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Loyalty (1869)

Randy Ortiz, “Battles”

Hi JD!! 💜💖 ah the napping fic. I’m hoarding the ⏳for the night. I’ll be back.

❓: there’s an episode of friends where Joey and Ross accidentally fall asleep on Ross’ couch. And they wake up with Ross’s head pillowed on Joey’s shoulder/chest, and then (because it was the late 90s/early 00s) basically do the equivalent of no-homo but more dramatic. Except Joey had such a good nap he tries to trick Ross into falli bc asleep again together because “it was the best nap he’s ever had” and Ross is like, we can’t do that again! And Joey’s like, why not!! It was great. Something something homoeroticism played for a laugh, and then they nap together on purpose except they wake up to their friends all standing over them like wtf? This is gay. Again, it was of the time.

The point! Is that I think it would be silly (and mildly angsty) if Buck and Eddie accidentally fell asleep napping together, and then trying to coax the other into having it happen again, but they can’t/wont admit that the reason it was so great was because of feelings, and safety, and comfort, and just being close with the other, and isn’t it strange that my heart rate slows down to Eddie’s and I can suddenly calm my racing thoughts because what do I have to worry about when I can just pay attention to how nice this feels, hanging with my good buddy Eddie. And, man I suppose I have to nap if that’s the only way Buck’s gonna nap and so what if it tricks me into being nice to myself and this isn’t about what I want it’s about Buck, who needs to sleep! I’m such a good friend. Or something.