you never asked what it was like

I bet for like a fraction of a second getting hit by a bus would feel really good

It's really important when you're at work to go out there and really give it your 60%. Maybe 35%.

[no beers in] do you think im ever going to belong somewhere

one day, i hope to be moved from your downloads folder into somewhere more deliberate

me vs me vs me vs me vs me

give me 10 years and maybe I'll finish a thing or two

It's always "that's a maladaptive thought pattern" and "are you sure it's not the anxiety talking?" and never "what an impressive number of fears you've come up with, you're so good at coming up with completely reasonable fears"

i got that dog in me but it's poorly socialized and i don't take it on as many walks as i should

“Do it scared” “do it alone” are all great tips, but my biggest takeaway from therapy is do it messy. This is especially true if you’re getting out of a burnout, which I experience often. Literally just do it messy. You don’t need to pick the perfect trail to walk, the perfect playlist to listen to, whatever the fuck it is. You don’t need to have a meticulous to do list and wake up at the exact time you planned and drink the exact amount of water you planned to drink. Like the biggest thing for people like me to remember is sometimes it’s okay to do it messy. Put on a random yt workout and just get it done in sweats. Do 5 minutes of a daunting task and go from there. Sometimes just getting up is a win during intense burnouts or depressive funks. Literally just do it messy.

free my girl she did all that and that’s what makes her such a compellingly complex character. that’s her essence

thank u for being a cooler blog than me and not unfollowing me yet