to be seen; to be found—

gun sex fic is giving me a little trouble with the explicit parts but i have a very shoddy and incomplete draft for those parts so i'm feeling hopeful! gotta get more writing done whyy is it taking so long :(( dropping this snippet from gun sex fic: “Can’t look at me, yeah? Don’t get all shy on me now.” The man noses at his cheeks, his chin, the corner of his lips. His beard is going to leave a rash. “Give me a kiss, Bambi.” Niall shakes his head desperately, clamps his mouth shut and purses his lips so tightly that tears bead in his eyes. It buys him a reprieve, but only for a second. . . . [there's a paragraph between these two but it's still in the drafting stage lol]

. . . .Niall’s lungs are being flattened and he’s trying to calm down, to think, to not grant the man the satisfaction of seeing him so weak, so off-balance. But he feels like that boat has left the harbor, or rather that that gun has left his hands. Weakly, he tries to pull his arms out of the sick embrace, but the man pins them above his head with a single hand, and uses the other to tweak at a nipple with an indelicate finger. Caught off-guard at the jolt of pleasure pleasure pleasure, Niall’s mouth opens in ecstasy and it’s horrible, utterly paralyzing because the man bullies his tongue in, lightning-quick. It's what he was aiming for all along and Niall was stupid, was a fool for falling for it.  mwah! <33333

hi size kink anon [raucous applause]! i hope you’ve been well <3 you’ve an uncanny ability of popping up just when i could use a little brightness, thank you very much !!! the what ifs and could-have-beens between niallruben are endless it makes me so emotional😞😞

BUT!! hey!! some is better than none, no? you’re writing! you’re doing it!! and i’m proud of you :D and so excited and happy about any and all developments hehe. am here if you need anyone to talk things out with <3 MY SMILE KEPT GETTING WIDERRRRR READING THISSSSS OHHHHMYGOSHHH give me a kiss bambi AHHHHHHMYGOD RUBEN GETTING HIS TONGUE IN NIALL’S MOUTH EVERYONE CHEERED HELLLLLL YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH OHHHHH YAY YAY AND YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY