Lost Forest Witch

I make good money. I've paid my rent on time. But still every single place either turns me down or doesn't even respond when I reach out.

I can afford every single rental house on the market today and still since August not a single one has offered a rental contract.

It's not money.

It's gotta be something else.

Could it be the 20 false noise complaints that I received? Where I had to HIRE A LAWYER to get the homeowner to stop?

Could it be that I'm American? I speak Norwegian, I live like a Norwegian. I do my best to make Norwegian friends and enjoy life in Norway. I've spoken nothing but good about Norway but still every single place I apply to takes one look at me and turns me away

Half of these places are STILL ON THE MARKET. SINCE AUGUST

They would rather let the place rot than rent to me

I wonder what the problem is.

Oh yeah maybe it's just the fact that I'm black and transgender

"We're just worried that you might not fit with the rest of the people"

What. Does. THAT. Mean.

In the meantime I applied for emergency housing. There's a whole application that you can go through with the government.

NAV (Basically the Norwegian government) calls me today.

"We don't have any houses we can give you in an emergency"

Then why

THE FUCK

Do you have an application

"What type of houses have you been looking at?"

"In what areas have you been looking?"

"How big of a house are you expecting?"

Are you serious?

This. Is an

Emergency

So I'm technically homeless for the time being. But luckily, as some of you will have guessed, I do have people that care about me and want me to have a place to stay, and one of them happens to be my partner.

He lives quite a distance away, but it's drivable, and my time of being technically homeless is temporary, since I did sign a lease for a new place.

The government called me again, and while they still didn't have a place for me to lay my head, they did offer me information on financial assistance so I don't go broke between now and when I can move into my new place.

They also pointed me in the direction of an organization that can help me in another way as well. That one, I need to keep a bit close to the vest until something real materializes.

And I successfully moved out of my house. 3 days from a fully livable house to completely empty, and I did the job ALONE.

The queen is maybe just a little bit of a badass.

Anyway I'm still organizing, cleaning, adjusting, and preparing for the long drive to go see my boyfriend. I think this, a few days ago, is the lowest I've been in a long time. And now I'm bouncing back. Not because everybody was so nice (although my boyfriend is a life saver. And, at least at present, my new landlord seems pretty wonderful) but because I've continuously worked my ass off and got done what needed to be done.

I do have kind people in my life. And I know they care about me. They're helping me bounce back in a very big way and I'll always appreciate it.

Never

Wanted

To

Update

This

Again

.......*sigh*

So my doctor is now refusing to send in a new sick leave certificate

My boss is blaming me for not getting it

NAV basically says they can't do shit without it

And I'm sitting here with every piece of my legal status on a precipice with one person standing in the way of me actually being able to live

Good news? I got notice that I might finally get my green card

Complicated news? That means the process isn't over and I still need to be extremely careful how I proceed and not rock any boats so that I can secure my legal status in the country where I live.

Shitty news? My doctor lied and said NAV was refusing to let her update my sick leave

My boss is pissy because the certificate hasn't been filed (I GET THAT!)

And NAV is basically saying they're helpless until the next meeting

They say I could apply for money but again, as I explained above, I don't want to get fucking deported. I'll get shot the instant my black, transgender ass walks out of the airport! It's a fucking death sentence and everybody involved is treating it like "meh...I guess if you don't want to get shot in America you can starve in Norway"

Nevermind the fact that all my bills are behind AGAIN because this is the second time they've just refused to release my sick pay. It's basically the last month of actual sick pay that I'm even going to get and my damn doctor is standing in the way and LYING saying that she couldn't do the form, when NAV says she could.

These people I swear to God

I hate this post, I really do. Every time I need to touch it, I'm in a harsh, tenuous, "my life could be absolutely fucked if I don't beg the world for help" type of position.

And I'm there again.

So first the good news

I was lucky enough to find a new place

"But Mihai you found a place to live"

Yeah the landlord's bank isn't letting her keep the place and she can't sell it with me in it. She needed me to buy it or move out so she could sell it. I'm... not happy about it but I'm past blaming her for it. I'm neutral about the whole thing now, just taking the steps to move out.

So

I was very lucky and found a new place quickly this time. No 1.5 months of getting turned away or looked at like some alien like last year. I actually got a beautiful place and the owner seems wonderful and lovely.

I can afford it on my income but moving in here is gonna cost more than I expected. Meaning I need to put my ego aside and beg. I literally need to beg for donations because trying to sell books means the money might arrive in my bank next month, or the month after; and I'm gonna be hurting starting basically now.

Any amount helps. Literally anything. The more donations come in, the bigger problems I can tackle without starving to death or having one of the nicest people I've recently met have to kick me out on the street

I'm gonna set my donation goal at $1800 because that's how much bigger the deposit was than I was expecting and putting that money down is gonna hurt bad.

If yall want me to, I can make a new post that I will update maybe like once a day or something so yall know how I'm doing

I appreciate yall. And with some hope, I'll never have to update this post again. I really want to leave this chapter of my life behind. Constantly being forced to relocate is HELL on my soul and while I'm also trying to shift into writing as my full-time work, this absolutely does not help to keep my focus on creating a universe you all can enjoy or helping bring peace to Palestine or ridding the world of dictators. I really want to help, but right now I need help myself

Please

Please keep in mind that

1. This was the only thing on the market that could fit me and my kids

And

2. Rent prices have gone down pretty significantly, for me to be able to afford what I'm getting for this price.

That being said, my unemployment is nowhere near what my sick pay was. Absolutely nowhere near. I'm in this place where basically every month I'm going to be falling significantly behind no matter what I do unless I sell a fuckload of books or beg the internet for donations. Or most realistically both.

Now on the good side, a few people have bought books. Two people who, to this point, owned books but hadn't read them, have started reading. One has read both books and one is almost through "Meet Annabella"

And happily, the reviews from them are great! Probably gonna recommend. Yall may see reviews coming soon. I'm sure I'll be blushing myself into Mihai soup

And I just shipped two books to someone who has a fairly enormous following. If they have a similar experience to others who have read these books, there may be a day soon where I'm getting a lot more orders

But that day hasn't come yet

And there's no guarantee it ever will

But I can guarantee the bills will keep coming

It's the most expensive time of the year and it's tight for everyone; which is why I'm asking for this support.

I desperately want to be the one GIVING support at this time of the year.

Maybe if enough people fall in love with The Master's Quest, I will be next year

Because like....................

First off, thank yall. I never want it to seem like I'm ungrateful. You've saved me in ways I never thought possible.

But this world seems dead set on killing me and taking me from you.

I'm about to get my electricity cut off. I paid one of my electric bills. Turns out it wasn't 3 months and me getting caught up. No no. It was one month.

I paid my phone bill. Thought that was paid up to date too. It's not. They're about to cut my phone off too.

The only thing left is my rent and I don't even have enough money for that.

Norway and Molde, especially all these bill companies, are just bound and determined to see me die on the street. I've done everything I can. I've used up my savings, I've begged yall. Yall have even revived my donation links FOR me and yet, at this moment, these companies choose to hit me even harder.

€1700 for the electric bill I thought I had paid

€200 for the phone bill I thought I had paid

I DID pay these things. But apparently just nowhere near enough

And another €1800 for my rent that comes due on the 1st. It's the only thing I'm current on.

Yall have been wonderful, sharing my book links everywhere. There's even been a few people who have placed my flyers on bulletin boards around the world. But the orders aren't coming in. I'm too unknown. Nobody knows who I am and they, understandably, don't want to spend €32 on a book they've never heard of by some author they've never heard of.

I mean, I get it

The problem is, that very normal reality is killing me.

Mostly because of these companies and their fucking disgusting practices.

I've been fighting so hard for so long

It just keeps getting worse and worse. Every time I make a bit of headway, pay off all the bills, get caught up, and start to save... this world smacks me down harder than ever before and I end up lower than the lowest I've ever been.

I'm sorry yall. I don't know what else to do.

I would say donate if you can, but this is THOUSANDS of euro, thousands of dollars at this point. Even if yall weren't burned out from me asking you, I'm not sure yall would be able to donate enough to make a dent in this bullshit.

It's not your fault. I appreciate yall. I'm really only making this because if I go tell someone the world is crushing me; I don't want them to be able to say that I didn't try.

Thank you so much.

I still need a lot of help, please. At least until I can get my phone turned back on

Look at the timing.

June 2024 "thank you for letting me be me"

October 2024 "I'm in danger of becoming homeless"

She literally went “debate me! Debate me!” Over and over like the grifter she is and when she couldn’t get what she wanted and when “no” wasn’t enough she resorted to retaliatory sex-pestery, posting an image of somebody’s body with intention to shame and embarrass and spawn more waspish tittering from her internet followers.

(1) A person (A) commits an offence if—

(a) A intentionally shares a photograph or film which shows, or appears to show, another person (B) in an intimate state, (b) B does not consent to the sharing of the photograph or film, and (c) A does not reasonably believe that B consents.

(2) A person (A) commits an offence if—

on women in general, it shows that they think misogyny is deserved, natural even, so much so that it is the default way that all people interact with women. if you exist as a woman, at any possible moment, you can and should be subject to misogyny, and thats normal.

on trans women specifically, it shows they don't actually see us as women. they think we aren't subjected to misogyny on a daily basis. they think we dont experience this behavior already, when it's not as they refer to as a "joke". they think that like themselves, no one in the world could possibly see us as actual women.

therefore, when we are subjected to misogyny, it should be "affirming". its someone briefly winking and nodding at us, saying "ill pretend you're a woman, get back in the kitchen and make me a sandwich". its the belief that they're doing us a favor, that they're being trans positive, even. they think its the same as calling us pretty. after all, they're momentarily treating us the same way they treat every other women.

the worst part is that they're partially right. it can actually feel slightly gender affirming the first time a stranger says your tits look great. but its not as fun the second time. or the third. or the 50th. or the 1000th. they are right, i would rather be called a cunt or a bitch rather than a tranny or an autogynophile. but id much rather not be called any of that. it can feel nice the first time a man hits on you because he finds you attractive (aka fresh meat), instead of hitting you for not being man enough. it gets old real quick having to cover my drink around literally everyone.

back when i lived in florida with my parents, my dad and i went to the store to get some pool supplies. on our way back to the car there was an old guy who said something (i can't remember what exactly, i think it was something about swimming) and gave me an updown before i was able to turn to face him. i didnt notice at the time but my dad told me in the car. i felt simultaneously validated and repulsed and it was confusing, but looking back on it, it feels like my dad didnt react like he would have if i had been cis.

but sure, trans women don't experience misogyny.

when i was closeted, i convinced my parents to buy me a maid dress that i could wear to a convention (as a joke, definitely, for sure, thats why i borrowed one of my mom's bras and stuffed it with socks and underwear.) while i was going to get in the car my brother stopped in front of me and grabbed my chest and squeezed it. i pushed him off because i felt genuinely uncomfortable and disgusted, and luckily my mom saw it and chewed him out. i have never forgotten this and i have not forgiven him for it either.

even after i came out to my friends in high school, i still regularly had friends who would grab at and grope my chest """as a joke""" and it made me really uncomfortable every time. i told them to stop but they never really listened.

Because when trans women dare to speak up for themselves, Tumblr nukes their blogs.

We need to be fucking loud about this, daily, because Tumblr staff is specifically targeting and deleting trans women who are not breaking ToS and who often have fundraisers up FOR THEIR SURVIVAL.

By deleting these blogs repeatedly, Tumblr staff is saying loud and clear what they hope happens to these girls.

Are y'all okay with that? Because if not we need to be posting about it more because we have seen by now it's incredibly fucking unlikely this sites moderation will delete our blogs for it because we are not trans women

who GOT FUCKING DRUGGED

Was

Marijuanification

Complete Derangement

Stoned Sex Drive

Derangement Manifests a Literal Sex Demon

Monstrum Incarnate