hiiiii

good omens is a deeply personal story for me. i see myself in the characters, i feel everything the story wants to say, i love the storyline and i always feel comforted knowing that there are an angel and a demon who love each other and love humanity and will always continue to do so.

incredibly sad to see the writers absolutely demolish everything they've built by this ending. script apart, all of the magic ends with "everyone died and then got replaced in a new, boring universe with a new, boring version of them". and it's definitely not something i ever expected of good omens and i'm devastated.

but that's not what i wanted to talk about because lots of smart people already broke down the ending. but let's talk about what that did to the queerness of it all. because this a deeply queer show, it is about two beings who can love each othe despite everything, despite the idea that threy are not supposed to even like each other. even when "their sides" think that they are wrong for this and quite literally try to destroy them. but Aziraphale and Crowley find each other, they find people that support them, they build a place for themselves, they KEEP CHOOSING to love each other for 6000 years. and it's the most beautiful thing in this story, it's the most blatant queer metaphor. the ending of season 3 makes that love story of Asa and Anthony pre-determined, it takes away all their free will, the opposite of what they were trying to achieve and of what it was all along. and i think that most queer people see each other in the first scenario. i know i do.

to make it all worse, in the new universe they strip away all of the characters of their unique, quirky, magical qualities. and of their queerness, by extention. Crowley is not a snarky, sarcastic demon with a kind heart. Aziraphale is not a huffy, slightly bitchy angel, who cares very deeply. they both do not behave like themselves and do not look like themselves. they look very cis, as do the other gender-queer characters in this show. WHY would you want to tell your queer audience that you should not, in fact, be yourself and you should hide your queerness? that there is no beauty in your story?

there are so much queer media, that doesn't explicitly show queer characters. it's built on subtext and metaphors and we still see ourselves there. but honestly, i'm so fucking tired of reading queer themes between the lines and guessing if the authors ment to put it there. i'm tired of thinking "is this really what they were trying to say?". and good omens was such a breath of fresh air, because Aziraphale and Crowley were allowed to love each other openly and beautifully. even more so in season 2, that was openly queer and silly and romantic. i was SO happy thinking that we finally are going to see their relationship in it's full force. just for nothing i guess? to see that their only kiss remains the one out of desperation. to hear the word "love" from GOD of all characters. to come back to reading between the lines.