Frank Langdon's divorce lawyer

i loved the rationale that noah wyle provided as to why they decided to do it (in this new york times profile), and i think it does a lot for the front half of the season—sowing some distrust in the audience about the real purpose of robby's sabbatical, making us wonder if his intention is not purely just to take a break, making us worry about his physical safety.

but as the season goes on and the cracks in robby's facade start to show through more and more (the moments with abbot & whitaker in episode 9, his reaction to samira's panic attack in episode 10, the moment at the end of 13 where he suggests to dana that he might not come back, and then ultimately the scenes with duke & abbot in 14 & 15 where he admits to not wanting to be alive anymore), it feels like the tension has already broken.

we knew that robby had a disregard for his safety from moment one. we knew that what he said to people about his sabbatical was not necessarily to be trusted. we knew that, deliberate or not, robby's sabbatical could very much end with him gravely injured or dead. so when he slowly begins to reveal that he's suicidal, it feels like... well, yeah. you're riding a motorcycle without a helmet, as an ER doctor who is fully aware of what the consequences of a motorcycle accident look like. if not at this moment actively suicidal, he's at least halfway there.

she laughs with her patients when they need it, she holds their hand when they’re scared, she throws herself over them in the face of danger, she protects their modesty when they themselves are not able to, she makes sure they are heard amongst a sea of voices.

and she doesn’t just do this for those in gown, either. she cares for her coworkers in a way that isn’t loud or flashy, but steady and consistent and genuine. perlah is time and time again the one who is at their side with an ice pack or a hug or a solid hand to lend.

perlah encapsulates what it means to be a good nurse, one that cares so deeply about the people around her or those in her care, in so many different ways.

I need people to understand that Robby and Abbot are Dana and Lena's colleagues, not their bosses. Nursing staff are not under the supervision of doctors - organizationally. Medically, yes, nurses carry out physician orders and report changes in patient assessment to physicians, etc. etc.

But Dana does not report to either of them as her supervisors. None of the nurses do. The nursing chain of command is:

Registered nurses (RNs), Licensed Professional/Vocational nurses (LPNs/LVNs), and certified nurse assistants (CNAs) all report to the charge nurse. The charge nurse changes by shift. You can be on shift and not be charge that day because you're not the most experienced charge trained nurse on the schedule, but then the next shift you are and you get the unfortunate distinguished punishment honor of being charge.

The charge nurse reports to the unit nurse manager. For the ER that would be the ER nurse manager. Dana could technically be the ER nurse manager and it just hasn't been mentioned yet. Often times when you are short-staffed the nurse manager will take on patients and act as charge nurse. Nurse managers generally work day shift during the week and have weekends off with some on call times.

The ER nurse manager reports to the Director of Nursing sometimes called VP of Nursing (lol vpn). The director often supervises multiple units, like in the children's hospital I worked at that was attached to an adult hospital, our DON was supervisor for all the children's hospital units (General Peds, Peds ICU, Peds Step-Down, Outpatient procedures, etc.), but she wasn't over the ER because our patients came through the adult ER (we were building a Peds ER at the time I left but didn't have one yet).

Director of Nursing reports to the Chief Nursing Officer.

Please note, at no point is any nurse supervised by a physician. We even have a separate chief, they have the Chief Medical Officer, we have the Chief Nursing Officer. If a physician has a complaint regarding a nurse, they will address it with the charge nurse and the charge nurse will either address the issue themselves or report it up to the unit nurse manager. Do physicians sometimes yell at nurses in the patient's room and then go complain to the charge nurse? Yes, especially surgeons because they are dicks who think they are God's gift to medicine (I may have had beef with a surgeon...)

I have seen things in fics, specifically in Emma Nolan fics where she is paired with Park the Shark, where the author talks about the nurse being "on x physician's service" which... Honey, no.

Nurses are not on any physician's "service." We work on a specific unit, sometimes float to other units or pick up an extra shift on another unit, but the physician you work with changes. If you're working on a med-surg or general peds unit, you can have three different doctors for your patient load. If you work ICU or ER, it depends which attendings and residents are on shift/call. If you're an OR nurse, you're assigned to a specific surgical team and can have one or two different surgeries you're assigned to scrub in on, but you may or may not have the same surgeon for them.

it’s never made sense to me that mohan, who’s a senior resident who’d specifically been researching care for marginalized patients, would know nothing about insurance. but it would make so much sense for javadi and i think that seeing her reaction orlando’s daughter, who seemed close to her age, talking about picking up extra shifts and crowdfunding to cover his medical care would’ve even more impactful to her character than seeing roxie’s sons affected by her dying. bc she really has lived with a lot of privilege and having another girl her age choosing to work more to support her parents would’ve still gotten her to that point of feeling guilt about wanting to be around her parents less.

and having mohan, who’s lost her father and is actively avoiding her mom’s calls, confronted with a terminal patient who’s choosing end of life care and seeing her interactions with her sons would’ve been so interesting through mohan’s pov. would she be judgmental bc her dad didn’t have that kind of choice? would it have had a bigger impact on how she was choosing to handle her mother’s calls?

langdon's whole "you need help, how can any of us live up to your standards if you yourself can't even meet them?" speech would have served SO MUCH BETTER if samira had been the one to say it. the person that has never and now will never be good enough for robby

langdon, whichever way you want to slice it, stole a controlled substance from the ER robby runs. he knows he's been six months sober, he knows he's been making amends with everyone, he knows that he wakes up every day and works hard at his sobriety and that it is so fucking tough. robby hasn't seen that.

langdon expecting after being back for one day (and yes, he was an excellent doctor i would never say he's not), should be enough to win back the trust that robby has in him is unreasonable. that's what the scene should've been about.

langdon has, all season, operated under the guise of accountability. the second santos presses him, he gets defensive. "you don't know what i've been through." that's true, she doesn't know what he's been through. but she knows what she's been through, which was bullying, gaslighting, and harrassment from a superior on her first day at work because he could tell she knew something was up. she might not know what he's been through, but that's not what making amends is about. it's about him acknowledging that he hurt her because he was an addict. part of making amends is realising that sometimes you fuck up with someone so badly they can't forgive you, and you need to be okay with that. you can't become okay with that if you still feel like your actions were justified and that she owes you forgiveness because of what you went through.

he obfuscated the issue with al-hashimi, directly lied to her by omission when he said that santos just doesn't like him cause he was an asshole to her. he didn't want to tell baran what he had done because it makes him sound bad!!! and this woman doesn't know him but she's his boss, and he doesn't want another person who has to learn to trust him again.

this scene should have been about langdon and his recovery, and how he's struggling to make amends with the people that he has hurt. it's completely natural when you apologise to somebody to get upset when/if they don't forgive you. it's so fucking hard to continue to apologise to someone even while they're yelling at you. what he's doing is fucking hard. that's why there's twelve steps.