AND THE UNIVERSE SAID I LOVE YOU BECAUSE YOU ARE LOVE
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mischief / tommy / castor
21 bodily
he/him, it/its collectively
info under the cut, this got a bit long for my liking haha
hello and welcome to our blog! we are a polyfragmented DID system of roughly 160 with several other physical and mental conditions that impact our daily life. we tend to alternate between using first-person singular (I/me) and first-person plural (we/us) personal pronouns, depending on who's in front.
fandoms we participate in include the dream smp (characters not content creators), hazbin hotel / helluva boss, adventure time, the riordanverse, and steven universe, among many others! posts from different fandoms will be tagged appropriately and fandom tags will be listed in our featured tags for easy filtering :)
a good general overview of our system-wide stances is as follows [follow this link for a more detailed post on our stances (post in progress)]; please keep in mind that we don't owe anybody a debate and will block/delete as necessary:
anti-harassment and anti-censorship (for all intents and purposes, proship)
very far left-leaning on the political spectrum
anti-endogenic/willowgenic/non-traumagenic systems
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if you're stumbling into the system community for the first time via this blog, or just need a refresher on what different terms mean, here are some helpful links for you:
what is dissociative identity disorder (DID)?
what does it mean to be polyfragmented?
common terms seen in the system community
the theory of structural dissociation [post in progress, check back soon! :)]
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we don't have a specific DNI because we feel that they're pointless and incredibly hard to efficiently enforce, if you end up blocked it's for a reason. also, as a general rule of thumb we do not reblog or post requests for donations or financial aid.
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i hate having source memories that most of our other alters would find horrific but i actually miss. like yeah i wouldn't enjoy being re-traumatized but q was nice to me after being mean. i miss the niceness.
A personal stance term that focuses primarily, if not solely, on CDD spaces and community support. Those who are CDD-centric have separated, or wish to separate themselves majorly or entirely from syscourse for whatever reason prn may have (e.g. exhaustion with hostility in syscourse spaces, personal health reasons, etc.).
Those who are CDD-centric are:
Pro-CDD-recovery, and respect individual systems' desires for final fusion or functional multiplicity
Non-traumagenic plurality critical, and believe NTGs do not belong in CDD spaces. This includes using CDD terms (note: the term "system" in regards to identity alteration was first used in medical texts to refer to pwCDDs, and is thus included) or claiming their experience is parallel to CDD systems in any way.
Syscourse-critical
Anti harassment
Anti fakeclaiming (this includes fakeclaiming NTGs for their believed experiences)
Anti "armchair diagnosis," forced syscovery, and forced trauma recognition
Suggestions for tags:
[in addition to CDD tags; yes syscourse is often placed within CDD tags, this is why we filter content]
#cdd centric, #cddcentric, #cdd centric community, (and more, we are open to suggestions).
This is a long post, there is a lot more under the cut. Help with image IDs & PT are extremely appreciated.
Behind the Flag
Colors:
The Foggy Blue represents complex dissociation & CDD systems as a whole
Green is for healing and growth. There are two shades of green as a representation that there is no "one acceptable path" to recovery. The choice of only two shades was influenced by the two primary forms of system integration: functional multiplicity and final fusion
Yellow is for community, and healthy/positive community spaces
Orange represents strength, and for those who speak out against misinformation, mistreatment, and injustice—no matter what "side" (particular to syscourse, as this is a syscourse-critical stance) it's coming from
Red is for the establishment of personal responsibility to enforce boundaries: blocking accounts instead of harassing others, filtering tags to minimize the amount of discourse one engages in, etc.
The blue-greys were color-picked from the CDD system pride flag.
The symbol on the flag is based on the system signet. This design retains the original meanings behind the symbol's design, while also being inclusive of P-DID systems (as the original signet is OSDDID specific). The meanings of the symbol are as follows:
The largest circle stands for systems as a whole
The inner circle within the largest represents complex structures within systems (such as subsystems) and internal parts that rarely or do not front
The smallest circle at the top (interrupting the largest middle circles) represents the structure of P-DID systems. [Explanation of this symbolism at the end of the bullet points]
The larger outer circles represent more overt parts (+ symptoms) in CDD systems
The smaller outer circles represent more covert parts (+ symptoms) in CDD systems
The stems that connect the circles signify each alter's connection and purpose to the system
Credits and many thanks to @the-complicity-system for their input on the revised system signet to also be inclusive of pwP-DID! I included their wording for the symbolism of the P-DID alteration, because I honestly can't explain it any better, myself—and I feel the wording coming from a P-DID system is more meaningful than it is from a system who does not have P-DID.
“I like pdid's symbol being a circle with another smaller circle interrupting the complete link bc it avoids the idea that the stuck host is the like main guy but still is a linked focus of the system.”
In coining this stance term, I need to make myself as clear as possible:
I coined this because I wanted a term to describe my individual beliefs.
This is NOT a push to abandon the anti endo community.
I'm tired of syscourse and how hostile it is—and how much worse it seems to have gotten in the span of time I've been on Tumblr (close to 2 years). While I've identified most closely with the anti endo community, there's been a growing association with animosity within our spaces (this isn't everyone, nor is it "all the time;" but it is a trend and it isn't getting better with time).
I enjoy the anti endo community as a whole, but I don't feel fully connected to a lot of the ideals that circulate through that side syscourse anymore/most recently. This is why I'm creating this term, and possibly (hopefully) separate community tags.
Additionally, I feel as though syscourse is completely unproductive. CDD systems who push to educate are rarely listened to by the (pro)endogenic community. Endos who try to express how they experience plurality are shut down just as quickly. Nobody listens to each other, and I feel it's pointless. I don't want to involve myself in syscourse anymore, so I'm creating this term to step away from it and focus on constructive, CDD-centric spaces.
Small reminder that DID is often a covert disorder and overt DID is actually pretty rare. A person could go their whole life without knowing they have DID because that's the point. You do not need to know who you are all the time or who's fronting or need to feel like you're a faker because you act the same pretty much all the time. You do not need to act drastically different between your headmates to be valid.
And to add to this, stress and conflicts can worsen symptoms and make things seem more overt. An individual who is normally covert suddenly having overt DID presentation isn't them faking or exaggerating their symptoms.
When DID isn't apparent to others it's "too covert to be DID" but when folks are struggling and symptoms are bad it's "too overt & Hollywood to be DID."
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my mutuals are intellectuals. scholars. just some will comment on the minutia of postmodernist society and others will say that old man bounces on it crazy style. and i sit my white ass down and listen
worst part about it is they’re talking about how they don’t feel anything about traumatic events that happened to them like it’s normal because “trauma is relative” having a special interest in research in this environment is hell sometimes
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trying to educate someone who’s questioning if their a system about why understanding that they’re traumatized is important and endos are coming out of the woodworks saying shit like “this is all much more complicated than a trauma response and it doesn’t matter knowing why you uncontrollably cope like this” I hate endos so fucking much
okay so like I understand the idea of not obsessing about what exact trauma caused your brain to split because digging for trauma when you're not ready can REALLY fuck you up (we unfortunately know this firsthand) but at the same time accepting that you're a system means accepting that something happened to make your brain like this. dissociation, amnesia, and a fragmented sense of self do not happen out of nowhere, that just isn't how it works.
i stopped giving a shit about "legit" purchases of digital products after i spent $80 on the entire Dark Horse collection of Trigun/Trigun Maximum ebook mangas, learning that I only got access to reading them through a proprietary website ereader function, couldn't download them, and couldn't get a refund, and then literally only a year later, getting an e-mail stating that Dark Horse was shutting down that part of their company and I wouldn't even be able to read them anymore. Fuck that
Pirate shit. Don't feel bad for it. It's not "your fault" that artists, independent or otherwise, can't make a living. You downloading an album or ebook for free isn't the cause of the problem. The cause is capitalism, plain and simple, and pirating is a lucky loophole that companies are still trying to stomp out.
A controversial take but as a woman who’s been wronged by men several times before, I genuinely find all those “men bad” and “men should die” posts in poor taste and an opposite of what feminism is.
I know we all say “not all men”—because it’s really is not all men—but how would you feel if you saw a “women bad” or “women should die” post made by a man and then he said “well it’s not All Women so if you’re not xyz then this post isn’t about You”?
So I don’t know. I think instead of a vague “men bad” or “men should die” post and “well if you’re a good man then this post isn’t about you” we should call out specific harmful behaviors without grouping All Men together and expecting good men to 1.) know this post isn’t about them 2.) not feel Bad about / unsafe for being a man whose only crime is being a man.
And if you genuinely think innocent men are bad and deserving of mistreatment and bad things just because they’re men then please block me because you’re the type of person I want to stay as far away from as I can and you do not represent feminism.
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