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just thinking about how eddie said 'he'll love you. like we all do' when buck came out to him. how the subtext was there, but we have never heard him say the words 'i love you'. we've gotten 'you really do matter to me' and 'it's not nothin'' and 'because evan', but we have never heard eddie tell buck he loves him unless he is hiding behind other people too.

it makes it even more glaringly obvious that chimney can look hen in her eyes and say 'i love you for that', but eddie makes everything about chris or the 118 if he wants to tell buck he loves or misses him

the thing about Buck and Eddie that makes them soooooo compelling is that if one of them were to die, the other would only be able to achieve the smallest crumb of peace in all the rest of their lifetime, by lying down at the foot of the grave of the other like those AI videos of dogs that lie down on their owner's graves for years and years and years that your grandmother sends you. but the thing is...they couldn't even get that “wet dog in the rain” satisfaction because they both love Chris too much. And they both love each other too much to let the thing they both loved the most (Chris) lose both of them. So they’d eventually wag their tails again and ignore the siren song of devoted vigilance at the other’s resting place. Like they “alive-trapped” each other by accidentally and quietly and purposefully and loudly becoming a family unit. And they don’t even kiss about it yet.