ive seen hell it resides in my mind

The reason you feel like shit after a long sleep is dehydration.

If you want a super long Victory Nap that doesn't make you feel like shit, here's your game plan:

1) eat. If you're prone to stomach problems or heartburn, make sure you're eating something you can sleep on.

2) drink. NO ALCOHOL (it makes sleep worse and also dehydrates you). Steer clear of soda pop, tea, and coffee; a non-caffeinated electrolyte drink is best. You want 12-16oz of liquid--about a big coffee cup's worth. I like to do a glass of water and a cup of herbal tea.

3) take a dose of melatonin. If you live in a country where it's prescription only, get a prescription. Please do not ask me to solve this problem for you. I'm American and get my melatonin at the grocery store. I CANNOT HELP YOU.

(3a. If you're one of those people where melatonin does nothing, try Benadryl.)

4) make your bed. Doesn't have to be fancy. Just make everything nice and not-tangled.

5) by now you should have to pee. Do that.

6) set an alarm for nine hours. Go to bed.

7) when you wake up, go to the bathroom. Do not use your phone.

8) go have a snack and a glass of water. Do Not Use Your Phone.

9) take another melatonin. DO NOT USE YOUR PHONE!

(It's because phone screens give off blue light and it cues your brain to go "oh, not sleepy time anymore.")

10) go back to bed. Set an alarm for nine hours.

11) while you wait for the melatonin to kick in, take a nice big luxurious stretch and just kind of notice where everything is. Settle all your bits and pieces into the mattress. Snuggle your pillow. Give your body lots of "time to sleep" cues. It may take a little bit to fall back asleep. That's fine. Don't stress over it--it'll keep you awake. Just let your brain go empty and sleep will come.

12) when you wake up, use the bathroom. Have another drink and snack.

13) go back to bed. Do not take a melatonin. Set your alarm for an hour.

14) you probably won't go back to sleep. That's fine. Relax your eyes, enjoy letting yourself get dozy and then wake up more slowly and naturally.

Do not skip steps. This is a method I've arrived at for post-trip relaxation through lots of trial and error. It's all here for a reason.

You gotta be tough if you're gonna be stupid. You can do stupid shit all you want but you're not going to avoid suffering consequences.

If you can't be tough, you gotta be nice. People can forgive a lot of stupidity if you're polite about it and pleasant to be around.

1) Armand started doing theatre because Lestat remodelled Armand's ultra coistered cult of austere suffering. So even though the art form was prolific at the time between Armand's turning and the creation of Le theatre de Vampire I am not sure Armand particularly sought that out

2) Armand is an avant garde stylistic cutting edge of art obnoxious kind of playmaker (he's the type of director to get a projection if a hamburger bc script mentioned nd by the time of his introduction to the stage Comedian Dell arte had existed for 200 years. That is not shiny enough for Armand to really care about

Saying "Not all rap music is about violence, here are alternatives" is not helpful, because the violent music ALSO has meaning.

When Biggie Smalls postures about his gang connections and packing heat, he isn't doing it because wow violence is so edgy, it's a powerful statement. Youth in urban areas where gang activity is heavy are often treated as lesser than by default, especially compared to black people the same age from a wealthy background. There's a reason that the "wholesome and respectable" black-lead entertainment of that era was stuff like the Cosby Show, with doctor-lawyer parents, or Family Matters, with a cop dad. There's a reason why the big joke of Fresh Prince is someone with a more unstable upbringing moving in with one of these model black sitcom families.

Standing up and saying yeah, I came from the mean streets, I was molded by this violence and yes, I did what I had to do to survive in a world that refuses to acknowledge my existence as meaningful or worthy of protection. I protected myself, I made my own way, and fuck anybody who tries to stand in the way of that.

Refusing to demonize that environment and wearing it like armor in a way that protects from the authority that wants you to see them as sub humans incapable of only violence and hatred, and saying HEY. I'm here, I lived this, and there is love and there is pain and there is ART in this.

That is powerful. That is the essence of gangster rap.

It isn't about hurting people for fun, it's about holding a mirror up to a society that does the hurting and then calls you a monster for what it's made you. Its about validating the experiences of the disenfranchised and biting back at authority. It's about turning a pain that the world say you deserve being one of those people from those places into POETRY. Into ART.

And thats why it matters.

This is because topless equality has been a basic push from feminists for literally decades, until Radfems and NeoCons bonded over wanting a trans genocide less than a decade ago.

It's literally why the "no tits on tumblr" and other lesser SESTA/FOSTA consequences* like it were so jarring. It set back FORTY. YEARS. OF PROGRESS in the rights of people with breasts or perceived as women to wear the same clothes as people without.

Do not let conservatives lie to you about this. The majority of people in the us and the VAST majority of States recognize the right of people to not wear a damn shirt. It isn't obscenity, it isn't even nudity, it's just something pericis men are allowed that everyone else isn't.

Y'know.

Basic sexual discrimination.

things armand loves:

structure

group of people meeting regularly and following the same rules

abstinence and self-denial

he sees an AA meeting and his eyes light up with a kaching noise like in a cartoon. he’s like oh great, rules given to me by a higher power? an opportunity for self-flagellation? set steps i have to follow to cleanse me of my sins?