you never asked what it was like

alas...

helloooo sorry for the late reply lol. here some headcanons

-- lancelot still has the fake parchment from 1x05 and keeps it with him at all times after leaving camelot (do not ask me how he retrieved it <3)

-- during the period he's away from camelot, he occasionally buys some paper and ink to write to arthur. he never finds the nerve to sends the letters, but never manages to throw them away either

-- ever since lancelot left camelot, it doesn't take long for people to notice that the crown prince turns particularly antsy everytime there are rumors of some mysteryous knight without colors roaming the city's outskirt

-- they start giving each other favors long before they get together or even admit their feelings. at some point they exchange rings instead of ribbons and never speak of it

-- when they can't wear the rings, they keep them on a string around their neck, like necklaces. they deflect any questions whenever people try to ask

-- one time arthur casually mentions how he misses lance's long hair and from that moment on lance never cuts it short again

-- when they are together they never talk much. they ride in perfect comfortable silence and most of their conversations take place in the space between one word and the next

-- similarly, they rarely touch. but they are somehow always orbiting each other when they are in public spaces

-- they sometimes like to read to each other :)

-- they discuss death all the time. like, how they think tey're going to die, by which wound, or how they wish their last moment will be. it's sort of an unspoken understanding that each of them wishes for the other to be there at the end

-- all the same, everytime they part arthur can't shake the terrible feeling that he's never going to see lancelot again

-- they never say "i love you", they just come up with increasingly unhinged ways to express their feelings. like, 'i dont think i was made to live in a world without you', or some crazy shit like that

-- lancelot is one of the few people that know how to deal with arthur's panic attacks (the other is merlin)

-- arthur always goes to lance for advice but lance's advice is just. not particularly good lmao. questionable at best. it always involves something borderline suicidal or outright deranged

-- the first time they kiss is in the armory after a training session where lance beat the shit out of arthur. arthur initiates it

-- they are each other's first :)

-- they rarely fight but when they do it gets messy quickly. neither of them know how to properly express their emotions so they either walk away and dont talk for weeks or have sex and then don't talk for weeks

-- on a related note, they never apologize and never make up. some time after the fight they sort of drift toward each other again like nothing ever happened

-- they unironically get off on calling each other "my lord", "sir", "your highness" and the like

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