˖༺ Mehad♡༻˖

Anaïs Nin. Hedy Lamarr. Marie Curie. My holy trio <3

you taught me lessons unlettered by life although it letters me to a point of dryness where nothing remains but an abyss of spiraling thoughts and a flowing river

an abyss hanging onto life by a Fibonacci sequence, yet nothing is ever linear.

-Mehad

I was always the curious child—drawn to Greek myths, the stars, and the hidden sciences of the soul. By thirteen I had mastered astrology and tarot; by sixteen I was immersed in Kabbalah, philosophy, and literature from Byron to Charles Baudelaire. My path led me into the occult—Lévi, sacred geometry, and the symbols of power.

I grew into an enlightened woman, rich with knowledge, yet all they could call me was a “witch.” The truth is that intelligence terrifies the narrow-minded. When they can’t confine you to their little boxes, they invent false images—because they know they will never measure up to a small fraction of your light.

lilith was never evil she was just fed up of men always being in control when it came to intimacy & was quickly named as a "villain" becoming an outcast just because she had the guts to rebel against it.

lilith the black moon in astrology is what we call our "shadow self" because it represents our deepest darkest desires that we tend to normally neglect. That is because pursuing that little thing we extremely crave might make us feel scared, paranoid & we could possibly be shamed for it.

for example; if your lilith is in aries, you were probably seeking power and independence from childhood but the people around you always wanted you to be needy/dependent on them. They taught you that wanting your own independence isn't necessarily a good thing when it for sure is.

even if we tried going after it, we find ourselves getting constantly restricted because our mind automatically plays it down and convinces us that it is a stupid idea. That is how lilith felt when people went against her. she lives within all of us. That is why "shadow work" is extremely important & has to be done - it is a form of rebelling against the things that make you unhappy just like lilith did.