeps going. Even when youâre both frozen in it.
âI have a shift,â you say calmly. âYou have patients. We are both adults.â Robby looks at you like he wants to argue and canât find the right angle anymore.
âYouâre still dizzy.â
âIâll sit if I need to.â
âYou shouldnât be standing.â
âAnd yet I am.â A beat. Langdon quietly mouths, this is insane, to McKay. Then you turn and keep walking. You wrap your arms around yourself, walking over to the nurse's station and picking up the chart you had left there. Your teenage patient. You sniffle and walk over to his room, pushing the curtain aside. Robby follows.
Of course he does.
You feel him before you even hear himâheavy footsteps that donât belong to the usual ER rhythm, too deliberate, too controlled, like heâs forcing himself not to close the distance in three strides and drag you back by force.He stops just outside the curtain.You donât look at him. You canât afford to. Thereâs a chart in your hands and a patient who actually needs you upright, even if your skull still feels like itâs full of cotton and static.
âVitals stable,â you murmur, more to yourself than anyone else.
âYou donât get to justââ
âRobby,â you cut in, sharper than you intend. A warning. Or maybe a plea. âNot here.â Silence. Then, quieter, dangerously controlled:
âYou think I care where it is?â That finally makes you look at him. Heâs standing half in the curtain light, half in the hallway chaos, scrubs wrinkled, hair slightly messed from running his hand through it too many times. He looks like he hasnât stopped moving since you collapsed. His jaw is tight. Not angry anymore. Past angry.
âYou passed out,â he says. âIn my department. In my ER. In front of my staff. And you woke up and decided the appropriate response was to go back to work like nothing happened.â
âI am back to work.â
âNo.â One step closer. âYou are standing on adrenaline and spite and a saline bag thatâs barely had time to do anything.â You let out a short breath, half laugh, half exhaustion.
âYou always this dramatic with every patient, or am I special?â That lands. You see it hit himâright under the ribs. His expression shifts, like something in him finally snaps into place instead of being held together.
âNo,â he says. Then he reaches for your wrist. Not hard. Not rough. But decisive.
âHeyâRobbyââ He doesnât answer. Just turns and walks you backwardânot dragging, not forcing, but absolutely not giving you the option to argue your way out of it. You stumble once, annoyed, and he adjusts instantly without even looking, like he already knows exactly where your balance breaks.
âSeriously?â you hiss. âYouâre doing this now?â
âYes,â he says flatly.
âYou canât just abduct your attending in the middle of a shift.â
âI can when sheâs about to drop again in front of Trauma One.â
âThat is notââ He opens a door you didnât even see him key into. On-call room. Small. Dim. Too quiet compared to the screaming outside. He guides you inside and shuts the door behind you. The click of the lock is loud. Final. He draws the curtains shut. For a second, neither of you moves. The room feels wrong in a different wayâno monitors, no alarms, just the hum of the hospital through the walls and the two of you trapped in a space that suddenly feels way too intimate to be professional. You turn on him immediately.
âAre you serious right now?â
âYes.â You stare at him. He stares back. Then he exhales sharply, like heâs been holding his breath for hours and finally gave up.
âSit down.â
âNo.â
âSit,â he repeats, voice lower now. Not loud. Not angry. Final. Something in it makes your irritation falter for half a second.
âI donât needââ
âYou almost face-planted into a hallway cart,â he cuts in. âSo forgive me if I donât trust your assessment right now.â That stings. You hate that it stings.
âI told you Iâm fine.â
âAnd I told you to stop saying that like itâs a magic spell that makes it true.â Silence snaps between you. You cross your arms. He runs a hand over his face, dragging it down like heâs physically trying to keep himself from losing control again. Then, softerâdangerously honest: âDo you have any idea what it looked like?â Your voice drops a fraction.
âNo worse than what we see every day.â
âThatâs not the point.â
âThen what is?â He looks at you. And whatever restraint heâs been clinging to finally slips just enough for you to see whatâs underneath it.
âI thought I was going to lose you in my own department,â he says, quiet and raw. âWhile I was standing ten feet away.â That shuts you up. Not because you donât have a response. Because suddenly you donât trust your voice. Robby steps closer again, slower this time, like heâs approaching something that could still break.
âYou donât get to decide that itâs nothing,â he says. âYou donât get to walk it off because itâs convenient.â Your throat tightens.
âI wasnât trying to make it convenient.â
âThen what were you doing?â he asks immediately. A beat. Your answer comes out smaller than you want it to.
âWorking.â He lets out a humorless breath.
âYeah,â he says. âThatâs what scares me.â You frown slightly.
âWhat?â He looks at you like he regrets the words the second they leave himâbut not enough to take them back.
âThat youâll always pick the job over your own body,â he says. âEven when itâs failing you.â Something shifts in your chest. You donât like how seen that feels. Then he steps right in front of you. Close enough that the air changes. A pause. The hospital noise outside feels miles away. You swallow.
âThis is inappropriate,â you mutter automatically, because your brain is scrambling for something safe to hold onto. His mouth twitches, not quite a smile.
âYeah,â he says. âWe passed that a while ago.â You scoff, backing away from him.
"God, Robby - Why do you care ? I'm an adult, i can handle myself-" He moves with you instantly. Not chasing. Not grabbing. Just⊠matching you step for step until your back meets the wall and thereâs nowhere left for you to retreat without admitting youâre retreating.
âYou call that handling yourself?â he asks quietly. Your jaw tightens.
âI didnât ask for a performance review.â
âIâm not performing,â he says. âIâm telling you you scared the hell out of me.â That lands harder than anything else so far. Because itâs not clinical. Itâs not Dr. Robby. Itâs just him. You force a short laugh, brittle at the edges.
âYou, scared?â you repeat. âYou? You run trauma codes like itâs any other Tuesday and youâre telling me I scared you?â His eyes donât move from yours.
âYes.âSimple. Unapologetic. That shuts you up for half a second too long. Then anger finds its way back inâbecause itâs easier than whatever is sitting underneath it.
âYou donât get to do this,â you say, voice sharper now. âYou donât get to pull me into a room, lock the door, and act likeâlikeââ
âLike what?â he cuts in. You gesture vaguely between you.
âLike this matters more than everything else.â Robby goes still. Thatâs the wrong thing to say. You see it immediately.Something in his expression tightens, like heâs been holding something behind his teeth for too long and you just forced it open.
âIt does,â he says. Quiet. Flat. Absolute. Your breath catches slightly.
âNo, it doesnât,â you say automatically, because thatâs safer.
âIt does to me.â Silence. You stare at him, trying to find the angle where this becomes a misunderstanding you can fix with sarcasm or distance or anything familiar. But there isnât one. Robby exhales through his nose, frustrated nowânot at you, but at himself.
âYou really think Iâd be doing this,â he gestures between you again, sharper this time, âif it didnât matter?â
âYouâre my attending,â you say quickly. He laughs once, humorless.
âThatâs what youâre going with?â
âItâs a boundary.â
âThatâs bullshit and you know it.âYour pulse spikes.
âExcuse me?â Robby steps closer again, and this time you donât move fast enough to stop it.
âYou think I donât know what Iâm doing?â he asks. âYou think I donât know exactly how this looks? How long this has been going on?â Your throat goes tight.
âRobbyââ
âIâve been watching you almost pass out for weeks,â he snaps suddenly, voice rising. âIâve been watching you run yourself into the ground, and I keep telling myself itâs just work, itâs just stress, itâs justââHe stops. Jaw clenches. Then quieter, but sharper somehow: âAnd then you collapse in front of me and I realize I donât care if itâs âappropriateâ anymore.â
Your breath stutters.
âStop,â you whisper.
He shakes his head once.
âNo.â A beat. Then it comes outârough, unplanned, like it slips through a crack he didnât know was there. âI canât do this pretending I donâtââ he cuts off, swallows hard, eyes flicking down for half a second like heâs annoyed at himself for losing control. âI canât stand there and watch you walk yourself into the ground and pretend itâs nothing to me.â Your voice barely works.
âRobbyâŠâ He looks back at you. And whatever restraint he had left finally breaks cleanly.
âIâm in love with you,â he says. No softness. No buildup. Just truth, thrown into the air like itâs been suffocating him. The room goes completely still. Even the hospital noise feels distant now, like itâs happening to someone elseâs life. You donât speak. Not because you donât have words. Because you have too many and none of them fit right. Robby watches your face change like heâs bracing for impact. And then, almost immediately, regret floods in.
âShit,â he says quietly. One step back. âNoâforget I said that.â Your stomach drops. His jaw tightens like heâs trying to physically shove the words back into his chest.
âI shouldnât haveââ he starts again, voice rougher now. âThatâs notâthis isnâtââ
âRobby,â you say, finally. He stops. Doesnât look at you immediately. That alone says everything.
âI didnât mean to make it weird,â he says, almost bitter now, like heâs punishing himself. âI justââ
'Robby."
Your voice is quiet, but it cuts through his frantic backpedaling like a scalpel. He finally stops, his shoulders slumping slightly in defeat. He still wonât meet your eyes, staring at a point on the scuffed linoleum floor like it holds the secrets to avoiding this exact moment. The silence stretches, thick and suffocating, filled with everything he just said and everything you havenât.
âRobby,â you say again, softer this time. You take a half-step forward, closing the tiny gap heâd created. âLook at me.â He hesitates, a war playing out across his face. The urge to flee warring with the command in your voice. Finally, slowly, he lifts his gaze. The raw vulnerability in his eyes is a punch to the gut. Itâs the same look he had when you were on the floor, but magnified, stripped of all clinical pretense. Itâs just him. Scared. Exposed.
âIâŠâ he starts, then stops, his throat working. âI know I shouldnât have said that. Itâs out of line. Itâsââ You donât let him finish. You surge forward, grabbing the front of his scrub top in both fists and yanking him down to you. The movement is clumsy, desperate. Your mouth crashes against his. Itâs not a kiss of gentle revelation. Itâs a kiss of frustration, of relief, of months of unspoken tension finally detonating. Itâs all teeth and desperate pressure, a clash thatâs been brewing for longer than either of you would admit. He makes a sound against your lips, a harsh, surprised groan, and for a second heâs frozen. Then his hands are on you, not gentle, not asking. One hand clamps onto the back of your neck, fingers tangling in your hair, holding you in place with a grip thatâs just this side of painful. The other arm bands around your waist, lifting you slightly, pulling you flush against him until thereâs no air, no space, just the frantic hammering of his heart against yours through the thin fabric of your scrubs. You kiss him back with everything you have, pouring all the fear from the hallway, all the annoyance at his overbearing concern, all the traitorous warmth thatâs been pooling in your stomach every time he looks at you for months. You bite his lower lip, hard, and he groans again, deepening the kiss, his tongue claiming yours in a way thatâs possessive and demanding and utterly, completely Robby. He walks you backward, and your back hits the wall with a soft thud that doesnât break the kiss. He pins you there, his body a solid, warm weight, one of his thighs wedging itself between yours. The pressure is intoxicating, a dizzying contrast to the lightheadedness from before. This is a different kind of spinning out of control. One you donât want to stop. His hand slides from your neck down your side, tracing the curve of your ribs before coming to rest on your hip, his thumb digging in, holding you captive. You can feel the frantic, unsteady rhythm of his breathing, a mirror to your own. He finally breaks the kiss, pulling back just enough to rest his forehead against yours. Both of you are breathing hard, chests heaving. The room is silent except for the sound of your ragged breaths and the distant, muffled hum of the hospital that feels worlds away.
âChrist,â he rasps, his voice thick and wrecked. His eyes are still closed, his face buried in the crook of your neck. He presses a hot, open-mouthed kiss to the sensitive skin just below your ear, and a shiver runs through you. âYou canât⊠you canât just do that.â
âYouâre the one who said you were in love with me,â you manage to get out, your voice shaky. âAnd then tried to take it back.â
âI wasnât taking it back,â he says, lifting his head. His eyes are dark, pupils blown wide with a mix of adrenaline and something else, something hungry. âI was trying not to fuck everything up.â
âToo late for that,â you breathe, and then youâre kissing him again. Itâs just as rough as before, maybe rougher. His hands are everywhere, roaming over your back, your sides, gripping your ass and pulling you harder against him. The wall is hard and unyielding at your back, and heâs solid and unyielding at your front, and youâre trapped in the best possible way. He rolls his hips against yours, a slow, deliberate grind that sends a bolt of heat straight through you, and you gasp into his mouth. He takes the opportunity to kiss a trail down your jaw, his scruff scraping deliciously against your skin. He nips at your collarbone, his hand sliding up under your scrub top, his palm hot and firm against the bare skin of your stomach.
âRobby,â you pant, your head falling back against the wall as his mouth finds that spot on your neck that makes your knees weak. âWeâre⊠weâre in the on-call room.â
âMhmm,â he murmurs against your skin, not stopping. âLocked the door.â His thumb brushes against the underside of your breast, and you arch into him, a soft moan escaping your lips. He chuckles, a low, smug sound that vibrates through you. âSomeone could knock.â
âDonât care,â you gasp, as his other hand tugs your scrub top out of your pants, his fingers finding the waistband of your pants. âGod, donât stop.â He pulls back just enough to look at you, his eyes searching yours. Thereâs a question there, a final check-in, but itâs buried under layers of raw want. You answer it by grabbing his hand and guiding it further down. He groans, a sound of pure, unadulterated relief, and then his mouth is on yours again. He tastes like burnt coffee and the faint metallic tang of hospital air, but thereâs something else, something bitter and sweet and rawly, desperately Robby that makes you want to climb inside his chest and break his ribs open from the inside. His hand is already down the front of your scrubs, palm hot against your hipbone, fingers trembling just enough to betray everything he wonât say aloud. You fumble at the drawstring on your own waistband, frustration clawing up your throat in a low, angry whine when the knot wonât loosen fast enough. You stare up at himâmess of dark hair, sweat on his brow, pupils wide enough to swallow the brownâand wonder absently if this is what it feels like to code. For a minute nobody says anything. You just breathe, harsh and hungry and desperate, noisy enough that if anybody is in the hallway theyâd know exactly what was happening in here. Itâs Robby that breaks first. He makes a strangled sound, forehead dropping to yours, so hard your noses smashed together. His voice comes out low and shredded and nearly begging.
âYou gotta let me know if you want me to stop.â
You donât.
Fuck, you donât.
You want him to break you down to single-celled organisms. you turn your head and bite the meat of his bicep, just to feel him jerk.
âShut up and do it, then,â You mutter. Your hands drop around his shoulders, pulling him down, and the next kiss is more teeth than lips. You donât even notice his other hand has made it to your waistband until you feel the cool slide of his hand against your skin. Youâre so far gone, you donât even feel the fear or shame anyone normal would. Canât bring yourself to care that youâre half-pinned to a drywall partition and the edge of a cot, moaning into your supervisorâs mouth like youâre both undergrad idiots caught in a blackout at frat formal. His hand is relentless, moving fast and clever, not even bothering to be delicate. You nearly lose your balance when he presses a thumb down just right over your scrubs, and your center of gravity hops about a foot left.
âFuckâRobby, fuckââ You hiss it against his jawline, legs starting to shake. He gets a hand under your thigh, hefts it up, then hooks your knee on his belt so all you can do is hang there and let him wreck you. Somewhere in the back of your awareness youâre listing all the ways this is the worst idea youâve ever had, but your body refuses to stop. Heâs cursing too, breathing your name into your neck, voice so rough you can feel it vibrating in his chest. You want to put a hand over his mouth to keep him quiet but you know if anyone comes in, youâre both dead anyway. He fumbles at the drawstring with clumsy, single-handed urgency, finally manages to get it untied. The relief when his fingers actually slide past the waistband is so intense your vision goes white at the edges. He doesnât even teaseâjust buries his hand against you and makes a noise so dark and satisfied it spikes something hot and relentless at the base of your spine.
âJesus Christ,â he mutters. âYouâre fucking soaked.â He says it like he means it as both a compliment and a diagnosis. Then he pushes his palm harder against you, finding every sensitive spot and working you with unerring, almost clinical precision, like heâs taking inventory of every way you can be taken apart. Your head thunks back against the wall with a little hollow sound. You want to tell him to stop, or slow down, or just breathe for maybe two seconds, but you donât. You canât. Instead you let yourself fall open and let him see it. The fact that youâre wrapped this tightly around him is not new information, but thisâexposed, desperateâis a new evolutionary stage. He leans in, mouth back on yours, and you taste sweat, salt, and faint chemical hospital on his skin. The wall is cold at your back and his hand is molten at your front and your whole body is nothing but contrast and overload and hunger. You barely register your own hands, but theyâre on him, pulling up the hem of his shirt, searching for bare skin, something to ground yourself. You feel the heat of him even through layers, alive and pulsing and real. He holds you still, fingers working in brutal, short pulses, driving you mercilessly toward the edge. Itâs not careful. Itâs not gentle. Itâs like heâs making a point. Like heâs proving to you, to himself, to God, that youâre not going to scare him off, not ever.
You come like a detonation.
It rips through you so hard your vision whites out again and you clench around his hand. He groans, slowly slipping his fingers out of you before taking a step back away from your and pulling down your scrub pants. You gulp as you watch him undo the drawstring on his own pants, your mouth watering with need. The cold air against your exposed cunt is making you clench involuntarily, and the only thing you want right now is to have him inside of you. He pulls his pants down, only enough to free himself, and the air feels like itâs knocked out of your chest. His cock slaps up against his stomach, flushed dark, thick and heavy with blood, and the sight alone is enough to make you squeeze your thighs together in anticipation, shivering even though the room is sweltering. He spits in his palm, slicks himself, then walks over to you. His hands hook beneath your thighs and you jump up, wrapping your legs around his waist as he presses you against the wall. He pushes your hair back from your face, kisses your nose. He doesnât waste a second.
The first thrust is brutal, messy, all pent-up frustration and months of not acting on impulse. Heâs thickâbigger than youâd let yourself admit in all those late-night, shamefaced fantasiesâand the stretch steals the air from your lungs. Your jaw drops open, eyes rolling back as you lock on to the faces heâs making: mouth slack, eyebrows knit, a bead of sweat at his temple that you want to lick off more than you want to live. Heâs got both hands under your ass, fingers digging hard enough to bruise, holding you up so all you can do is take it. And you do, with everything you have, bearing down on him so you can feel every inch, every twitch. He huffs a shaky, humorless laugh, the kind you only make when youâre so overwhelmed you canât do anything else.
âYou okay ?â He rasps, kissing his way up your neck. The sound that comes out of you isnât even a word. He pounds into you with another deep, brutal stroke and your body locks up so tight youâre glad heâs the one holding you or youâd have fallen flat. Every thrust slams your spine into the drywall and it should hurt, it should, but all you can do is claw at his shirt, nails catching the rough cotton, dragging it up over his ribs so you can feel himâreal, alive, so much hotter than any fever youâve ever run in the hospital. The slap of skin, the hiss of your breathing, the mangled noises youâre makingâall of it so loud, vulgar, so perfectly, awfully public even behind the locked door. Heâs whispering shit into your neck. At first you think itâs curse words, but then you catch your own name buried in there, and then more, like instructions, like hymns.
âYouâre fucking perfect,â he says, the words punching out of him like heâs angry about it. âGod, youâre unreal.â His hips snap again, harder, and your shoulders knock back against the wall, sharp bite of drywall dust filling your nose. Each time he thrusts in, your vision smears around the edges, the pleasure so hot it borders on pain. It isnât like you pictured, not reallyâitâs better. The angle, the rush, the way he bullies all the air out of your lungs with every movement. Your hands are in his hair, clawing tight, pulling him down so you can mouth at his neck, take the taste of him into yourself. He shoves your scrubs up higher, rough hands leaving trails of heat on cold skin, then fists one hand in the fabric at your shoulder, pinning you harder to the cinderblock. There is nothing gentle, nothing careful, nothing but his body taking yours apart, and yours letting him, wild for it. He keeps muttering, a string of filthy reverence against your ear:
âCanât believe itâs you, canât believe you let meâfuck, youâre soâJesus, clench again, just like thatââ The words run together, get lost under the wet slap of skin and the broken sounds youâre making. You canât answer except to dig your heels into his lower back, desperate to keep him as close as possible, to force him deeper, to make certain itâs real. This has to be real. For months you both acted like this wasnât going to happen, like you didnât live your whole life in inches, waiting for the day the rules would break and youâd get to see what would actually happen if you let go. Now youâre against the wall, and heâs inside of you raw and fast and a little bit mean, and every expectation is dissolving in a haze of salt and friction and heat. You want to tell him he can do anything to you, that there is nothing off-limits, but all that comes out is a shattered little whine, just his name, again and again. He bites your collarbone, sucks a mark there, and the pain is almost enough to bring you back down, but youâre already spiraling. Robbyâs voice is a chant in your ear, weirdly reverent, filthy and devotional all at once. Heâs running hot, sweat trickling down his neck, the muscles in his forearms taut as bowed steel where he brackets your hips. Each thrust slams you against the wall hard enough to rattle the fluorescent hum down to your teeth. You know youâll have drywall dust embedded under your nails, maybe even in your hair, but you canât bring yourself to care. Your world is reduced to the vicious, deliberate drag of his cock inside you, the scratch of his stubble jaw against your cheek, the gasp-and-hitch cadence of your own lungs. His hand slips, finds your jaw, thumb prying your mouth open.
âLook at me,â he grates. Itâs not a request. You do, eyelids dragging heavy, drool stringing from your lips. He shoves his thumb inside and you clamp down on it, tongue greedy, and watch his resolve ripple and snap at the edges. âFuck, you love this,â he hisses. A hot, shameful thrill blooms in your gut. You canât even nod; your brainâs gone chemical, all instinct and nerve and the urge to let him ruin you properly. He pulls his thumb free from your teeth, then brings his hand back to grip your jaw, rough, almost cruel.
âYou gonna come for me like this?â His pelvis snaps up, grinding you against concrete. âYou gonna soak me, right here, where anybody could walk in?â He means it as a threat, but the promise makes something deep in you uncurl and spiral tight. You dig your nails into his back and feel the give of his skin, the helpless rocking of your own hips. Youâre close againâembarrassingly, stupidly fastâand he can tell, because he starts fucking you even meaner, chasing the edge with all the subtlety of a gunshot.
âJesus,â he says, âyou feel so good, I canâtâfuck. I canât stop.â Like heâs ever going to. You snarl something incoherent, probably his name, and you feel the tension crest, shatter, and pour out in waves so intense you lose track of your own body. Robby keeps moving, not letting up for a second. Everythingâs too much: the raw thud of your shoulderblades grinding cinderblock, the way your ankles have locked behind his back, the friction and heat and static spit-glue between your skin. You try to tell him youâre gonna lose it but only manage a wild, choked keening that doesnât sound like it could belong to you. He drops his head to your shoulder, teeth scraping, and groans your name so low and honest it makes your toes curl. There is nothing in the world but this. Nothing but him pinning you, holding you, fucking you like heâs lost count of where the rest of the world even is. Your hands are in his hair, wrenching, and you yank his head up so you can bite at his bottom lip. He lets you, gives a little gasp, then locks eyes with you and pours all that manic, frantic reverence right into the next kiss, mouthing at your skin and then burying his face in your neck like heâs drowning. The pace gets relentlessâbody-shocking, staccato, sharp even through the haze of it. He fucks through your aftershocks as if itâs a challenge, like the goal is to keep your body from ever regaining equilibrium. When you come again itâs so loud youâre sure the ward must hear; he clamps his hand over your mouth, eyes blown so scared and wild, but the pulse of his cock inside you says heâs not really trying to stop you so much as channel every iota of your body back into his. His own rhythm gets jerky, sloppier, and his mouth drops open against your jaw as he pins you tight and starts to lose it.
âFuck, oh fuck, gonnaââ His body locks, hips jammed flush against you, and you feel him pulse hard, the warmth spilling inside you like heâs pumping more heat into an already-overloaded core. Heâs breathless, shaking, still pressed in deep as if he canât trust gravity to hold you together otherwise. You stay like that, tangled, your cunt still rippling around him, both gulping at the hot, sick air, until your numb legs make you both slide down the wall in a graceless heap.
Youâre both wrecked. Sweaty and glassy-eyed, scrub shirts sweat-stuck to your ribs, bodies still twitching in the late echoes of what the fuck just happened. Thereâs a sheet of drywall dust on your back and your own fingernail crescented into his skin; heâs smiling, shit-eating, delirious, and youâd punch him if you werenât still shaking like a defibrillator just went off under your sternum.
He leans in, a gentle press of lips to your forehead, and you want to tell yourself itâs just an autonomic reaction, that the only thing happening here is a literal pressure release after months of idiotic, unyielding need. But you know better. The way he holds your face, the way he says your name soft into your hair, the way heâs stillâstillâinside you, hips slotted to hips, like he canât bear to break the circuit.
You roll your head to stare at him. He meets your gaze, a thundercrack of worry, awe, and something else you donât have the energy to name. You want to say something pointed and clever, but you canât ; all you manage is a noise, somewhere between a laugh and a whimper.
It should be awkward.
It should be so fucking awkward.
He kisses your face as he slips out of you and shoves himself back inside his pants before dropping you slowly to the floor, hands braced at your waist as your legs wobble. He slips your own pants and underwear back up your thighs, looking up at you.
âYou okay ?â He asks, his voice soft.
âYeah,â you say, and itâs weird, how true it is. You blink, vision still dazzled and dopplered, and catch Robbyâs hand trembling where it rests on your hip. The shake is microscopic, like a skipped frame in film, but itâs there, and itâs only then you realize youâre vibrating too. You try to laugh, and the sound cracks, warbles, but he mirrors it, leaning in until your foreheads tap, bone on bone. He smells like fresh sweat and latex and the antiseptic tang of someone whoâs spent an entire adulthood hunched over sterile trays. He rubs his thumb slow circles at your waist, and the gentleness is so unexpected, so at odds with the way he just had you, that you almost start crying on the spot. You swallow it back and close your hand over his, try to will him not to let go just yet. You listen together to the radiators pop and the wild rattle of your pulse. He keeps his head dipped, mouth resting on the curve where your neck meets your shoulder. Neither of you moves. Heâs still breathing you in, slow, like heâs afraid if he does it too fast, itâll all be over.
âDidnât hurt you, did I?â he whispers, so low you almost miss it beneath the thonk of your heart in your ears. You want to make a joke, something flippant, but youâre too raw. It all comes out honest, whether you like it or not.
âNo. You couldâve hurt me more.â The silence after feels like a dropped glass; sharp, fragile, ready to split the air. Robby closes his eyes. You see every microflinch, the way his throat sticks around the swallow, how he steadies himself before answering.
ââKay. Justââ He hesitates, and you sense itâs the kind of pause heâd usually grease over with a quip. Not now. Now heâs counting on you to stay, just a little, and not run. âIâll be gentle next time. Or not. Whatever you want.â He tries to smile, but it turns lopsided, uncertain. You grab him by the collar, tug him in for a kiss thatâs less a collision and more a hinge opening, slow, like letting light into a dark corridor. You can taste the apology before he says it. You hate that you love it. Robby pulls away, eyes shiny in the half-light. He nudges your nose with his, then plants a kiss at the corner of your mouth, softer than anything heâs ever done. It feels as reverent as a benediction.
âYou should lie down,â he says. âYour legs areââ he gestures with a shrug, then glances down and grins sheepish. âSorta toast.â
âMy legs are awesome, thank you,â you say, but you lean your full weight into him anyway, allowing yourself to be steered to the bed. He maneuvers you down with surprising care, one arm looped around your back, the other smoothing your hair off your sweaty forehead. He smiles down at you, sighing.
âIâll go get you some saline. You are on bedrest for the next two hours.â You frown, gasping.
âOh you devious fuckwad.â You mutter. "This was your plan all along.' You grumble.
"No." He says, and then winces. "Okay. Maybe. I was initially planning to just lock you in here.. I didn't play on telling you I love you and coming inside you. That... was a slight hitch in my plan." You roll your eyes.
"You're an asshole."
"An asshole who doesn't want you to run yourself into the ground." He mutters, brushing your hair away from your face. You sigh annoyedly.
"Fine. You win. Two hours." Robby grins, triumphant.
"Ah. Look who finally is listening to reason." He presses a kiss to your forehead. "I'll go get the Saline from Perlah. Don't move." You roll your eyes, swatting at him.
"Ha-Ha."
âAnd water. And probably something vaguely edible that passes for food in this place.â You reach out and catch his wrist before he can leave. He stops instantly.
âRobby.â
âYeah?â You look at him for a secondâreally look. Tired. Stressed. Still half in doctor mode even after everything. And completely, unapologetically here.
âI love you too,â you say quietly. Something in his expression breaks open again. Itâs not dramatic.Itâs worse than that. Itâs steady.
"I know.â You let go of his wrist. He holds your gaze one more second, then forces himself to moveâbecause he still knows how to function even when his entire emotional life is on fire. The hallway is chaos again the second Robby steps out. Heâs halfway to the supply station when he sees him. Abbot. Clocking in. Standing dead still. Staring straight at the on-call room door like heâs just witnessed a miracle or a crime or both. Robby doesnât even slow down. He walks past him, grabs the saline bags, and says flatly, without looking up:
âYou owe Dana a hundred bucks.â Abbot blinks.
A beat. Abbot stares at the door again. Then lets out a long, defeated breath.
âSon of a bitch.â
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